I looked at him as he sat on the chair

“So what do you want for your birthday” I asked again

“Im sure you will think of something”

“Ya but I want to know what you want”

Don’t think Jesse don’t think ....for go sakes don’t think about what you were planning to give him......DAMN IT

“You know Jesse you don’t have to im not forcing you to do it ..... But damn that metal image you have is making me crazy” he grabbed his hand and pulled me onto him

“This isn’t very balanced” I said

“Ya but I thought we were going to have balance after my birthday” he said and he kissed up my neck

I tilted my head back as he kissed up my neck and then my jaw I faced him again and he slowly kissed my lips but he kept going slowly and it was making me mad

He laughed against my lips

“You know I spoil you way to much” he said against my lips

“yes you do but don’t stop now” I said and I felt him smile and he pulled me hard against him and he stood up and backed me up against the library wall, he brought my right leg up and put it to his hip then I wrapped it around his waist and then I did the same with my other leg his one hand was on my high thigh holding me up and on him but his other hand was holding my hands above my head

...this is how I wanted him to kiss me...

He lips were hard on mine and they were working mine for all that mine were worth, he crushed himself closer to me.....not sure how but he did.....

His mouth went down my jaw and down my neck were he was kissing my neck with hot open mouth kisses that made me want to melt right there

His mouth found mine again and our tongues met in the middle but his mouth was hard on mine

...so hard that im sure if I was human it would hurt but since im not it didn’t it made me feel all hot and wanting more....

“I though it told you two about balance but apparently you have just decided to screw each other any where”

Haydien sighed

“Shane could you please leave” Haydien said but was looking at me

I dropped my legs and fixed my shirt....wait when did I miss that.....and Haydien wrapped his arm around my waist and we left the library before Shane could say anything else to us

...but he caught up to us...

“Jesse you have to go upstairs and change into something else before the party and Haydien you are coming with me” Shane said

I laughed and Shane pulled us apart I waved at Haydien as they walked away from me Haydien smiled at me

And I blew a kiss at him he laughed and I did to the I went up to the bedroom and opened the doors I went over to the closet and picked out a shirt...my pants were fine

I turned around

And gasped

....Vincent...

He grabbed my arm and I screamed, he swung me around so I was right against his body and then waited he was looking at the door ....... Haydien and Shane burst through the door and Haydien looked pissed

“I win Haydien keep that in mind I always win” Vincent said

Wind blew around Vincent and I and it got really cold I closed my eyes and then it all stopped I opened my eyes to see I wasn’t in Haydiens room any longer

I pulled away from Vincent

“Bring me back to Haydien right now or do you want me to break your face this time” I said

“Watch it girl Haydiens not here to protect you anymore”

“If I remember correctly I was the one who slammed your face into my knee not Haydien” I spat at him

Vincent came closer to me and I walked backwards until I hit the wall Vincent grabbed me by my neck and shoved me up against the wall

“No you listen to me I changed you so I own you”

“You own jack shit” I said

Vincent drew back his hand and then back handed me across the face

I tasted the blood in my mouth and I spat it right in Vincent's face, he wiped it away with his hand and then looked directly into my eyes

I brought my knee up and was about to knee him when he trapped my leg in between mine and his.... I struggled

“Let me go you asshole” I said

He pulled me off of the wall and back handed me so hard I fell to the floor

I shook my head trying to clear it

He kicked me in my side and I didn’t feel so tough anymore

He pulled me to my feet by my hair and then walked me over to a chair he made me sit and he tied my arms behind my back and my feet to the chair legs

He grabbed my jaw

“I told you not to piss me off Jesse I could do so much to you” he trailed his finger from my jaw down and between my boobs

“Don’t touch me” I spat

“oh but I already have done so much more then touched you or do you not remember what happened would you like me to show you”

“No!”

“You don’t want to know how Haydien turned his back on you while I fucked you”

I felt tears....no I am going to hold them back

“Haydien only turned around so he wouldn’t have to watch a sick fuck like you do that to me and he only let you do it because I would have died”

“that might be true but I was the one screwing you and I can see why Haydien cant keep his hands off of you, you were good unconscious I cant imagine what you would be like wanting and ready should we find out” he spat at me

“Go to hell”

“After you” he let go of my jaw

“Haydien is coming to kill you”

“Yes he is and when he gets here he will find that you are no longer available

“Really well I don’t care what you think is going to happen”

He smirked and I wanted so badly to smack it off of him

“So you see Jesse we will be very close very soon” he said and placed his hand on my thigh and went up

“get off of me!”

He laughed once and then dropped his hand

I glared at him

“How’s your nose” I asked right before he walked out the door

...I knew I shouldn’t have but I had to ask.....

He walked back to me and smiled

“It is fine thank you very much and Jesse what did I say about talking back to me”

“Im sorry was I talking back I didn’t realize I was”

“Don’t piss me off Jesse Haydien knows first hand what happens when you piss me off”

“Wow you need meds or something” I said

I knew I was looking to be beat but it was worth getting my two cents in.....i think

“No im pretty sure I can do without”

“Really well I don’t think so and have you looked in the mirror lately because you are ass ugly”

He smirked at me

“You are amusing when you are scared”

“Ya im scared of a pathetic little coward of horse shit of a vampire” I snapped

He came closer to me

“Im not a coward”

“Really well keep telling yourself that”

He back handed me again...not as hard but hard enough to send the point home

“Wow is that the best you can do – you it likes a girl...wait no you hit worse then a girl”

He backhanded me again ...this one was hard but I kept going

“did I feel resistance in that one you really need to take a course in how to beat women because you suck at it” he took his right hand and backhanded me ....this one I had to shake my head to clear it and my ears were ringing

“it must take a strong man to hit a girl who is tied up and cant protect herself ...wait no keep hitting me while im tied up because when im un tied I will kick your ass” I said I was waiting for to be back handed but it never came

Vincent stood right in front of me

“You think you’re so tough but who’s tied up and who isn’t” Vincent hissed at me

“Please did you just hiss at me what are you a cat” I said I knew I was pissing him off but I just wanted for him to UN tie me

“Your going to sit there until I come back” and he walked out of the room

About half an hour later he came back he UN tied me but I had no hope of getting away from me he dragged me down a bunch of stairs and then we were in a dungeon ....great just what I needed

“You are going to be in here until I need you at the dinner hall in four days”

It was cold and wet and dirty it looked just like a dungeon and did I mention there was no one else down here ya can you say creepy

He threw me into a cell and locked the door

“Haydien will come for you and he will die because of you he will die trying to save you and then when I see him fall to his knees I will let you go”

I didn’t know what to say to that I knew Haydien was coming for me but what if he died because of it I wouldn’t be able to go on if he died.....

4 days later

Vincent came into my cell and picked me up

“Well it’s a bout time I thought you were going to leave me there to die” I said

 He brought me to his room and a maid stripped me down washed my body really fast then she put me in a t shirt and a pair of dark blue skinny jeans and then left me on the floor

Vincent walked in and came over to me and He pulled me to my feet and dragged me to what looked like a giant dinner hall and in the middle of the tables was a small table with a chair on it

People started to come in ...no vampire men started to come in

All of them looked right at me and their eyes never leaving me

“You’re going to sit up there and you’re going to do it or I will punish you beyond belief”

“Kiss my ass” I said

He took a needle out of his pocket took the cap off and jabbed it into my arm I tried to pull away but god what was he a rock

My body started to feel weird It wasn’t doing what I said it to do I couldn’t move

“Stand up straight” Vincent said in my ear and for god sakes my body is listening to him but not me ugh I own my body not him ....why why ugh

“Now your going to go up there and strip all your clothes off and do what I say” he said into my ear

“Go to hell go to hell go to hell go to hell “was all I was thinking

“Now go” he said and I walked up to the table in the middle of the room and I stripped off all my clothes and stood there as the vampire guys looked over my body with hungry eyes

“This is lord Haydiens fiancée let this be a lesson to all that you does not make a fool of me- Jesse could you do a little spin for us”

I looked at him in hate ...well I was trying to I was so humiliated that I wanted to cry   

This was his idea to humiliate me

I spun around slowly and then Vincent told me to sit and I did and I sat there until everyone left and then I was starting to feel better I could move my fingers when I said to and soon I was able to walk I jumped down from the table put my clothes back on and then Vincent grabbed me by my arm

“Let me go you fuck” I screamed at him but his grip on my arm only tightened he dragged me back to what I assumed was his room and he dragged me over to the window

And I looked out it to see a battle and then I saw him

.....Haydien......

He was fighting with Shane and some other vampire guys I didn’t know there were only five of them but they were getting through Vincent's men like they were ants and they were being smashed every 2 seconds

“Tell him to leave or he will die” Vincent said in my ear

He opened the window

“Tell him” he said and held up a gun and pointed it right at Haydien

“Haydien leave please they will kill you just go” I yelled down to him and he looked up and at that moment one of Vincent's guards plunged his sword into Haydiens chest straight into his heart

His perfect face became full of pain and he fell to his knees and then he hit the ground

No please god no don’t take him away from me

I screamed

“Its done I have no use for you anymore” Vincent said in my ear

He dragged me down the stairs and to the huge doors which opened and I saw Haydien on the ground I could hear Shane yelling for him and it seemed everything was going in slow motion as I tore myself away from Vincent and ran to Haydien I got to him and I dropped to my knees ....this wasn’t good no it wasn’t

I began to cry

Haydien was on the ground and on his back his face was even paler then it normally was and I could see the blood on the ground from him ...... it burned my throat but I pushed that aside........

He can’t be dying he's a vampire ...no please

“Haydien please... please don’t leave me... please” I sobbed

“Jesse im sorry” he said and he coughed and blood splattered on my face

“No your going to make it please don’t leave me I don’t have anyone else please Haydien” I was crying so hard and he reached up and put his hand on my cheek

“I love you”

“No... Haydien I love you too that’s why you have to stay with me we have to get married please Haydien don’t leave me” I sobbed again

“I will see you again”

“No Haydien im not letting you go”

“Shane” Haydien yelled as loud as he could but Shane came over

“Yes my lord”

It was the first time I had ever heard Shane say Haydien was his lord

“Take Jesse back to the mansion and keep her there keep her safe for me” Haydien said and coughed again

“Im not leaving you” I cried even harder

Haydien looked at Shane and nodded

Shane grabbed my arms and started to pull me away

“I am not leaving him”

“You have to Jesse you will die if you stay here”

I hung onto Haydien but Shane kept pulling me away

“Im not leaving him this is my fault”

“its not your fault babe I love you and I will always love you now go with Shane and save yourself” Haydien said and I shook my head he smiled but it wasn’t right there was blood in his mouth and he reached up again and took my cheek in his hand

“Go please” he whispered

I shook my head

“Shane takes her”

“NO” I yelled I hugged Haydien and he hugged me back but then he wasn’t hugging me back anymore his hand fell to his side and I looked at him his eyes were closed and that was it he died in my arms

I screamed out as loud as I could

I wasn’t letting this happen I wasn’t going to let Haydien die ....he needed blood he needed it to heal

I put my wrist into my mouth and bit down hard and I let the blood flow out I sat Haydien up a bit and let my blood go into his mouth

“Jesse we have to go that wont do anything he's dead”

“No he's not he can get through this”

My blood over flowed in Haydien mouth and I knew that I didn’t have a hope in hell to save him so I laid him back down and I put my head on his chest and just laid there I didn’t know what to do my heart felt like it was ripped out and thrown away ......... Haydien was dead and I couldn’t do anything about it ...... and it was my fault

Shane picked up a sword and looked at it and then it dropped to the ground

“It’s poisoned” Shane said and then dropped to his knees beside Haydien and me

I sat up and kissed Haydien I kissed his still lips and just held his face to mine I couldn’t let go I couldn’t do anything

“Jesse we have to go” Shane said and placed his hand on my shoulder

“No im not leaving him” I said and I was still crying

 Shane didn’t listen to me he grabbed me and picked me up bridal style and walked away from Haydien I fought at first for him to put me down but after a while I just hugged him and cried I cried the entire time he walked back to Haydiens mansion

He brought me into Haydiens room and put me on the bed

I didn’t say anything and he didn’t say anything

The room felt cold and empty there was nothing anymore I didn’t want to be alive

This happened all because of me

Haydiens dead and I killed him if I didn’t open my big mouth to tell him to leave he would still be here...

I started to cry again

I wanted to die I wanted to curl up in a ball and die or I crawl into a dark hole and let something eat me alive I just wanted to die and be with Haydien

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Two days later

“Jesse how is you” Shane said from the door

“Go away” I sobbed

He left

A week later

“Jesse can I come in to talk” Shane asked

....the only time I allowed him in the room was to give me my glass of blood ....it was always still warm and I didn’t care who’s it was I drank it and that’s it

“No!”

He left

Two weeks later

“Jesse you need to come out of there” Shane said from the door

“Please just leave me alone I need time to think”

“Jesse it’s been two weeks and you haven’t even come out of the room you have to let him go”

“Go away” I screamed at him

He left

A month later

“Jesse I found a way to get Haydien back!” Shane said and I walked over to the door and UN locked it and let him

“How? Where?”

“its this old book I found in the library it talks about the realm of the dead and it says that the lords and kings of the world of darkness get sent there to live out their sins but they are also sent there if they didn’t live out their lives as planned like if they died before they were supposed to so I think he might be there”

My mind was going crazy

“How do you get to the realm?”

“to get inside the realm is going to be hard it is guarded at all times but if we do get caught you have to be prepared to show the lord of that realm your memories but they have to be ones of you and Haydien and they have to be just of your love and connection you have to show him why you need Haydien and how he was killed”

“Let’s go”

“Lets get some supplies first and then we can go” Shane said and put his hand on my shoulder

It was the first contact I had in a month

I hugged him

“Thank you Shane thank you so much” I sobbed and I hugged him harder

He hugged me back

“Jesse its okay we will get him back and you to can live together forever” 

I nodded and he pulled away and smiled at me a bit and then kissed my forehead

...nothing lovey just a friendly kiss to the forehead”

“He is coming back if it is the last thing I do for him” Shane said under his breath as he walked away

I quickly showered and brushed my messy hair and I put on a pair of skinny jeans and combat boots and a long sleeved plain black shirt

Shane came back the room with two guns a sword and some other little thing

“Here” he handed me a belt thing and I put it around my waist I put the gun in the holster and the sword in its place and Shane filled the little pockets with some blood packets and other stuff

“Don’t use the blood unless you really have to” Shane said

“Why?”

“It’s not fresh and as soon as it gives u the energy it will be taken away and then you are screwed”

I nodded

We walked out the front door we walked to Shane’s car and got in

...im coming Haydien and im going to get you back and nothing is going to stand in my way......