Chapter 21- Leah Clearwater
I didn't bother fastening my seatbelt when I jumped into Jake's
car. Nessie slid into the front passenger seat next to Jake and
Kyle sat with me. His arm was touching mine and when he realised
he ran his hand through his hair so he could subtly move it. He
had a bit of trouble with that- he cut his fingers up even more
when he tried to remove the shards of glass from his cuts. I
didn't really care. I was on the phone to Sam and I was not happy
with it at all. By it, I mean the fact I was the one talking to
him and not Jake. He caught me glaring at him in the rear view
"Why are you glaring at me?" he asked curiously. Nessie hit him.
I put my hand over the mouthpiece of my mobile. "You know why.
You should be the one giving Sam the clean cut version of today's
events not me. I'm not your freaking secretary," I hissed.
"Hello Leah? Are you there?" Sam's voice spoke out of the phone.
"Yeah I'm still here. I've pretty much told you everything."
"Of course you have. I heard what you said to Jake. What are you
hiding from me?"
"Ugh, relax Sam I'm not keeping anything important."
"Right of course. Why is there some meeting over Kyle Clinn?
What the hell happened to his girlfriend today? No one will tell
us who attacked her and I'm not stupid Leah I know there's more
"Well if you're really not stupid like you say then you can
figure it out for yourself."
"Put Jacob on the phone."
"He's hardly going to crash, is he?"
"Well I'm sorry if I'm unwilling to take that chance on our
"Then put me on loudspeaker!"
"I can't hear you we're in a tunnel!" I shouted.
"There are no tunnels in La Push! I will be at that meeting-
with my pack. "
I ended the call.
"There's no keeping anything from him, he has to stick his nose
in! Damn him!"
"You're just charming aren't you? It's an important quality in a
secretary," commented Jake under his breath.
I glanced quickly at Kyle. You couldn't exactly forget him and
what was going on. I've got to admit I was trying. We were in
denial, all of us. We were all trying to forget what had happened
because we honestly couldn't believe it. I know what it's like
dealing with death and Kyle having to deal with the death of his
imprint is way worse.
All I could think when my father died was that it was
impossible. I didn't believe a word of it. That's why we were
doing our best to avoid talking about it. Deny it all until you
really have to deal with it.
"We're here," Jake announced after a while.
Nessie hopped out of the car and ran over to Billy who wheeled
over to see her. Jake followed her leaving me and Kyle alone in
the car. He was asleep and his head was leaning against the
window. When he exhaled it blew the long strands of his hair up
before they fell back on to his forehead. His fringe tangled in
his eyelashes. He looked so much younger when he was asleep.
There were dark circles under his eyes already. He looked ill,
and his skin hadn't just gone pale, it had an ash grey tint to
it. He looked almost as though he was dying. It had been the
longest day ever but I had to wake him up.
"Kyle, wake up," I whispered.
His eyes opened. "Sorry. Are we here?"
"Of course we are. I wouldn't have woken you up otherwise. Come
on," I said, opening his door and pushing him out.
"Are my pack coming?" he asked.
"I don't know, but I did text Cameron from your phone to ask. He
hasn't replied," I paused before adding, "It's not like it's much
of a loss anyway."
He pulled himself upright and out of the car. His hair was
sticking up all over the place but I wasn't about to say. We
walked together and as we did I looked at him and I suddenly
realised what was really bothering me.
He looked so out of place and so completely alone without Amber
beside him. I'd never seen them together, in the flesh, side by
side, but I almost found myself looking for her little blonde
figure next to his tall dark one. It wasn't just the feeling that
someone was missing that hit me- it was the feeling that someone
should be there. It was like until Amber was there walking beside
Kyle we'd have to wait, because for him there was no moving,
breathing, living, without her presence. There was no Kyle
We reached the fire and the people sat around it. I looked at
the faces illuminated by the flames. They were all looking at
Kyle with a mixture of confusion and curiosity. Every pair of
eyes was fixed on either his face or mine. It was exactly as I'd
expected. Their first question was why is there a meeting over
this guy? Their second was something along the lines of, what's
Leah got to do with him?
"Hello Leah," Sam said.
"Sam," I nodded.
Kyle was watching Sam closely and their eyes met in the end. Sam
looked away quickly. It must have been clear Kyle already had an
opinion of him. Sam would have to save a drowning child before he
felt any warmer towards him. I felt a bit guilty about that but
it obviously wasn't just because of what Kyle had learnt about
him from me. I'm sure he'd heard enough from Cameron.
"Sue couldn't come she's not feeling too well," Billy informed
me, wheeling over.
"I know," I said coldly.
I really couldn't care less about my mother at that moment. That
had to be the fiftieth meeting she'd missed. She never turned up
anymore. Billy had to have guessed something was wrong with her.
I wasn't about to tell him.
Jake appeared by my side with Nessie and looked from me to
everyone else. He looked like he'd never been more lost for
"Uh I really don't know where to start, Leah do you want to-" he
said, gesturing at Kyle by my side. The way he handed it over to
me made me really irritated. I wasn't responsible for Kyle for
God's sake; I wasn't his freaking carer.
"For those who don't know this is Kyle Clinn from the newbie
pack. I don't see how you couldn't know though," I said.
Seth shifted over on the log and I sat next to him in my usual
spot. Kyle sat next to me and I felt that irritation again.
"It's nice to finally meet you Kyle," said Billy sincerely.
"Thank you it's good to meet you too," he replied.
Paul jumped a little at the sound of his voice. I laughed out
"Yeah Paul he speaks," I said sarcastically.
"So I think everyone's here, unless of course your pack is
coming...?" Billy asked casually.
"It's unlikely. They feel a bit unwelcome," he said looking at
Plus they're not too happy Amber's in the hands of the leeches,
I thought to myself.
"Well they shouldn't. They're perfectly welcome, the lot of you
are. I suppose it's no good telling you that now that they've
made their minds up," Billy replied.
"If they want to show up they know where we are. I'm not going
to force them."
"So is anybody going to explain to me why you're here?" he asked
Everything went silent like somebody pressed the mute button. It
had been quiet before but now the muttering and the whispered
conversations had all silenced. Everyone looked to Kyle Jake
Renesmee and me. I reached across Kyle and shoved Jake so he fell
off the log. He got up off the ground and shot me a look before
he cleared his throat and started to speak.
"To be honest dad I don't know even know how to start saying
it," he said.
Billy sat up straighter in his wheelchair and looked at us with
concern and suspicion.
"What's it to do with?" he said slowly.
"Kyle's girlfriend Amber," Jake said uncertainly.
"What about her son? Is she in some sort of trouble?"
"Well yeah I suppose she is," Jake said looking at the floor.
"So do you want us to help his girlfriend then?"
Jake gestured with his hands a bit but he just couldn't find the
words to even begin to explain. For one Amber wasn't just Kyle's
girlfriend. She was his imprint, but Jake couldn't call her
Kyle's imprint because she wasn't anymore. What are you meant to
call someone who used to be your imprint? What tense was he meant
to use too? She was dead but might not be soon. Should he talk
about her like she's dead or living?
"Well yes but Amber's not just his girlfriend she's his
imprint..." Jake began slowly.
"So Kyle imprinted on this girl? When was this?"
Kyle looked up from the floor and pushed his hair out of his
eyes, holding his head like it was hurting.
"I imprinted on Amber a year or so ago. I don't really know when
exactly. I was one of the guys who hadn't transformed yet but was
about to when we left La Push. Amber was Ryan's girlfriend at the
time. When I transformed I imprinted on her and she broke up with
I looked at my brother Seth. His mouth was slack and he was
looking past me at Kyle, wide eyed. I wanted to lift his chin to
close his mouth but I knew I must have had a similar expression
when I heard Kyle's story for the first time. I couldn't blame
him. I looked around at all of the people around the fire and no
one was looking anywhere but Kyle.
The sound of an approaching truck tore their eyes off of him.
Cameron was driving and his pack was sitting in the back of the
truck- not very safety conscious. When the truck stopped three
metres away from us they all jumped down and Cameron got out. He
nodded at everyone and turned to Kyle. Kyle looked at them all
incredulously and some of them lifted their hands in greeting.
"Sorry we're late," muttered Cameron quietly.
"I didn't think you were coming."
"Of course we came, Kyle," he replied, "we weren't about to
"Well thanks. It means a lot Cam."
"Have you told them what happened yet?"
"I'm in the middle of it," he said grimly.
Billy told them to make themselves comfortable but most of them
remained standing. Kyle turned back to everyone sitting there
listening in on their exchange.
"So what happened then Kyle?" prompted Billy.
"Ryan resented me for it but he tried not to blame Amber. Today
we had a fight, and it wasn't the first but it was really bad and
he was still fuming afterwards. Tobias was supposed to keep an
eye on him while he cooled down but he stormed off. It wasn't
Tobias' fault," Kyle insisted, "He just didn't expect that I
wouldn't be with Amber so he had no reason to think Ryan would
bump into her."
"So Amber was unprotected?" said Sam, seeing where it was going.
"No she was with the pack but she left to find me," Kyle replied
hollowly, "no one knew Ryan wasn't being watched so they had no
reason to stop her."
"Why did she have to go and find you? Why weren't you with her?"
he pressed on, "Why didn't Cameron make sure someone was always
with her? She got injured didn't she?"
"Sam, stop it," said Jake firmly "It's unnecessary and you know
Heat rose to my cheeks and I felt my fists clench involuntarily.
"This is exactly why I didn't give you the full story. You
shouldn't even be here," I muttered furiously.
Cameron came forward and crossed his arms across his chest.
"You're bordering on hypocritical there Sam," he said nodding at
Emily and looking pointedly at her scarred face.
Sam's face contracted with pain. "We're not talking about me.
Why weren't you with her Kyle?"
"Amber told Kyle to leave her," I shot, "he was with me."
Sam looked at me abruptly and then sat back like he was done
talking. Cameron looked ready to jump in at any second. I looked
at him with a new appreciation. He wasn't completely useless. He
did seem to genuinely care about Kyle.
"Carry on Kyle," prompted Billy.
"Ryan crossed paths with Amber and he- he was still angry so
when he saw her he must have...," Kyle brushed his hair off his
face and shook his head, "He must have lost it. By the time we
realised that Ryan was unsupervised and Amber was alone it was
too late- he'd already attacked her. He must have heard us coming
because he wasn't there when we got there. Amber was unconscious
"Oh my God," breathed Emily, "Sam you never said one of their
pack members attacked her."
"I didn't know. I heard Jake yelling and when we got there she
was hurt really badly but nobody told us who did it," he said
"Leah controlled the bleeding the best she could and then we
took Amber to the vampires' place."
"The Cullen's'?" asked Billy.
"We weren't keen on the idea- I mean even when we were in Sam's
pack we didn't quite trust the idea of friendly vampires," said
one of Cameron's pack members quietly.
"Not helpful Gideon," muttered Cameron.
"The doctor did what he could," Kyle went on, "but we didn't get
to her soon enough. For a second Amber was gone but she came
There were tears dripping down Emily's cheeks. I looked around.
Every girl there, all of them imprinted on, was crying and every
wolf there that had an imprint was pale with horror.
"He tried everything. He had to freeze her to stop her bleeding
and that basically killed her. She's dead right now but he said
he could revive her. He's trying right now. If he can't revive
her then she's gone. If he can then I don't know what will happen
because Alice has had visions of Amber being...not right in her
mind. She knocked her head she could have brain damage."
Sam looked up at Kyle with sudden realisation on his face.
"Dead? No. It's just impossible."
"Whatever the doctor does, she's died twice now. Our imprint has