Crystal Tear

~My lips quiver like always~

Just when I thought things were going good

Why does he have to be so stupid!

Well it's not like I really have room to complain

I mean, look what I put him through

The fighting, the yelling, pointing the fingers at him... always at him

Never at myself?

What is wrong with me?

I think I am accusomed to the yelling and fighting from my family

I was raised with hate... or is that love?

I don't want to fight anymore with him.

~My heart aches just a little more... beats a little slower~

When willl I learn that he can leave whenever he wants?

He says he could.. but does that mean his love is fake?

I try not to push him away

But what is love one-sided? Lop-sided?

That pretty face that he says he loves

Is it ruined?

Has my attitude made me ugly in and out?

~My tears run down my face~

The tears that you never wish upon anyone

The kind that keep you choking to hold them back

The kind that make you think this is the end

Is it?..

Stary night

And crystal moon

Make my crystal tears vanish.. make them untrue

Leave me with the sun

The vibrant rays to inhale.

Make this love right.. to last

Forever

Crystal moon.. I wish my crystals tears to you..