Feb 15, 2010 So last Thursday we got between 6 and 9 inches of snow. Had lots of fun playing in that record breaker Texas Snowfall..well atleast since i've been alive =]
Feb 6, 2010 I went and seen "Dear John" last night by our old buddy Nicholas Sparks..he once again managed to make me cry. Although the movie was not as good as I expected it was still worth seeing. Although I think it was to soon for me to have seen such a movie or maybe it was just being back at the movies for the first time since everything happened. Last night was a horrible night though which ever way it goes 3
Dec 25, 2009 My boyfriend died the 23rd. Just suddenly..I didn't get to say goodbye or that I loved him. I was upset with him the night before..I don't even remember if I told him "I love You" before he walked out of the room.
They say it was a blood clot..won't know for sure till the autopsy report comes back..which could be up to 30 days.
I don't know what to do with myself. After I wake up is especially hard because then I remember again that it's all real and that he isn't gonna be there when I walk into the living room. He didn't get to open his Christmas present that he was so excited to get. He didn't get to spend Christmas with me..it would have been our first together..that's what he wanted..he wanted me and him to have Christmas together. He didn't get to see it rain..he was happy it was gonna rain. We didn't get to watch the snow fall together. We can't start college together now..or get married and have kids. He will never get to open his youth center. I can't grasp the fact that he is gone..never to return. To feel his skin so cold when it used to be so so warm. He won't wrap his arms around me and tell me that he loves me anymore. He won't pick on me or watch scary movies with me and protect me anymore. I won't see that beautiful smile or those amazing eyes anymore.
What am I supposed to do?