Spiritual weight pain

I just wonna gain some weight and in the plate i wil find my solace

of the woman that tryed to take my pride and evrything in despide

in believe that i will raise and become a better person.

So im drowning in my food,lost in my addiction probably seduction ,

i yust wonna feel the pride that is coming from inside,

of the person who had once a clear mind.

Im trying to beat my addiction by thinking of my past

and trying to overcome my last hope of reallity and what im becoming to be.

My spiritual self has beaten to the last grass in ground,

im just hoping that the ground will take my spiritual weight

in the fact that the weight is so heavy and will not endure

the pressiore of my pain.