|Favorite book:||When Dreams Come True: Eric and Leslie Ludy|
|Member Since:||Dec 25, 2011|
Hello there! I guess i'll start off by saying that i'm a 16 year old boy! Yes BOY NOT GIRL! I love to write stories, poems, songs you name it! I like to right romance poems and stories the most, yeah maybe you're still thinking im a girl, I'M STILL A BOY. I'm a romantic person, and thats that! There is nothing wrong with it, but a lot people pick on me for liking to write, but once they read what i write i feel like killing myself. 100% of my work comes from my heart, like "Parks Of Autumn" and "I Will Wait". Those are poems/Stories that come from my own thoughts and beliefs. Why am i called Anonymousdreamer? well it's a pretty simple. I love to dream and wonder, far far away to a safer place. I struggle with a great deal of depression, i can't stand it anymore. I've attempted suicide more then once, and each time i was close to dying, but it ever worked. So i guess thats a good thing. It's funny how nobody cares about you or even likes you until you're dead, or cutting. Either way getting off track here.
I must first say that i'm Christain! :) I believe that Jesus died on the cross for my sins and saved me, it was a choice i made on my own, my parents didn't make me. I try my best to serve God and put others ahead of myself, nobody is perfect but we can try to please God in everything we say and do. My relationship with God is growing little by little, and i'm so thankful that i chose his way and not my own. God is my AutoPilot, he knows already where i'm going and he'll take me there in his time. So you can bug me all you want for my faith, it won't do you any good. I'm an FBI agent (Firm Believer In Jesus).
I will not lie, my faith in God has been very little. I'm trying so hard to stay on track with him but i keep falling off and losing. I don't want to go Hell, i want to serve him. It's just so hard to serve him in all of this. This self hate, this fear and anger. Its so hard to let go of. I pray that when i die i'll go to heaven, but im not sure anywhere if he will take me. I'm scared, and i feel alone. Screams make me feel safe, because then i don't have to scream at everyone. I just want to get out and be a free kid...
I'm a HUGE Owl City fan! His music is so relaxing and dreamy that once my headphones are in my head you'll never find me, i'm lost in a silent dance, my darling we're both on the wing look down and keep on singing, cause we can go anywhere. Are you there? :) You might find some of my titles a bit strange, but after you read them, you'll understand why i have those titles. That's what i love about Owl City, sometimes you don't get the names of the songs, but afterwards you'll know.