The change made in Flame was extremely noticeable. I wasn't sure if I liked him this way, all work and no jokes. Too much like me. So I gave him a day to "chill" or "hang out" with Luke, who was more than delighted to take up the task. That child must never get the chance to have any fun. But then, neither does Flame.
I sat around most of the day, feeling exhausted but triumphant, for I had completed the unthinkable. Creating an alliance with the Waters was a crazy idea, but it worked, and now we're one step closer.
I don't think I had ever been this happy in my life, excluding the day that I was married to Tamwyn. It was a simple wedding, no one was invited, but I couldn't have been happier. I loved him so much. I still love him more than I can say. Damn him.
I know Tam wants kids. I can't possibly fathom why he would want demanding children running circles around him day and night. I told him I'd think about it, which wasn't a lie, because I do think about it, just not in a positive way, as if I'm considering it.
Children are simply out of the question. They're not always perfect like the princess of the Water Kingdom, not all the time. It's too difficult, too strenuous to be given the responsibility of raising a child. Teaching Flame was difficult enough, as it is. Certainly not doing that ever again. Not for as long as I live.
Tamwyn was looking at me now, as I thought these things, from across the room, probably reading my thoughts as usual. He walked over and sat down beside me on the cot where I had been meditating. He lied down next to me, and I did the same, with my head on his chest and my hand in his, our breathing in sync, our hearts beating as one. We don't need children, I thought. We just need each other.