My mate was trying to figure out what to wear to school for her first day. I didn't see the point, who cares if these people like her or not? I don't want the whole male population lusting after her, but I know that's probable. I'm sure I would be stopped many times from killing a human by Savings Sidekick">today and not because of bloodlust.
"Bella are you almost ready? We have to leave soon." I called into the giant room that Alice had deemed "Bella's closet."
"Yeah, Jazz. I'm coming." I waited for an Emmett 'that's what she said' but remembered he was in Phoenix checking on Bella's egg donor, I mean mother.
Edward and Alice were waiting by the door for us to leave since we decided to all ride together. I hoped that Bella and I would have our classes together, if not I could probably use my mojo on the secretary and get her to switch some things around.
Bella finally emerged from her 'closet' and I almost wanted to send her back. She had on the tightest pair of jeans I had ever seen her in, with a cream colored sweater and a pair of knee high boots. She looked delicious.
Before I could let my imagination go Alice called up the steps, "There is no time for that Jasper. Maybe later." She giggled.
I grabbed Bella's hand and we went to the car. The car ride was quiet, we were all observing our surroundings making sure nothing was out of place and that there were no scents that shouldn't be there.
When we pulled into the lot and Bella exited the car, I swear it was like a scene out of a movie. It looked as if time had stopped, Bella's hair was blown back from the wind and everyone had their eyes on her. I grabbed her hand and gave her a swift kiss on the lips, making sure that everyone knew she was off limits.
When we reached the office, Mrs. Cope had our schedules all ready and she was fawning over Edward (again.) I grabbed Bella's from her hand and it seemed we were together most of the day except she took French and I took Spanish. I knew both languages fluently but the guys and I chose Spanish to do this time. Bella was close to fluent in Spanish too since she lived in Arizona, so she opted to take something new when she started high school.
Sadly our first class was our languages. Alice was with Bella though, so I felt a little better. Edward and I walked them to class where I caught Mike Newton eye fucking my mate. I was about to rip his head off when I felt Edward's hand on my shoulder. Bella gave me kiss and squeezed my hand reassuringly before entering the room. I wanted to stay outside the room and make sure that slim ball kept his hands to himself but I knew I couldn't.
Ed pulled me down the hall to our class and we took seats in the back. I whispered to him too low for humans to hear, "Can you get into Alice's mind? Are they okay?"
He shook his head no, which meant Bella was shielding Alice. I wish I could figure out how that worked. I barely paid attention to the class and just counted the minutes until I was back with my mate. Finally the bell rang and I took off to get my Bella. I heard her voice before I could see her.
"Listen, Mick was it? Is that like Jagger? Anyway, no I do not want to go out with you. You saw me with Jasper less than an hour ago." She was angry. Alice was glaring at him but sighed in relief when she saw Ed and me.
"Bella, sweetheart are you having any trouble?" I asked pretending that I didn't know anything was wrong.
"Oh no Jazz, this guy, um…Mitch? He said he'd like to 'show me around town' later and 'show me some secret getaways.'" She scoffed.
"My name is Mike," he whined.
"Mike….beat it and tell your little buddies if I catch their eyes on my girl, well lets just say, the Chief and I are good friends and I'm sure I would be justified in defending his daughters honor." I gave him a smirk and I felt the fear rolling off of him.
He scampered away without another word and Bella wrapped herself around me, "God he was so annoying and then these girls kept talking about you and Alice had to hold me back."
We got through our English class and Math without incident and during lunch Bella picked off of all of our trays. She sat in my lap and I fed her pieces of fruit. Unfortunately we were approached but Slut 1 and Slut 2 as Ed, Em, and I like to call them.
"Hey Jasper," Lauren tried to say seductively, "Is this your sister?"
I looked at Ed with a 'is she for real' face and he just nodded and bit into his fist to stop himself from laughing.
"Sister?" I gawked at them, "Um no don't think I would have my sister on my lap and feed her. That's kind of….personal."
"So she's your cousin?" Jessica giggled, "She's to plain to be your girlfriend."
Bella was boiling with anger and I was about to take her out the doors when she blew up, "Listen here Laurel and Janice, you stay away from Jasper, and from Edward if you know what's good for you. Don't make me tell you again." The last part came out in a growl and I was super turned on, I needed to find an empty classroom or janitor's closet or something. Maybe Edward would let me use the Volvo. He shook his head no and I stared at him. How could he hear me?
"Bella," I got her attention back to me since the girls had gone, but she was still glaring at them, "Bella….I need to ask you something."
"Yeah Jazz," she said still glaring.
"Did you lift your shield off me?" I questioned.
"Yeah I figured you needed to talk to Edward today so I lifted it. Just like I did when you guys went hunting the other night. But I kept you in my physical one." She shrugged like it was nothing.
"What do you mean physical Bella?" Edward asked.
"You can't see it? The pony tail guy said he could see it. It's like wrapped around me permanently, if I don't want someone to touch me, they can't. It's like a wall." She finally stopped glaring at the sluts and put her head in the nook of my shoulder and started placing kisses on my neck.
"And you can put others in one too?" I asked her.
"Yeah I do it all the time with you Jazz." I was baffled.
"Wait but how come I can touch you?" I didn't want her to block me physically or mentally. I was starting to not like her power.
"It's just like my mental one Jazz, I know what's a threat and what's not. I don't know how, I just do." She shrugged again and went back to eating but I stopped her and dragged her into the hallway.
"Jazz? What's going on?" she whispered as she started to panic.
"Nothing sweetheart I just….need you." I kissed the side of her neck as I searched for a place to make take her. "You were so damn sexy tellin' those girls off. It took all I had not to throw you on the table and take you there."
She moaned out loud as I pulled us into an empty classroom and my phone buzzed. It was Alice letting me know I had eleven minutes to finish. Shit I'd be lucky if I needed more than two minutes.
I sat picked her up and sat her on the teacher's desk and stood between her legs. I pushed her jeans and panties down to her knees at vampire speed and found myself inside her before she could even say anything.
"Oh Jazz, we can't…do this here." She struggled to get out in between moans.
"Yes we can. I need you, you need me. We have time." I growled and licked the shell of her ear. "Gonna be fast sweetheart."
"Oh please more." She moaned and I picked up the pace of my thrusts and caused her to release all over me at the same time I spilled my seed in her.
I quickly redressed her as she sat in her blissful state. "Bella you gotta snap out of it. We have to get to class."
"Okay Jazz." She mumbled and I took her hand in mine and we walked back to the cafeteria.
"You do realize that was your next class right?" Edward questioned as we picked up our bags.
"No way?" Bella exclaimed looking at me then to Alice for a conformation.
"Not gonna lie sugar, it is." I rubbed a hand through my hair hoping she was mad.
"Now that's all I'll think about in that class." She groaned.
"So how was it sister?" Alice giggled.
"Perfect as always." Bella kissed my cheek and we walked to class.
The rest of the day passed without any problems. I was expecting a call from Peter and Char soon, but I really wanted some quiet time with my girl.
"Take her to the baseball clearing Jasper. It's not going to rain for a few hours." Alice suggested quiet enough that Bella didn't hear her. When we arrived at the house Bella went to drop our bags off in the bedroom and to make a call and check in with her dad.
It was the perfect idea. I wanted to talk to her about her time away and what our future held. My mind was telling me all these horrible things, like she could leave or hate me or want someone else.
"Jazz stop panicking. I love you." She said as she came down the steps. She jumped into my arms and I ran into the forest towards the clearing. She squealed excitedly and when we arrived in the clearing, I put her down and she attempted to smack me.
"What's that for sweetheart?" I chuckled.
"You could have given me some warning you know." She huffed and sat down on the grass.
"Oh Bella, don't be mad." I gave her a pouty face and she giggled. "I wanted to talk to you."
She stiffened and then nodded her head but didn't say a word.
"It's not bad." I assured her. I sat down next to her and pulled her into my lap. "I love you. You know that." She snuggled into my chest and I felt the familiar purr starting to rise in my chest, "Bella, I want…." I started but the phone rang before I could get anything out.
"Whitlock." I answered without looking to see who it was.
"Major, we have a serious problem." Peter's voice came through the phone.
"What is it?" I sighed and hugged Bella closer to me.
"It's Renee. She's…..Dammit Jasper they got her. She's covered in bite marks." He said really quickly so even if it was loud enough for Bella she wouldn't have been able to understand what he was saying.
"Who Peter?" I asked.
"Seems to be all of them. More so James and Victoria but the others were here. Got her and her new husband Jasper. This isn't gonna be good for Bella."
"I got it Pete, thanks." And I hung up.
"Everything okay Jazz?" Bella said kissing the side of my neck.
"No sweetheart it's not, but I want to get back to the house before I tell you." I said picking her up and running back. It had started to rain and we would have to head back anyway but it just gave me a minute to talk to Edward and Alice.
"Go change your clothes doll, so you don't get sick." I gave her a little pat on her ass and she giggled and ran inside and up the stairs.
Edward and Alice met me at the door, "I'm sorry Jasper I didn't see it." Alice sighed.
"It's not your fault. Any idea how she's gonna take it?" I saw her visibly wince and knew it wasn't going to be good.
"Should we call Charlie?" I questioned.
"I'll do it." Edward nominated himself. He walked off to make the call and Bella came down the stairs changed and dry, but she was really upset. I could feel it and see it, she was holding her phone in her hand and I could smell the tears coming down her face.
"Is this what you have to tell me Jazz?" she looked up at me with teary eyes and handed me her phone. When I glanced at it, it was pictures of her mother, being bitten and even a video. They were sick.
"I'm sorry sweetheart I just….I wanted you to be home before I told you." I tried to hug her but she stepped away from me.
"She's dead." She said simply.
"Yes she is and I'm sorry." I wanted to go to her, hold her, and then I felt it. She closed me off. "Bella, drop your shield." I almost growled out.
"No, you can't feel this. It's too much." She cried. "Where's my dad?"
"Edward's calling him Bella. How about we go order you a new phone so they don't have the number? Give Jasper that phone, we'll need it when the Volturi show up." Alice said pulling Bella away from me.
"Volturi?" I asked the empty room.
"Yeah Bella didn't get to tell you about her phone call with Jane. They want to come see her and look at Peter and Char's memories. They'll be here in a week." Edward said coming back into the room, "Charlie and Kate will be here in twenty minutes."
"She closed herself off from me." I whined.
"Now you know how I feel." He said feeling smug.
"What am I supposed to do for her? I haven't had to deal with death in a really long time." I sighed asking my brother for his help.
"Let her vent, she's not angry with you. I'm not even sure she's sad. I think she's mad because she's not sad. Does that make sense?" He patted me on the shoulder.
"Yeah I guess." I sighed and went to stand on the porch to wait for Charlie.
I wasn't waiting long when he came peeling into the driveway and was out of his car as soon as it was cut off. "Where is she Jasper?"
"Our room." He glared at me I guess for the 'our' thing but he'll get over it. "Right up the steps."
He didn't say anything else and jogged up the steps. Kate came up on the porch and stood next to me, "This isn't your fault."
"Then why do I feel like it is." I sighed and ran a hand through my hair. "Tell Bella I went for a hunt." I jumped off the porch and ran into the woods.
I needed to hunt I knew that, but I really wanted to just smash up a clearing of my own in this forest. I started with the boulders. I ground them into dust and I kicked them like they were a football and the pieces went flying all around me. The rain had started to come down harder and the thunder was roaring. I picked up a dead tree and started slamming it against the ground until there wasn't anything left.
Suddenly I felt like I wasn't alone in the forest anymore. I turned and assessed my surroundings but couldn't see anyone. I took a step out of my clearing and was tackled by someone and we went flying into a full grown tree effectively splitting it in half.
I tried to see who my attacker was but before I could look at them they had taken off. "Come on you pussy! Show your face! Do you know who I am? I'm gonna kill you!" I roared into the forest.
"Well Major I think I could take you." Peter said stepping into my clearing.
"You? You just tackled me?" I asked incredulously.
"Um yeah, did you forget that you left your mate at your house over eighteen hours ago? She's freaking out. Her mother was murdered, and her mate just left her all alone and didn't even say goodbye. I think you deserve more than just a tackle. Char and Kate are both itching to tear pieces of you apart." He chuckled.
Eighteen hours? I had left eighteen hours ago? How was that possible? It felt like I hadn't even been gone for an hour. Does that mean I blacked out?
"You should head back Jasper. It's already gonna be bad, but stallin' is gonna make it worse." Then he mumbled to himself, "and if I don't bring you back soon they are gonna tear me apart."
I ran back to the house pushing myself so I could go faster. I ignored the glares and the hisses from the family in the living room and went straight to the bedroom and when I did I wanted to smash some more trees.
"What in the world do you think you are doing?" I growled at my mate.
"Packing a bag, what does it look like." She said not stopping from packing a duffle bag with clothes and her bathroom stuff.
"You're not going anywhere." I said sternly.
"You are not my father, he did say I could come and stay with him for a few days. You obviously don't want to be around me and honestly I don't want to be around you, so I'm not going to run you out of your house. I'm leaving." She said zipping the bag. She went to grab it and leave but I got to it first and threw it across the room.
"I said you aren't leaving." I grabbed her around the waist and
whispered into her ear, "I really hate to let this moment go,
touching your skin and your hair falling slow
when your goodbye kiss, feels like this." I sang.
"Jasper this isn't a musical, you can't just sing to me and expect me to stay." She huffed.
So I tried again and sang the chorus, "don't you wanna stay here a little while, don't you wanna hold each other tight, don't you wanna fall asleep with me tonight, don't you wanna stay here a little while, we can make forever feel this way, don't you wanna stay."
She stared at me for a while and I didn't move either. I bet she was thinking the same thing I was. The first time we found this song.
It had to have been close to eight months prior. We were sitting in her room and I was trying to broaden her music tastes. When I suggested country she laughed at me, literally in my face. I found some that she liked, the love songs of course. My girl was a hopeless romantic.
As I was downloading somethings for her she picked one with a pop artist she knew well. I hit play and we listened just staring at each other.
"Jazz, will you learn this one for me?" she whispered. I always played for her, old songs, new songs anything she wanted.
"Will you sing with me?" I asked since it was a duet.
"As long as you play this song, I'll always sing it with you." She blushed and went back to listening to everything else I had been downloading. Later I found out that it was one of her most played songs on her IPod.
"So what's in gonna be sugar, you said you'd always sing with me?" I gave her a cocky grin and felt her lust rise. Then I realized, I could feel her again!
"I said I'd sing, if you played, not if you sang." She whispered.
So I opened my closet door and pulled out my guitar and started to play the familiar song. When I came to the point where I had already sang I looked up at her and saw the tears welling in her eyes, "lets take it slow I don't want to move to fast, I don't wanna just make love, I wanna make love last, when your up this high, it's a sad goodbye."
When she finished, I put the guitar down and stood next to her. I cupped her face with my hand, "Well sweetheart, don't you wanna stay?"
No sooner had I got the words out, she jumped into my arms and kissed me. "I'd never leave you, Jazz. It's always the other way around." She whispered against my lips. She climbed down out of my arms and walked out of our bedroom. She didn't take her bag, which I guess was a good thing, but she still left.
I put my hands in my hair and growled when I felt someone come in the bedroom, "Don't growl at me boy. I ain't afraid of you." Char chastised.
"Char, I'm really not in the mood. Don't test me." I warned her. Before she could say anything Peter came in and ushered her out. He knew how pissed I was and didn't want his mate to suffer any consequences.
I left the room and walked at human pace to the living room trying to figure out a way to make this up to Bella. I noticed everyone was sitting down talking. Alice gave me a small smile and patted my arm when I sat down next to her. "Where's Bella?" I asked the room.
"She's with Kate. They are cooking in the kitchen." Rose pointed in their direction. I gave her a thanks and then sped into the kitchen to help my mate.
"Hey Bella, can I help?" I asked giving her a small smile and a kiss on the cheek.
"No." was my only answer. I looked at Kate and she just shrugged. "Bella come on, we need to talk."
"I'll get back to you in eighteen hours Jasper. Isn't that what you did to me?" she accused, her arms crossed at her chest. I was really trying not to notice how her breasts were pushed up with the gesture that was supposed to look scary.
"Bella, baby doll, I'm sorry. I didn't even know. I swear. I felt like I was gone less than an hour. I must have blacked out, I don't know when I do it or why I do but it happens." I tried to calm her but she was blocking me again.
"Fine, we'll talk after I make Charlie dinner." I noticed she didn't include herself in the dinner.
I sighed, giving up, and walked back to the living room. Alice waved me over so I sat with her and Edward. "Listen, most everyone needs to hunt tonight. We're all gonna be out, Peter and Char had volunteered to patrol around the grounds while we are out and make sure nothing gets to you guys. Kate hunted earlier so she's staying with Charlie at his house. You and Bella will be alone all night. But she does have to go back to school tomorrow. She skipped today because of 'the news of her mother' and such."
"Thanks Alice" I gave her a small kiss on the forehead and felt jealousy coming from the one person I never expected it to.
Bella stood at the doorway of the kitchen just watching us interact and she had a glare on her face that seriously was scaring me. I had no idea how I was going to fix this.
"Good luck with that." Edward chuckled.
"Jasper I suggest you pull out that…umm…surprise you had for her birthday." Alice said with her glazed over look, "Yeah, try that, but….umm….grovel. And beg. Oh and listen to her cry and apologize. She's gonna feel bad about being so hateful towards you."
'The Surprise' was something I probably should have spoken to her father about the other day when we had our man to man conversation, but I figured I had given him enough to think about for the day, so why add that.
Charlie showed up after work followed in toe by Rose and Emmett. I guess they had been on baby sitting the Chief. He sat with Bella and they ate, and the glare from the other day was back. I guess he knew I had been gone and that Bella was pissed at me. Shit.
"Hey Charlie, how was your day?" I greeted.
"Fine, son." He still called me that even though I was over a hundred years older than him. "How about yours?" he chuckled. Then groaned and I heard Bella's foot connect with his knee underneath the table. "Ow Bells, that hurt."
"Then shut up and eat." She smirked.
They chatted about nothing really, what surprised me was no mention of her mother or her death. She acted like it hadn't even happened. Is this what I caused by leaving? I thought when I went out and destroyed stuff that I was doing her a favor. I was trying to save her from seeing the horrible thoughts that she could so easily read across my face. This was all my fault. Had I been honest with everyone involved Renee would still be alive and Bella never would have been in the position she was.
Bella's glare at me softened when she looked at me. "No, don't you dare." She warned me. She knew what I was doing. I swear this girl was a mind reader, because she always knew what I was doing or thinking, sometimes even before I knew myself.
"I didn't do anything." I struggled to get out. It was so damn hard to lie to her. Omitting things wasn't hard, but lying. That was damn near impossible.
"Don't blame yourself. This wasn't just you. I could have fought harder. Or begged Peter and Char, they knew where you were. I could have but I didn't." she cried.
"Bella, honey, let's wait until everyone leaves and we'll talk okay?" I hugged her to me and kissed the side of her face.
Everyone made quick moves to leave shouting out goodbye's and see you later's. That left Bella and I alone in the house. I knew she was…..well something not happy with me. I wasn't sure if she was mad or upset, but both options sucked.
"I'm not mad, and I'm not upset." She said as we reached the bedroom. She laid down on the bed and put her hand over her eyes, it was a strange human thing that I saw her do a lot.
"How do you do that?" I finally questioned.
"Honestly?" she sat up quickly, "You mumble some of your words out loud when you think." She giggled.
"No I don't." I defended myself.
"Okay, then I'm a witch who can read your mind anytime I want." She huffed and crossed her arms across her chest again, this time I let myself stare at her chest. "Jazz, my eyes are up here."
"I know sugar, but your boobs, look fantastic when you get mad." I told her honestly.
"You're bad." She giggled again as I pushed her back on the bed and hovered over her. "Oh Bella, I'm the worst." I kissed her with a fever.
We made out like the teenager my Bella was for a while when I stopped her. "I have something for you."
"But my birthday isn't for another few days." She groaned.
"Fine, it's not a present for you, it's for me," I changed tactics. I went over to my drawer and grabbed the small box. "It's small." I chuckled. Technically it may be small, but if she ever found out what I paid for it, I'd be murdered.
"Jazz….what are you doing?" she asked. She sat at the edge of the bed with her legs crossed Indian style trying to look behind me to see what I was doing.
"I love you. You know that right?" she nodded, "And you know that we'll be together always. You are my mate, and when you are ready, I will change you and we will have our eternity together." Her eyes started to shed some tears and she gave me a smile, "But, there's one thing, I want to do before I change you."
"Anything Jazz, you know I'd do anything. You're always doing things for me, let me do something for you." She tried to wipe the tears from her face but they kept falling.
"I want you to marry me." I said kneeling down in front of her, "I want you to wear this ring, and then come summer time, I want us to get married any way you want, but I want it done." She stared at the closed box that I had placed in front of her, "So Isabella Swan, will you please marry me and become my wife and mate?"
I popped the box open and when she saw the ring, she gasped and put her hand over her mouth. "Wanna know something funny?" I said trying to lighten the mood, "This ring is made in an 'Edwardian' style."
"Yes." She answered me finally, or so I hoped she was answering me. "Yes I'll marry you, and I'll wear this to school and everywhere and anyone that asks I'll tell them we are getting married."
That night, I made sweet slow love to my fiancé. I loved to say that. She begged me to forgive her for being so mean and hateful towards me and I asked for my own forgiveness for abandoning her for so long and so often. I tried again to take the blame for our situation but she wasn't having it. The others didn't show back up until we were leaving for school and when they saw the sparkle off of Bella's ring they flipped.
Well Rose and Char flipped. Alice knew what was going on so she didn't really have to ask. They wanted to story behind the proposal and all but I stopped them and said we had to get to school and we would announce it later and answer questions then.
We arrived at school and Slut 1 and Slut 2 glared at Bella but she waved at them with her left hand and they scoffed at her. Mike tried to ask Bella out again and I almost ripped his throat out. He was the one that finally acknowledged Bella's engagement ring.
"Bella what is that on your hand? Is that your grandma's or something?" Mike asked as they walked out of French.
"No Mike, actually it's an engagement ring." She answered never taking her eyes off me once she saw me waiting outside.
"Engagement ring? Aren't you a little young?" he huffed.
"Honestly I've been waiting for this since I was eight years old." She said dreamily and my dead heart swelled with pride.
"You've know Jasper since you were eight?" Mike asked.
"Yeah, he saved me." She answered simply. She took my hand and we walked away leaving a very confused Mike.
"So since you were eight years old huh?" I goaded her.
"You have to know I loved you before I knew everything." Bella stopped walking and just looked at me waiting for an answer.
"Well, maybe I don't know. I guess, but it wasn't like love love." I shrugged.
"So my love was fake?" she raised an eyebrow.
"No, I mean, it was like hero worship or whatever." I kissed her cheek. "It didn't turn into real love until, well, maybe….when I told you I was a vampire."
"I guess, but I knew before that, I knew you were meant for me. Somehow I just….felt it." she shrugged and we went on with our day.
During lunch Jessica and Lauren approached us yet again and I was kind of excited because maybe that would mean another trip to the empty classroom.
"So Jasper, we heard you and Ella here are getting married, did you knock her up?" Lauren asked accusingly.
"Her name is Bella." Alice hissed.
"Oh we know, but just like yesterday when she said all ours wrong, we're saying hers wrong. Get it?" Jessica giggled.
"It's not funny if you tell me what you're doing idiot." Bella stared at the sluts and I felt my lust growing as she attacked them back. "And just for your information, Jasper and I have been together for a really long time. It wouldn't matter if I wasn't around or even if I didn't exist, you two nasty bitches wouldn't stand a chance with him." She stood up and was toe to toe with them even though she was a little shorter, "So I suggest you stay away from him, forever. And if I hear from my father, some kind of rumor that the two of you spread, I will end you faster than you can blink." She growled.
Then it was time to pull her out of the cafeteria. Her eyes were going black like ours do when we got really pissed and I was scared she was tapping too far into the vampire like parts of her. "Bella, sweetheart, come on now, calm down."
"Jazz….." she whimpered, "I need you. I need to know you're mine." She cried and kissed me feverishly.
"I'm yours, always Bella, never question that." I responded back with a kiss of my own and walked her to my car that I decided to drive today. We spent the rest of lunch proving to each other we were together and no stupid human girls could tear us apart. Something happened when those girls attacked Bella, her fears were real. They had nothing to do with high school drama, but when I found out what her fears came from, I promised myself I would take them out. I had a feeling it was the nomads that were hunting her and I couldn't wait until they weren't a problem anymore.
We finished our school day and prepared ourselves for the 'family meeting' we were about to attend. The whole family was going to know that I proposed to my mate, and sadly I didn't fear any of the vampires in the room, I feared one human man…..Charlie.