My dearest Baby
Omg! it is really raining today, raining
in my heart with thoughts as time get shorter and shorter Baby.
How I wish I could stop the clock in time and make this forever.
I love you Girl and missing you here.
Thank you for the lovely and most precious WOW! Weekend we spend
together, it was so special to me Charen Thank you! Thank you!
You are the most beautiful part of my
life and I never could think of anything better happening to me.
You bring out the very best in me at all times Baby, and make my
world go round, Wow!
I am hating the thought of leaving your
side on Wednesday, but know it is only an empty shell that will
be boarding that plane my heart and soul remains by your side as
always, so you will never be far from me and me from you
Yeah! Life can be so darn cruel at times
but I guess this is the way we grow with and in each other. In
the short time we have discovered and learned even more of one
another. Your love for me is like a guiding light that leads me
on, gives me hope for new tomorrows and years to come Baby Girl.
There is so much I have again stored in my soul of you, so
precious and so beautiful, yes!
You light up my life in every way my
I hope you have a real good day and that
it passes quickly that you can come home to me so that I once
more can harbour you in my arms.
I LOVE YOU!
I LOVE YOU!
I LOVE YOU!
Always My Heart Will Go On for
you and that is why I wanted to finish this letter to you in here
so that when you feel lonely you can always go back to read
The butterfly counts not the
months but moments and has time enough to spread her beautiful
wings a kaleidoscope of soft colours and so do I have the moments
of fondest memories of you…… just like the elusive butterfly so
have our wings become one to always fly with each other into
lands of dreams that only we share. I will always think of you as
my BUTTERFLY LADY, Sensual, Sexy, Beautiful and Exquisite. So
when I see a Butterfly I will always be reminded of you Baby
As I sit here in front of my
computer, looking at your photo, you are probably working hard
and I know you will be thinking of me to.
My thoughts go back to
when we first met on the net, to be exact 12/07/2007. How shy we
were, how afraid to speak, how much we wanted to. Then finally we
Thanks to Windows, megs,
ram and bytes, yet not forgetting MSN, all our little emoticons
which boggled your mind as you grabbed each one, I thank them
always and forever, for bringing you closer into my life. How
very soon the chemistry of cyber space grew between us and then
into a love we both never knew or even imagined could
I then think of all the
adventures we've had and have shared. The fears I had within me
not to mess up, hoping you will not be disappointed. Knowing in
me this is a first for me, so completely innocent in what was
about to happen.
Hopes in me that you will at least just
maybe like me a little. Omg! How very frightened and shy I was,
every inch of my body trembled inside yet I was so excited in
what was about to happen, the experience…and then I kissed a Girl
and you know what? I liked it!
And then I set eyes on you for the very
first time, do you remember how I bent down to kiss you Hi!? I
was mesmerized with the beauty of your blue eyes which looked
deeply into my soul the very first moment you saw
Our Womans day 09/08/2007. "A
memory that will last forever!" The fun we had there, shy yet
exploring one another. I remember our beautiful and passionate
love making, our squeezed tight bubble baths, our romantic
candlelit bedroom, our joy of just being with each other, the
laughter, our tears that we shared.
How I first kissed you under very
frightened conditions in our flat, and you even brought all the
music that we shared, to be shared together. Our first bar-b-que
and bottle of JC le Roux all comes to
My mind wanders to how we got to
know each other through our minds, our hearts, our souls, our
bodies and our words. Sensual, ecstatic, passionate, loving,
satisfying are some words I use for our
How we went over and over
again to Nevaland. How we took each other to the stars and
beyond. How we declared our love to one another. How you took me
to paradise with your love. Oh! so many beautiful memories we
have shared and to still share, and most wonderful of all those
that we will still share.
Then I think of all the beautiful
poems, gifts and cards you have sent and given me. The sms, the
phone calls. All a part of our adventure, a never-ending journey.
I have read and re-read our writings and still often do, somehow
I seem to be seeking the answers in them. All so very precious to
me and my most treasured one the Power Point letter you made for
me, it left me quite breathless, it will always remain my
How frightened I was for you
of the situation you were dealing with at home. How in awe I am
of your strength, your hard work, your ability to accept what
comes your way.
And now I am back to the present.
How I hate myself for what happened in our relationship caused by
many factors from both sides, which I have tried to put behind
me. I sincerely hope you were able to do the
I remember with such passion in me
of the countless moments of your support when I was diagnosed
with the most feared illness in woman breast cancer. How you gave
me such courage to carry on, being there for me every moment of
the pain I endured. How you encouraged me to complete my
treatment regardless how I hated the chemo part, you were just
always there Baby Girl and I today know that your suffering was
far greater than that of mine because you loved me so. Thank you
Angel, thank you. You always hugged me when I needed a hug and
assured me everything is going to be okay.
As I have always said I seek no
fortune or fame in life, having you is my richness. I cannot
offer you diamonds or pearls but I give to you a heart filled
with true love. I never needed a fancy house because you are home
and that is where my heart lives and always
I am going to miss you so irrevocably
when I go home. I am going to miss you wider than any emotion
ever can be, I'll keep watching the shadows dancing on the
ceiling as I miss you. I'll miss you so badly I am going to count
every hour, minute, second, in the everlasting days. I will miss
you so, I will be trying to find a meaning in everything since it
has turned into this not being with you. But I also know that we
will dream together and this is where we will always meet and be
I will miss you Baby Girl, I
will miss you so much! My heart aches, breaks in a zillion pieces
and even more.
With every second the
clock ticks I will miss you oceans of waves breaking. Just like
my heart beats each beat for you. In the wideness of the distance
over land and sea, that you to will to be thinking of me I will
miss you Baby Girl, I will miss you so
I love you so much, I want you, I
need you, I need to be back in your life totally. I patiently
wait for that day when I will hear the words come back to me
forever and a day! Oh! To be in the harbour of your arms, to
taste your kisses, to feel your body next to mine, to know that
this is what you want in your life 'ME'. For me to look into
eyes and tell you "I love you Charen"
My sweet, wonderful woman……………………
our new adventure will then begin.
I will be there by your side in spirit no
matter which way the journey of our lives takes
Life has been very much a bumpy journey, there have
been many twists and turns in our short relationship, but it has
been totally worthwhile. It personifies rebirth and renewal….new
hope for new tomorrows. We have experienced the abyss of darkness and the pinnacle of
Your Love and mine will get
us through this waiting period. If our love making is now so
intense and so phenomenal I cannot stop to think what it is going
to be like in the real world, it is going to be amazing, so
sensational an awesome adventure of 2 people who are so in love,
who's hearts entertwine.
Until the 12th of never
I'll be loving you Baby Girl. So as I wave you Adios on Wednesday
I will have no shame if my tears flow down my cheeks once more as
they are tears of sadness of leaving you behind, but also that of
gladness knowing that I take you with me in my
I Love you Baby Girl until the end of
never! Take special care for me.