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Booksie Address:	http://www.booksie.com/Ghonesis
Country:	Netherlands
Favorite book:	The Road
Member Since:	Sep 5, 2011

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At my age

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Aug 23, 2012
Perhaps it's not a poem after all... but it's been a...

Life lessons #1

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jul 1, 2012
A lesson on hurt:

Romantic Poetry #1

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jun 30, 2012
No summary:

Oh well, f*** it.

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Apr 29, 2012
I keep telling myself to exit the safe zone.

Out of a billion

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Apr 24, 2012
I can't get her out of my head...

After I told you

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Apr 23, 2012
Girls, please tell me: what would you do if somebody...

Diary Entry #2

Short Story by Ghonesis
Posted: Apr 16, 2012
Do you ever ramble about yourself pretending you're...

I don't know...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Apr 15, 2012
I can't write anymore. =S

It's not that bad

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Apr 12, 2012
,.,

Be yourself...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Apr 12, 2012
No matter what, be yourself. Stay true to yourself.

We are unknowing

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Mar 25, 2012
For the people who think they know anything at all:

Look to the sun

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Mar 25, 2012
Good weather made me write this, as a 'thank you' to the...

Die for it.

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Mar 25, 2012
Somewhat hopeful, this time:

One of my dreams

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Mar 25, 2012
As title says: I dreamed this.

Saved my life

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Mar 12, 2012
Sorry, depressing again.

My apology...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Mar 11, 2012
My apology to everyone.

Be my hero

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Mar 11, 2012
Objectivity is my personal religion.

Lowest of the low

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Mar 11, 2012
I wrote this in my bed, sitting up against a wall in my...

Something's funny

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Mar 4, 2012
What is it.. I think I forgot something...

Inside the mind of a madman

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Mar 1, 2012
Enough with the depressing stuff, let's write something...

To wake up

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Feb 27, 2012
To wake up from this.

The only thing I seek

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Feb 20, 2012
Dream poetry. (Vision rhyme + begin rhyme)

I may...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Feb 14, 2012
My contribution to the overloading pile of romantic...

You're wrong

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Feb 4, 2012
'Take a good look at your life' is what I told myself:

Now that's bullshit

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Feb 4, 2012
I've written poetry, but I haven't published anything in...

Thoughts..

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 29, 2012
(18+) ...can be quite discomforting:

No (1)

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 28, 2012
I hate humans, including myself.

What good did I do?

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 23, 2012
For Rhia2910's poetry competition:...

Perfection...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 23, 2012
Fiction.

Find Loneliness

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 23, 2012
True, I tell you!

Fuck me...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 19, 2012
Well.. if you want to read an angry poem.. go ahead.

Personal choice

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 19, 2012
Doesn't everybody tell you to just be yourself? Here's...

Can I ask you something?

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 19, 2012
Conversational poem.

Work...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 18, 2012
Short.

The water drop

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 17, 2012
A metaphor for life: a window...

Perfect (to me)

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 17, 2012
Love poetry. Don't relate this to me.

Turn around: you're gone

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 16, 2012
Being alone leads to depression.

I'm not who I seem to be

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 15, 2012
Who I want to be: A nice guy. Who I am: a jerk.

Never fall asleep

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 14, 2012
(uhm... 16+, I'd say) Why I hate going to bed:

The lightless white

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 14, 2012
One of my mystery poems. Enjoy. =)

Behind you.

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 12, 2012
18+ Horror poetry again. Not as bloody as the previous...

Eyes of the dead

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 10, 2012
WARNING: 18+. GRAPHIC AND BLOODY IMAGES. First attempt...

Friendship...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 10, 2012
(no summary)

Delicious Helplessness

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 9, 2012
I can't help. That hurts. Not much to do, is there? >__>

Sigh...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 6, 2012
About sighing.

Poetry is easy

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 6, 2012
Trying to write something funny. Hope you like it. =)

Growing up too quickly

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 6, 2012
I pretty much hate puberty. But I guess it's just a rough...

I have sinned...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 6, 2012
Let me give some background to this: I haven't fallen in...

Return from the dead

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 5, 2012
I have no idea what I just wrote. Thoughts.

Impossible to forgive yourself

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 5, 2012
Hmmm.... I don't think I should use this rhyming pattern...

Label me

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 5, 2012
(I wrote this weeks ago, but I felt like it wasn't good...

Do you even know?

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Jan 2, 2012
Pretty much a true story. Some girls are just too...

You know I miss you...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 30, 2011
I miss that feeling:

Unattainable dreams are the best kind

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 25, 2011
"Unattainable dreams are the best kind". Lazard...

I wish I could cry

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 19, 2011
I wish I would cry more often. This world deserves to be...

I fell for the wrong girl

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 19, 2011
*sigh* This is kind of a true story. I'm not sure...

The days after

Novel by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 18, 2011
*SHORT NOVEL* This story was inspired by the book 'The...

What... the... fuck...?

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 16, 2011
I've never felt like this before:

My disease

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 15, 2011
I don't want rescue:

Suicide note #43

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 14, 2011
The one I hate the most of all humans:

Suicide note #42

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 14, 2011
I wrote this after a girl had a rough day at school (a...

Silence me

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 14, 2011
I'm being selfish:

A walk

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 13, 2011
...in the dark: (short, not my best, I'm publishing anyway)

My pen (1)...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 12, 2011
Just let poetry write itself:

Turns out I never was

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 9, 2011
....in love:

Life sucks, no offence

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 9, 2011
I learned an important lesson the last week:

I'm going insane xD

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 8, 2011
I guess I broke somewhere, I just have to wait until the...

Kill me tonight...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 7, 2011
I saved this under a word file called: 'Yeah, pretty much...

Never-FUCKING-mind...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 7, 2011
Don't comment on this, honestly I shouldn't be posting...

Forever jealous

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 5, 2011
I'm often jealous of others:

Like me...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 4, 2011
More people are like me:

So, yeah...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Dec 1, 2011
I just told a friend one of my secrets. 'So this is how...

I wish I could draw

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 30, 2011
Title says all:

Stuck in a game

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 29, 2011
I guess more people feel the way I do:

What do I write?

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 23, 2011
I don't need a reason to write:

Fog (1):

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 22, 2011
= confusion:

Let me go inside

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 22, 2011
I've changed, but people can't tell:

It's okay you don't know

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 21, 2011
They don't know I write poetry, and I'd rather keep it...

You don't know me

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 20, 2011
I wrote this to my dad (he'll never get to read it, though):

Mario!

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 19, 2011
GAME POETRY! I wanted to try something I've never seen...

Taste...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 17, 2011
Another riddle poem:

Dead emotions

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 16, 2011
I stopped caring... unfortunately.

Don't leave me hidden...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 15, 2011
Could you find me if I didn't show myself to you?...

Wait... Am I alone?

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 15, 2011
Am I the only one like this?

Would you lie?

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 14, 2011
(UNCENSORED) I wrote this poem when I needed some love:

If you were my girl

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 13, 2011
Just playing with metaphors:

No More (1)...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 13, 2011
My dream, no more of this: (not my best poem)

Heart aches

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 11, 2011
My feelings placed in my body:

Different?

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 10, 2011
A sonnet:

I found something...

Short Story by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 9, 2011
Now before anybody is getting any funny ideas about me,...

What do you want it to be?

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 8, 2011
What vision did you get with this poem?

You got what it takes?

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 7, 2011
Well, do you?

Well, ****!

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 6, 2011
Anger (uncensored, be advised):

I don't know

Script by Ghonesis
Posted: Nov 5, 2011
I started writing a poem, but it turned into a dialogue....

I can't think...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 29, 2011
Love poetry. Again. Hope you like it ^^ :

God? Go ahead.

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 28, 2011
A bit controversial subject. Here's my opinion, no irony...

Autism

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 27, 2011
If you don't know what autism is:...

Join the losing side!

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 24, 2011
Why not? Take a risk:

Nothing to do...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 19, 2011
Any idea why I wrote this poem? You guessed it:

Leave me!

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 18, 2011
I need to be alone:

And now I know...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 17, 2011
(UPDATED) Love growing over the years:

Honestly sorry

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 15, 2011
But only if you're really sorry...: (by the way, I know,...

The rain that is you

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 13, 2011
Dreaming in the rain:

Reality crash

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 12, 2011
They say fantasy is better than reality. I agree.

Days of desire

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 11, 2011
A day in the life of someone that desires to be loved:...

Have I FINALLY found myself?

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 10, 2011
First poem where I swear in: be warned! Let me put...

A good listener.

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 10, 2011
I'm interested in what you say, I'll let you finish your...

I want a girl...

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 9, 2011
This is my dream of love...

I can't take this... But I love it!

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 8, 2011
In this poem I will describe how I feel reading (sad)...

The Coin

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 7, 2011
I always carry a coin with me, to help me make decisions:

You know why?

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 6, 2011
Do you know why I love you?

What am I doing wrong?

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 6, 2011
Sometimes people need to just be silent and listen:

Daydreaming at school

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 6, 2011
I wrote this poem during a free period at school. This is...

Booksie Poetry

Poem by Ghonesis
Posted: Oct 5, 2011
A short poem on Booksie as a site, as a warming-up first...

No books listed.

Aug 23, 2012
I'm reminding myself every single day of how melodramatic I am. Just look at my profile page...

I've died on Booksie. Haven't been posting for months now...

Feel free to read, still. I guess I've moved on from my poetry-writing-angsty-teenager-phase. Too bad, some people said I was pretty good at writing.

I still write, but rarely. Last poem: 'At my age' has been the first in month. And I used to read a lot on this site as well, now I completely stopped.

I initially started writing because I always had some sort of liking for poetry. But I was a game addict: I didn't care for anything but my video games and I really didn't want to.

Then my hard drive crashed and I was left without a computer for a week. I just didn't know what to do... so I started writing poetry. At first it was just in Dutch.. and really bad, now I'm rereading them. I knew about Booksie already, so when I got my computer back I looked it up and started reading a lot of poetry.

At some point: after chatting and replying to some works for a bit, I was asked to post some of my own work...

That's basically when I started writing... in class, during breaks, during nighttime when I'm supposed to be asleep.. etc.

Back then I used to think video games were not a life. They only distracted me from the horrors I face each day in the depression I fell into after losing my PC for a week. I didn't enjoy it as I did before.

I never really stopped gaming, but I was less serious and spend less time on them. I was rather reading or writing poetry or talking on Omegle about my problems.

This lasted for about.. 11 months? In that time I had 3 crushes... (because you would probably understand that writing poetry makes you more aware of your feelings and that's when I started noticing the amazing girls I encounter daily).

I had guts to tell all 3 about my feelings, but that didn't get me far. The first one I gave up on before I even tried. That was just a silly crush and I knew in the end I'd never want to be with her.

The second was worse: I wrote a love letter to her. And I don't know about you, but apparently I hadn't realised received a love letter from a random student at the same school is kinda creepy.

Even though, she asked me out for a date, which I completely failed because I was way too nervous. I just couldn't think straight. But it was kind of expected given she's both pretty and sweet. But at least I got a chance to fail: I learned from that mistake.

The third one is the most silliest: on a holiday job for 3 weeks there was this girls I only saw. We made eye contact a lot in breaks and during work, but we never really spoke. So one day I walked up to her and asked if I could speak to her in the break. She nervously agreed.

At break I told her outright I thought she was the most amazing girl I knew at work. I introduced myself and she responded accordingly. But since she was with friends she said goodbye and left for lunch. After that she simply avoided me...

But at some day of work she comes up to me and tells me she quit: she couldn't handle the situations and the pressure. She simply wanted to say farewell to me... I guess I should have asked for a cell phone number or her full name to get her Facebook or something... but I didn't. Because while she ignored me I was telling myself to get over her. After that I never saw her again.

Anyway, after about 11 months: maybe 2-3 weeks ago, I realised something.

Gaming is a life. It's the life I fell back to after some depressions and setbacks. Because in the end.. what does it matter as long as you have fun? I don't want to worry about how bad my life sucks all the time: it's a waste. Enjoying life is what life is for.. to me.

And of course I'd rather walk down a country road holding hands with a girl than winning any tournament of any game, but teenage love simply isn't cut out for me. I've had too much bad luck to try again right now.

Teenage love simply comes from an overload of hormones.. it's perverted, silly and stupid. And the hormones can also be dealt with by pleasing yourself all the time, which is what teenagers (especially boys) simply do. Teenage love rarely works out into marriage or a long-lasting relationship.

So.. uhm.. I've gone a bit astray, but that's basically why I left Booksie: I don't want to be reminded of how bad life sucks here. I don't even want to think about my past, philosophy, love, or anything related to it. I just want to forget everything and have a good time with the friends I have now.

You probably enjoyed the story of my teenage life, somehow. Because if you didn't, why did you finish it, aye?

I'm just a boy, I rant about stuff in my life few people care about in the end. Because caring is a skill many people fail to master...

I'll be saying farewell to Booksie for now.

RIP Ghonesis

Sayonara.