i have not talked to you for a while. i know when we talk all we do is fight. what we had was amazing. and being your girl ment everything to me. our relationship was bad, all we did was fight and control each other and thats not how things should be when people love each other. we had no trust but all we new was we didnt want to be alone. i still would say that you are my girl and that wont change. i tried to date other girls but the feelings for them were only the ones i had with you. i could not get close to another girl. they just seemed not good enough for me. i want to tell you how sorry i am for ruining us and for hurting you so bad. i am a horrible person for it. i hate myself everyday for the things i did but taylor they had to be done. maybe down the road we will meet again and things will be better. i have no say in what happens now. but im hoping that you still care for me and still hope the best. i hope that when people put me down that u stand up for me and dont tell peopel hurtful things about me. it hurts when u said you loved me but then you go and let people call me all kinds of names and say horrible things. this paprgragh may be pointless in writing but i need to talk somehow even if you or no one reads it. i just need to get it off my chest that i love you! i love you everyday and i never stop thinking about you. i know that i moved on and am now dating but i need this time to think about what i should do and dating people and me and you being away from each other will help out a lot. if you hate me and want nothing to do with me i understand i just want to still have a contection with you. i have told people many times that i am not over you and that i will always love you and they respect that. when i started dating jake i let him know what had happened to me and why im scared to date guys and he understands that i told him all about you and me and what we had and he understand that i will never get over you. i only started dating him because he was the only person who understand and will not judge me. he knows everything and not once did he tell me anything bad he lifted me up. and thats what i need i dont need to be put down anymore. he is so good to me taylor and i know it hurts to see me with someone else cuz it hurts that i see you with other people too but we need this if we want things to work out. we need this break. i love you and still care for you. i just needed to get this off my chest. im sorry for putting you through all this. and im sorry i came into your life and messed it up so badly. i know im a terrible person. trust me i know.