Christmas Cheer

Christmas Cheer

Christmas spirit means that for one day
you get to forget about how
you're a mess.
You can pretend that for the other
three hundred and four
and a quarter
days a year you're not a
step ladder below suicidal.
Christmas cheer means that for
twenty four hours or so
you get to make believe
you're not a wreck,
you're not a freak.

But don't worry.
You still are.
A freak.
A wreck.
A mess.
And no saviour will save you.
Why would she?
She doesn't love you.