One day, when I came back from work, I found all the toys of kriish is locked in the cupboard and little Krishna ( now 2 years old) is sitting in one corner and the babysitter is relaxing with a book in another corner...she was surprised to see me...But I was SHOCKED...baby looked unhappy and petrified...I could not why since he was not talking yet...I took bath and took him with me to sleep...I tried my level best to extract what happened...he stared at me with blank eyes and hugged me...tears started rolling from my eyes..I could ‘sense’ something is wrong...something is just NOT right...but what and how to find out...
After 3 days, I took permission and came home 1 hour prior to my scheduled time to reach home, and I heard Krishna screaming at the top of his lungs and the baby sitter was shouting at him, that girl was shouting at a 2 year old because he wanted to play with toys and she did not want mess around + he was not eating...then, I heard a sound and I could not control and barged in...she had kicked little Krishna and he was crying uncontrollably now...when she saw me, she immediately hugged kriish...but it was too late, I had seen everything and as soon as kriish saw me, he started howling, crawled to me and hugged my legs...and in sign language he told me that the girl kicked her...she denied...
But how can she cheat a mother? And I had seen everything from beginning to end...I cried that day so much that my eyes were sore and were paining... Next day onwards, I stopped going to work and told the girl not to come again...I reported this to employment agency also so that no other kid should go through what kriish went through...
Then, came another baby sitter from Sanjib’s hometown again...this girl was very nice with Kriish but was careless and also kriish was now growing inquisitive and very active...he was happy and started talking...I had to join back to earn since Sanjib got a fellowship in Canada and we both have to earn to support his travel expenses etc...BUT with the new baby sitter also, kriish escaped falling from unguarded balcony from 3rd floor of our apartment when she had left him unattended on the 1st floor...when my neighbour rang me up and told this, everything was dark in front of my eyes...no point talking to a person who is not bothered about consequences...I cursed myself again and again...but could not quit the job...somehow the 6 months passed away safely and throughout I was calling GOD to be near little kriish, when his parents are away at work...THEN, I decided to take a break when Sanjib comes and not stay back in India and follow my career...in this way, Kriish can be with me till he joins school. I take him with me to YMCA where he plays, exercises and learns swimming and in the evening we go to the apartment swimming pool...if Sanjib is free, he comes or else we both go...in short, I am having a blast with him...we have grown closer and he confides in me...his fear, his insecurities, his happiness and even if we are under a tight budget, we are happy because we are together...he loves playing with his father and I will never take this joy away from him just because he cannot voice his opinion...why should I force my decision on him? Is he not a human being? He wants both of us and that shall be...
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