Journal of John Losex cont.

chapter 1

"...Evils are going to be released?..." thought out loud jhon or jhonny to most his friends, it was a cold november night almost midnight and jhon still sat at the bench were he has been for most of the day. After reading the note his father left him, or at least he thought it was his father, was left to shocked to move, adding to the fact that his mother had died and today was her funeral. Wandering back home he thought over and over "how could this be happening now?..why wait till her last breath to give this to me?". Jhons mother, evelyn, was tall small lips, stright long jet black hair, big round grey eyes, high cheek bones, she was..is beautiful. Jhonny remembering his mothers smile which is what he loves the most about her, thought about what his father wrote "I need to tell you everything...way before you were born". After getting home jhon went stright back to the book, he couldnt hold on any longer, had to read the rest of it not minding the time. He came in sat at his favorite chair, and began to read.

"Evelyn Jones?" I asked "thats me!" she said walking so happy and energetic towards a stranger, someone shes never seen, never met. My eyes grew bigger as she came closer, so beautiful, looking as a goddess she came to a stop infront me, I was speechless to how beautiful this women was, I have never met her but yet I felt this feeling overcoming me, I dont know if it was just lust or love maybe hunger. At that moment is when I relized that I could never complete what I came for, I could never do such a thing to such a person, I could never kill your mother and my future wife. "....sir?..sir?" it wasnt till a minute later ,which felt like hours, that I relized she had been talking, "uh sorry ma'am...uh um im with the FBI would you come with me please?" starteld she said "of course, but may I know why please?" I couldnt explain to her why there not being a reason, or that I was really with the FBI "ma'am i'll explain one the way please come with me" I could tell she didnt trust me and I wouldnt blame her either my kind are up to no good, and even if I dont agree I dont have a say in it. Finally agreeing to come with me we drove away. It was already late so I had to finish my work fast, but how? I cant even get the nerve to talk to her much less kill her, she was starting to relax I could feel how she let go of her shield. I couldnt do it I just wouldnt dare, I loved her as stupid as it may seems I did love her, I took her to my place told her to stay there and not let anyone in she wasnt really copperating so I had to improv and cuff her to the kithchen table "look im sorry about this but I have to, ill explain everything when I come back". I went to jasons house, we have been friends since grade school, ill tell him about evelyn hopefully he'll have some ideas on how to get her out.

"Jason!" this fool sleeps deep so I have to baisclly scream him up "Jason! its me Jhon, man open up!" I was about to knock again when the door opened "what the hell man? you know what time it is?" Jason was a tall muscular guy with dirty blond cut short hair and dark blue eyes, but most of all a damn slacker for sure, "I got some problems man I need your help" knowing me Jason rushes in to get dressed finally coming out complaining as usual "damn Jhonny what have you gotten yourself into now!?" I always hated when he called me jhonny "its Jhon were not kids anymore Jase, just come with me" hurring him to the car he complaind as always about waking up so early and not being told whats going on or where he's going, I knew if I told him right there he would back out "oh really then i'd like it for you to call me Jason and not Jase" I baisclly raced home "damn Jhon easy up there" he always hated anything that went above the "limit" rollercoasters, race cars anything you name it. It kinda sent a tingle up my spine thinking of getting pulled over and teaching those damn cops a lesson they'll never forget, anyways I was kinda hungry I havent fed for two days now. Your mother's sent drives me crazy, I had to feed or I might not handle myself around her.I saw the red and blue lights on the mirror, this was my chance to feed if I didnt hurry up I'd go crazy, so I stopped. "Sir do you know how fast you were going there?" my eyes were darkening as was my heart "I'm afriad I'll have to give you a ticket, name?". I dont remember killing the cop as I passed out I only remember the look he gave me when I turned.

I completely forgot about Evelyn till I heard her screaming. "HELP!" you could hear the screams of Evelyn all the way out here, luckly I lived far in the woods there wasnt a single house for another mile or two, "hungry much Jhon!?" I ran towards the door to open it, Jason knew when I couldnt control myself it was like the end of the world "its not like that, come on in ill explain inside" a little coutious jason walked inside to find Evelyn cuffed to the kitchen table, and my eyes darkening again.

"baby what are you doing up so early? when did you get home?" liz walked in kinda sleepy looking, I couldnt do anything but stare at her I lost my words after reading this "is that the book your mom gave you?" I could hear but its like I couldnt understand what she were saying, "jhon? jhonathon!?" I finally snapped out of it " huh? oh what? no no I-I was just about to sleep, good night babe" before I could get up liz said the four words that could kill a man "we need to talk". She must have noticed the look on my face cuase she just burst out "on no! baby no dont worry, im talking about all of this your mom, the book...what time did you get home?" I was so relifed I thought the worst, "umm around one I think" she gave me the look I always hated that look, the one that says "hun I dont think your doing good to anyone here" I hated it cause she was always right. Liz was right all the times she gave me that look but this time something was different, I dont know what but I can feel it and it wasnt a very comftrable feeling. "Jhon please just come to bed and we'll talk about this tomorrow" there it goes again speechless all I could do was nod, liz looked me over a little worried I wish I could have reasured her but I couldnt bring myslef to say one word all I could do was look at her and nod. We reached our room liz took off my shoes and and shirt, she talked to me for a while as I was falling asleep, caressing me, holding me, takling smoothely in my ear I needed no more with that I fell asleep in her arms, the lights were fading and I was resting.

whats the matter jhonny? afraid of what might be in that book? "fuck this might be another of those wierd dreams I've been having scince mom got sick" jhonny I think this is far from a dream, I think you know, you just dont want to admit it "wh-who is that great now im taking to myself" I didnt have time for this right now I needed to wake up. JHONNY!!! why did you kill us jhonny!? your going to pay! "what the hell!?" listen Jhonny open your ears and eyes what the heck is going on this isnt like my other dreams, they were only about me truning into a monster and killing all my friends open up jhonny open up try to hear "mom!? mom!!" mommy mommy mommy..its time to grow up jhon!!! mommies gone, and shes not coming back for you, grow up!! now its time to wake go on go pretend to be normal for the time being.

I woke up to find myself in a pool of sweat "Jhonny your sweating lik..?" she looked shocked and scared trying to reasure her I said "nightmare" she looked at me like never before "your bleeding!" I just looked puzzeld at her I had no idea what she was talking about "your bleeding!" she said rushing for the first aid kit in the bathroom, thats when a jolt of pain hit my chest. "Jhonny what happened?" I could tell she was worried "baby dont worry, its nothing really. barley even hurts" I said but then I looked down to see what I thought was just a small cut, but i was big and deep alot of blood was gushing out. She gave a hint she was going to start crying, I hate it when she worries but more when she cries, shaking her head she just started crying and yelled "yea sure you probably just cut yourself by mistake with that blade over there coverd in blood!!!...jhon whats going on with you!?". It was very slient while she cleaned up my cut, I was speechless what had happened I dont remember waking up, neither one of us said anything. No one said much by much I mean Liz talking to herself about how stupid I am and I wasnt allowed to protest, liz just cleaned me up and left crying, thats when I noticed that not just my chest was cut but my back too. "What the hell!?" the cut on my back was worst but it wasnt bleeding nor did it hurt "is everything alright?" thats what I loved the most about liz she may be as mad as she wants but if someones hurt she'll put it aside and help "uhh y-yes just relax everythings alright" I dont want her to worry about this to I just want her to relax "you know you cant lie to me jhon, whats wrong?" she said walking in. Her face went bead red and I could have sworn that I saw steam come out her ears "JHONATHON THOMAS JUNIOR JUST WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO!!??" she had that look that said if I were your mother I would spank you hard "I didnt do anything, I couldnt have, theres no way I could have done that!". Liz suggested we go to the hospital but I refused I dont want to have to explian this to some doc. This was impossible even Liz didnt understand "I-I dont know how this could be...its just not possible its like a.." I guess Liz was I have heard of some emo kids doing so, "I dont know jhon. what happened last night?". what the heck im back here, now that I can see where here is, I must have fainted becuase I was back into one of these dreams again actually it looked like that abandoned hospital aat fallcreek, looks like little jhonny hasnt learned or accepted yet, your father would be very disappointed.