Sorrows Struggle

Sorrow is the name I hide behind

Surrender is the game I try to bind

not living my life the way I should be

my strings are held by others you see

I struggle to love, fears abound in my mind

longing for comfort from those of my kind

a narrow path, which gate do I choose

if one wrong decision I make then my life I will lose

I struggle to live each breath I fight for freedom

Why can't I find it, my will is seldom

Eternally searching yet not wanting to find

answers to questions that may blow my mind

I never ask the things I cannot give

not trying to find that one eternal door

I stumble into a void of doom and fear

not wanting to see, not wanting to hear

cries of help from those come before me

in case our destinies forever shall meet

I linger on a silent path to scared to fall

keeping a hand on my crucifix I call-

to an empty silence with questions unheard

not wanting the answers in case they will disturb

My silence, my darkness, the things that I fear

yet forever I cling to them so frightingly clear

My life blood is drained, my hearts beat is waining

I can't save myself, I care no more, it's paining

I want more to life than a pitifull existance

Why do they cry for me, their cries insistant

They want my soul, they need an empty vessel

They pluck at my mind, my life is a mess

I fight no more they know its best

My struggle is ended, so now I jest

"Come get my soul" my sorrow so endless...