His hair was so blonde, Eyes so blue, skin so soft and right. He
was like looking at a morning sky, and what I'd do to wake up to
that face every morning. I awoke realising I again had dreamed
about him, the one I believe was the one. But
you see there was a problem with that, the problem being I,
myself, were also a guy. It was so stupid of me to fall for
someone of the same gender, and because I knew of how stupid it
was I decided not to tell a soul about my secret crush.
I finally got out of my warm and small bed and made my way to the
bathroom rubbing my eyes from sleep. I looked in the mirror as I
did every morning, just to show myself how unworthy I would be
for him anyway. My hair was a Chocolate brown, messy and curly
even when I brushed it. My eye's were a yellow like colour,
horrible and gross. My skin was pale and freckles covered my
cheeks and the bridge of my nose. I was thin, really thin, a thin
that people looked at and felt sick to the stomach. Yeah, I know,
I'm ugly as one would say. As I had finally stopped reminding
myself of how I looked, I pulled out my tooth brush placing a
layer of toothpaste on top and brushed my teeth. Done in the
bathroom I walked towards my kitchen. Just in case you have not
guessed yet I live in a small, very small, apartment by myself. I
am now at the age of seventeen and in my eleventh year of school
starting today. Which brings me to the subject of school, a
horrible place it was. Let's start with the students. stupid!
irritating! I don't know how anyone really could possibly put up
with some of the people, I decided to normally not socialize with
any of them unless it was needed. I was average at academics and
failed sports. It wasn't like I wasn't smart or I wasn't fit I
just didn't like to do it. The only reason I forced my way
through school was so I could get to university and start doing
what I really wanted to do, and that was art and animation. I
wondered what he wanted to be, would he go off to
"Ah no, no, no!" I yelled hitting my head trying to stop thinking
about him. I looked through the fridge to find nothing, i need to
go to the store after school. I walked to my dining table where i
had a fruit ball and grabbed a banana, peeling it i looked over
at the microwave to find out it was already quarter to eight and
my bus was meant to come at eight. Quickly eating the banana I
ran into my bedroom/living room and pulled my uniform out of my
draws. I striped of my pajamas and hurriedly put my uniform on.
With a quick tighten of my tie and button up of my blazer I ready
to head off to the bus stop five minutes down the road. I looked
at the time before i left, ten to eight.
I made it to the bus stop with a few minutes to spare. There were
a few people at the bus stop as well but i chose to keep my
distance. I looked at the people talking and noticed
him, his name was Jake, I don't believe i told you that
yet. He was talking and laughing with a couple people, not
friends, they were just people that went up to him. He was
popular like that. I sighed and looked away.
How about whilst i wait here i tell you why i live alone? I moved
out only last year because of some issues i had with my dad. I
had told them when i was fifteen that I was gay, i knew because i
feel in love with Jake and i was sure that i had no interest in
women. My dad if very homophobic and basically disowned me as a
son, for a year he'd yell at me and abuse me. My mother on the
other hand was fine with me being homosexual and it was her idea
for me to move out, she gives me an allowance every month and
pays my school financials. I don't like to hassle her like this
and am trying to find a part-time job.
The bus pulled up at the bus stop and everyone started to forward
in. I made my way over looking at the ground trying to keep my
self calm whilst walking through the small crowd. From ignoring
people i have gained a large amount of social anxiety. Suddenly
someone hit into me making me falling to the ground landing on my
"Ow." My tone was quiet.
"Hey you! Watch were your going!" I heard a girls voice. "Jake
are you alright?" My eyes went wide. Had i really just hit into
Jake? I looked up with fearful eyes to see him talking
with a young girl, probably a grade down from us.
"Oh no don't worry about me. I was the one who hit into him." His
smile was bright, perfect. He looked down at me. "Hey, are you
alright. Here let me help you up." He reached his hand out. I
felt my cheeks warm up as i grasped his hand, cold, his hand was
cold. The sensation sent chills up my arm. I looked down quickly
as i was pulled to my feet. "Come on better get in and stop
holding up the bus driver." hit put his hand on my shoulder but i
quickly brushed it off. I didn't like being touched, it was just
the fear I've had since my dad abused me.
"S-sorry." I stuttered and quickly walking into the bus talking
the front seat before Jake could talk to me anymore. I didn't
want him to know me, i didn't want him to know i like - no loved
him. Oh god i was stupid, so, so stupid. I looked down playing
with some thread that was attached to my blazer, then i heard his
voice i again.
"Do you mind if i sit here?" He asked. I was shocked, was it that
he was sorry for hitting into me? Was it because he was popular
and needed to be friends with everyone? I had no idea.
"No! Don't sit with him~" The girl from before whined. She was
the type i hated most, the one who acted cute but really was just
"Y-you should sit with her." I said trying to get rid of him, my
face was still red, maybe he already found out and was going to
make fun of me?
"I'm sorry Alyssa but I'm going to sit with...uh..."
"James, my name is James."
"James." He smiled warmly. Alyssa huffed and walked off to the
back of the bus. Jake sat down and the bus was off. The drive to
school was silent. I tried everything i could to stop looking at
Jake, but when i did i noticed that he was looking at me. I
didn't understand why, and i didn't want to ask. I just couldn't
stop blushing through the whole trip.
Hello guys, Amber here with a story. Please tell me what
you think. I wrote the start of this a while ago when i had
writers block and i read through it and liked it so i thought why
not continue it. So this will basically be updated when i can.
I'm putting it under short story as i don't plan for it to be to
long, but it probably will, so yeah. Anyway tell me what you
think it'd be a great help, and any thoughts off what you'd like
to see. THANK YOU~!