Hello my name is Heather Rainwater and i am 15 years old and I am in alternative school at "The Rock". Hopefully i will be getting out around Christmas. Thats only if Im good. In March I was placed in foster care in the state of Tennessee and was put in the custody of my father, Tim Rainwater, on July 29th. I have a younger sister that was also placed with me. Her name is Brittany Rainwater, 12, and she attends Whitley County Middle School. I don't have TOO many friends here but I have enough to keep me going. I am making all A's at the moment but it is getting harder as I go. I know I can make it though. My mother lives in the state of Tennessee at the moment with a close friend and we have the option to see her every other weekend. Sometimes I choose not to. Mainly because I feel uncomfortable around her because she blames me for her problems and sometimes she likes to get physical with me. I am having a hard time with everything. With my being a teenager, recently in foster care, I feel like im losing my mother, so on so forth. My father doesn't force me to go with my mother if i don't wish to. He doesn't believe in that kind of thing. He understands to an extent. My father remarried a 30 year old woman, Elizabeth Rainwater, and has a 2 year old baby boy with her now, Devon Rainwater. My mother remarried right after the divorce to a man, Ronnie Cupp, who had a little boy named Chase Cupp. After a few years I started seeing abuse from my step dad to my little brother and my little brother and sister reported it to Department of Children Services in Tennessee. They put Chase in a mental facility in Memphis, Tennessee and me and my little sister remained in the home with my mother and step-father. I was mentally abused every day and I waited for years for the right time to do something about it and I did. On March 17 2010 I called Department of Children Services requesting they be checked for drugs in the home and in their systems. My step-father ran and my mother got arrested for neglect and they found drugs in the home. Unfortunately my step-father did molest me and I eventually did do something about that yet my mother doesnt believe me on that point. My step-father was given a year probation for it. My mother was given two years probation. I now live with my father in the state of Kentucky and I am happy to say I am doing much better. I am part of a family who I know cares about me and I don't have to worry about being taken away every month with my dad. My dad is strict but he says its only because he has missed out on raising me for five long years and he only has a short period left to teach me. I guess he is right, but on the other hand I was made to grow up a lot faster than I was supposed to and my maturity level is a lot higher than a teen's is supposed to be. It's time I be a kid and how not to be the mother of the house......... Because of the things I have been through the only way to get my feelings out is in poems. I hope you like them.