i was piecing together with missing pieces

I didn't know til today. That you were watching and listening. Me. Trying to bullshit my friends (and sometimes myself because of your outer behavior) That I wasn't in love with you the ENTIRE time. And still am. IDIDN'T KNOW. TIL TODAY, a lil while ago that we were only talking about imaginary people. I thought it was both. So now I am leaving my prisonal apt. Since I ended up with no horses I am using these two fucking feet.