After half an hour, my shopping is done. I have all the necessary groceries i will need to survive another week. So i have a quick look around to establish where the cashiers are and then head in that direction. Over the past half hour i would have encountered all sorts of people, now i am not talkling about their ethnicities or anything like that, im being bold, im talking about their looks, the pretty people, the less pretty people and the not so pretty at all people ( being a not so pretty at all type of person myself i dont like to use the "U" word). Now where was i,oh, thats right heading towards the cashiers. Now im not in my local corner shop but a big name grocery store so there is a number of casheirs at my disposal. I eye the two closest cashiers, both female,both brunette (hair colour is not an issue with me),one very pretty, one not so pretty, both free and waiting their next customer and almost subconsciously i wander towards the pretty little thing.          

Is it because i am shallow that i opt for the eye candy or maybe back in the good old school days i was not only being taught in the classroom but learning a thing or two with the groups i associated with or more impotantedly the groups i was not associated with, more often than not the pretty befriend the pretty, they make their own little pretty groups.  I once heard a saying "if you want to become an eagle you have to fly with the eagles" Does this apply to the not so pretty wanting to become pretty or if you get in the pretty group will you still be for what you are? I mean this is a very judgemental society will live in. Anyhow the pretty now go on to marry the pretty and well, the not so pretty still want to befriend or even god willing marry a so called pretty person. But now at middle age after learning not too long ago that not everybody makes it rich despite however much you want it, that also not everybody gets the pretty little thing, so after ajusting to the fact that the average job, average wage that is your existance and will be for the next forty odd years, you now have to start looking for, well, an average little thing.

At this stage, you hate life just a little, you think lifes not fair. Oh of course you know there are plenty of people a lot worse off than you are but this is your life and being grateful for what you have sometimes just doesnt cut it.

Ok, lets take a not so pretty , quite shy person out in a bar on a friday night and i know what your going to say, the pretty can also be shy. Which is exactly my point. the pretty will always attract attention even a not so pretty might try their luck with a shy, pretty one while the not so pretty might go completely unnoticed, not to good for self esteem.

Now lets go back to the first pargragh, why did i wander towards that pretty little thing? ( its not as if i was going to ask for her number or anything like that,i mean i hardly made eye contact) Is it because i wanted to be in with the pretty group at school or was i overlooked in a bar one to many times, you may think that because of these events you realize that you are out of your own leauge but maybe it is in spite of these events  that the pretty ones continue to make your head turn, that glimmer of hope,that their head might turn back.   Or maybe, it really was subconsciously that i made that choice, i mean this whole pretty obsession can be found every where,from the magazines we read to what we watch on television. Take most of these teen drama series on television,im not sure but there must be "MODELS ONLY" printed somewhere in bold on the job application form. Are these shows meant to represent real life, maybe ive been wrong all along, the not so pretty at all people dont go to school at all.

Now dont get me wrong, i know what makes people different is not how they look but who they are, looks really are only skin deep but this is not the message that is broadcasted in our every day lives. So if i come across as shallow maybe it really is subconciously!