Chapter 10: A hot mess
I felt horrible. I had to stay in bed for days. I had a fever and I've been throwing up and sleeping constantly. This was hell. I couldn't let anyone know about this. About the fact that Todd got me pregnant. Lana would be angry and so would Eric. He would think that I broke up with him to be with Todd. And that is not the case at all. I sat up and sipped my glass of water and then sat it down. I laid back down in bed and placed my hand on my stomach. It was slightly bigger
I didn't know what to do. There was a knock on my door. I didn't say a word. The door swung open and Todd walked in. I glared at him as he came in smiling. My eyes watered as I watched him come near me. "How's my baby?" He asked. I turned my head so I couldn't look at him. Todd placed his hand on my forehead. "You're burning up, baby." I closed my eyes and let the tears slide down.
"Don't worry, this will be over soon and you won't ever have to deal with me again, okay?" He wasn't getting a response out of me. He kissed my forehead and then walked out of the room.
My eyes burned with tears as I turned to my side. I took another sip of my water and laid down in the bed. My stomach began to hurt and I could feel myself about to throw up. I leaned over into the bucket next to my bed and released all that my stomach would allow. I haven't eaten anything all day so it was painful. I grabbed my water, and rinsed out my mouth, and spit it into the bucket. I wiped my tears away with my sleeve and laid back in bed. This was about to be a long three months.
I had no idea that werewolves could get depressed. I've just been in my room staring out of the window. I didn't think that because of one girl, I'd be so sad and empty. She wanted to break it off with me and she did. But she never told me why. What the hell did I do?
I guess I fell for her way too hard. My door opened and Todd walked in with a beer. He was smiling. What the hell was he so happy about? He gave me a beer. "You okay?" He asked.
I sighed and opened it. "And why exactly would you of all people care?" Todd shrugged and leaned against the wall.
"Want to talk about it?"
"Why would I want to talk about anything with you when you can just pick it from my brain? How can you do that anyway?"
"Not important." Todd answered. He focused intently on me and frowned. "Adrianne broke up with you."
I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair. "I don't understand why. Has she been acting weird to you lately?" Todd tilted the beer to his lips and took a sip. "Nope. Everything’s been cool." He answered. I sighed. "Maybe I should go talk to her. See what I did?"
"Maybe you should let her rest." Todd said. It didn't sound like a suggestion. It sounded more like a demand. I felt the need to probably obey. He was alpha after all.
"Yeah, maybe you're right. So you postponed killing that vampire. Are we going after him tonight?" He nodded and took another sip of his beer. "Yeah. He fucks with the pack, he has to go. We should have killed him a week ago, but I wasn't up for it. Tonight is the night."
I nodded and chugged my beer. Todd let out a sigh. "I'm sorry for kind of controlling your sister, when it comes to love, I get crazy sometimes."
"You love her?" He nodded. "Yeah. Am I forgiven?"
I sighed and nodded. I guess Todd was a pretty cool guy. "I'm going to go apologize to Lana. And with my advice, stay away from Adrianne. It'll be easier and maybe make her happier."
"I'll think about that." He nodded and then disappeared out of the door. I laid back in bed. I’d give anything to have Adrianne back.
I got in the bath to relax myself as best I could. I still had a fever and my stomach was hurting. I laid my head back against the tub and closed my eyes.
'Adrianne? Adrianne? I'm in the house. Where are you?' It was Eric in my head. I sighed deeply and opened my eyes as I heard his footsteps. There was a knock on the bathroom door. The door opened and Eric walked in. He quietly sat down on the seat of the toilet and looked at me.
"What do you want?" All I could do is whisper. He looked like he was in pain. "I just want to know what I did. I mean you're mad at me and I don't even know what for. And it's killing me because I need you and you know I do. You just shut me down and you have no idea how badly it’s hurting me. I need you. Just tell me what's wrong. Please."
Tears spilled down my cheeks and I sucked in a breath. "I can't....I just.....can't." Eric sighed and covered his face with his hands.
My love for Eric was so strong but I couldn't tell him about anything that happened a week ago. It was too painful and I knew it would hurt him.
He took his hands away and his eyes were glistening with tears. He got down on his knees beside the bath tub. "Marry me." He demanded. I bit my lip as my vision blurred because of the tears that escaped out of my eyes. "I can't." I whimpered.
"Adrianne, I'm not taking no for an answer."
"You're going to have to." I whispered. Eric placed his fore head on the edge of the tub and began crying audibly but softly. And it hurts me because I never saw or would ever want to see him cry and all because of me.
"Please. Please." He whispered. I placed my wet hand in his dark hair and looked up as more tears escaped my eyes.
"I have never loved anyone as strongly as I loved you, Eric." I whispered.
"Then why are you doing this to me?" He asked. I didn't want to. He lifted his head up to look at me. I smiled at him. "You love too strong." My voice squeaked. He shook his head. "There's no such thing as loving too strong." My smile slowly faded.
"Go find someone worth loving, Eric because I'm not."
"Why are you saying this? What happened to you?"
"You're not going to want me." I whispered.
"You're the only person I want. How could I not want you?" He asked. I sighed. I needed Eric more than life itself. But if I tell him what happened, he’s going to go and get himself killed. How could Eric want a girl like me? Someone who would just break his heart and not give him a reason. A girl who couldn't be honest with him. A girl who would let another man take advantage of her. Eric deserved better than me. But the problem was that he didn't want better. I was the girl he wanted.
“Please, Adrianne, just tell me what the problem is and I’ll fix it. We’ll fix it together because that’s what mates do.”
“Nothing will ever be right anymore. Just leave while you still can.”
“No.” He said.
“Please!” I cried.
“I’m not leaving until you tell me what’s wrong with you!” He growled.
“Leave my house before I throw you out.” I snarled at him. I had to calm down. I couldn’t shift. Not in my ‘condition’.
“Adrianne……please. I’m on my knees begging you.” I got up and grabbed my towel as I stepped out of the tub.
He followed me into my bedroom.
“Adrianne….Why are you doing this to me? Why are you torturing me like this?”
“Just leave, Eric. We’re over. Please….just go.” He sighed and a tear glistened in his eyes. He dropped his head and turned around and closed the door.
There’s nothing worse than rejection. Especially from the one girl you knew you couldn’t live without. I leaned against her closed door and dug into my pocket. I looked down at the engagement ring my mother gave to me to give to Adrianne. But Adrianne didn’t want the engagement ring. And she definitely didn’t want me.
Something happened to make her feel this way. To push me away. But what happened that could make her break up with me out of nowhere?
But I think I knew what to do. Once she’s sleeping, I’ll just come back and hold her and when she opens her eyes, she’ll see how much I need her and maybe…..she just might cuddle with me. Maybe.
But I was still confused. She said I wouldn’t want her. What did she mean? I wanted her since the moment I saw her and I told her that I wanted her the day we met. Of course she responded by slapping me in the face.
And as retarded as it may sound, that’s what drew me into her. Not only was she so fucking hot and smart as hell……she was a tough badass who wasn’t afraid of anything. But these last couple of days…I’ve seen nothing but fear in her eyes. What was she so scared of?
I placed the diamond ring back in my pocket and walked down the hall and out the house. Todd was standing outside looking at me. “Hey, what’s going on?” I asked. He smiled. “It’s time to get that vamp. Are you ready Eric? Ready to kill a man?”
“He’s a vampire, not a man.” Todd smirked. “I like your thinking. Let’s go.” He turned and shifted almost immediately. Without any pain. How though? I always feel pain when I’m shifting. Oh well.
I got down on my hands and knees and lowered my head as it began to burn with a fiery heat. I growled and screamed as I felt my fur sprout out of my skin. Once I was fully in wolf form, I followed Todd out into the woods. It was silent. Maybe too silent.
‘So how’s Adrianne doing? Still having communication problems?’ Todd asked telepathically.
‘Yeah, she won’t tell me what’s wrong.’
‘Maybe it’s a personal matter.’
‘I still have a right to know. She’s still mine rather she wants to be or not. I will never let her go.’ I growled in my mind.
‘That’s the spirit, Kid.’ Todd replied as he shot forward faster than any wolf I’ve ever seen. His white fur became blurry but it was bright so I could still see him.
He suddenly stopped and I stopped too as I could smell the scent of maybe three vampires. I growled at the smell of them. They smelled like……death. Obviously.
Todd sniffed the air and shot forward again and I followed him without hesitation. The wind blew fiercely. But that didn’t stop Todd nor me. We stopped again.
‘This fucker is near. I can smell him. We take him out with no hesitation and no intention of stopping, am I clear, Eric?’
‘Crystal.’ I replied.
Suddenly, a fast running noise came from nowhere and knocked me down to my side. I growled as I saw the vampire on top of me. His fangs were protracted and sharp as a needle. But no fear was in my body. I growled again and used my body to push him off. The vampire smiled and was soon knocked down by Todd whose eyes were now white. I’ve seen them that color before but it was still weird. Todd growled as the vampire pushed him against a tree. He got up and ran with full force knocking the vampire six feet in the air. He fell to the ground and got up as soon as he was down.
“Is that all you got, Todd?” The vampire asked. Wait. They knew each other? How? Something wasn’t right.
‘Eric, you can leave. I’ll deal with this asshole.’ Todd said into his mind. So he brought me here just so he could tell me to leave? That’s stupid. But I turned and left any way.
Todd King is something else. I ran back towards the house and ran to Adrianne’s bedroom window, quietly. I saw her lying down, sleeping. I changed back into my human form and opened the front door and closed it. I was quiet as I sneaked into her bedroom. I closed the door and slowly walked towards her. She was lying in the middle of the bed so I slid in beside her and wrapped my arms around her. I rubbed her soft skin. Her arms, her legs. Her….stomach. Her stomach was hotter than all of the rest of her body parts and felt bigger. As I gently pressed down on it, it was hard.
My whole body froze. I couldn’t move. I could hardly think straight. That was the problem. She was pregnant. Why couldn’t she tell me that? I wanted a family with her. I would have been happy to see her pregnant. I visualize it all the time and it always bring a smile to my face. I rubbed her stomach and a small smile speared on my face. My baby was inside of her and I couldn’t be happier.
The sun shined bright on my face. I yawned loudly and clutched my stomach. I felt nauseous. I turned to see Eric sitting in a chair beside the bed eyeing me carefully. My eyes widened. Has he been here all night? “Morning sickness?” He asked. My eyes widened. How did he know? How did he find out?
“How did you-“
“It doesn’t even matter how I found out……..Adrianne. What kills me is that you didn’t tell me. You thought I wasn’t going to want you anymore? How could I not want you? You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me.”
“I couldn’t bear to see the hurt in your eyes.”
“I’d be hurt because you’re pregnant with my baby?” He asked anger clear in his voice. He thought this was his baby. He froze. He heard my thoughts. He turned red for a second. I swallowed and took a deep breath as tears automatically slipped out of my eyes. So much anger was inside of me. I wanted to shift and go bite Todd’s head off.
“Todd? That’s…………Todd’s baby?” His voice shook. I nodded my head. Eric got up and started stomping towards the door.
“No! Please!” I yelled getting up as fast as I could. I pressed him against the wall. He breathed deeply as he looked down at me. “You cheated on me.” He breathed. I shook my head.
“No. I would never do…….” I remembered back to earlier when Todd kissed me just so I’d be able to spend time with Eric. Eric tried to push me but I stayed where I was. “Don’t. Please. I didn’t…I didn’t cheat on you.”
“Yeah, his baby just magically ended up inside of you.” He said sarcastically. I shook my head. “He….he”
“Todd raped me.” I whispered. His eyes flashed emerald. His wolf’s eye color as he darted out the door. I ran after him but I couldn’t run fast. “Eric! No! You’ll get yourself killed!” I yelled as I ran outside. He shifted immediately and growled as he ran through the woods. “Eric! He’s going to kill you!” I screamed.
‘What? I’m sleeping.’
‘Please, you have to get Eric; he’s going to try to kill Todd.’
‘Your boyfriend has a fucking anger problem. Todd is awesome. What happened?’
‘Just go stop Eric, I can’t shift.’
‘I’ll explain later. Just please go stop him from trying to kill Todd.’
‘I’m on it.’
What have I done? I just made this whole thing worst.