"Why did you and Jasmine break up?"
"Why did you and Jasmine break up?"
"What does that have to do with anything?"
"Just answer the question Natalie."
"I…I cheated on her."
"How many times did she forgive you?"
"What do you mean?"
"How many times did you cheat and she forgave you because she cared for you?"
"I don't know like um I forgot."
"You don't forget that kind of stuff Natalie, how many times did you break that girl's heart?"
"I really don't see how this affects you and me."
"How many times."
"No Natalie tell me how many times."
"Fine I cheated on her four times!" Natalie finally yelled at me.
"Guys okay I admit I did wrong we would get mad and I would run off!"
"Why did you do it?"
"Because I would get so mad and I knew that it would hurt her."
"So you thought it would hurt me to if you did it?"
"No! God I wasn't thinking!"
"Then what is it?"
"I don't know!"
"Then what the hell are we going to do Natalie because there are going to be times when we argue and I don't want to see you running off to get drunk and fuck some other guy."
"I won't do it ever again Max."
"How am I supposed to believe that Natalie?"
"You have to trust me."
"Just like Jasmine trusted you?"
"That's not fair!" Natalie screamed at me.
I stood up from the bed and walked towards the wall leaning against it, I needed space away from her. All I wanted was to hold her but I couldn't let her think that it was okay to hurt me that way. As I closed my eyes I felt Natalie get up from the bed and walk to me.
Her hands went to my face but they were cold and yet they seemed to be burning my skin. She put her arms around my neck and leaned her head against my chest. I felt her tears and all I wanted to do was say that it was okay and forgive her but I couldn't just do that. It wasn't right to let her think everything wrong she did was okay. She needed to know that I didn't play games.
"Max please don't do this to me."
"I didn't do anything Natalie you did this to us."
"I can change I can be better."
"Stop Natalie I think we need time apart and once some time has passed we will see if we can be together."
"What do you mean?"
"I'm taking my sister to live somewhere else, you're going back to Montana." I said as I pulled away and went to sit on the edge of the bed."
"But…but I thought you loved me."
"I do Natalie we just need time to see if you and I can be apart without cheating on each other."
"How will you know if I cheat?"
"There's this thing called trust Natalie."
"But why can't we be together…"
"I need time to think."
"About what, I thought you loved me."
"I do Natalie I just don't…"
"Don't what Max?"
"I need time Natalie."
"Whether or not I can afford to get hurt by you."
"Max I promise I won't hurt you."
"Yea but you have and you don't know if you'll do it again or not."
"I do know Max I won't hurt you ever again." Natalie said as she came towards me and straddled me.
She put her arms on both my cheeks before leaning in to kiss me. I don't know if it was me being a horny teenager or something but next thing I now I had my hands on her back pulling her deeper against me. I lay back on the bed as she moved her hands to my shirt and took it off along with my bra. I moved y hands under her shirt and took it off as well.
As I looked at her breasts I couldn't help but admire the size of them, they were perfect not too small and not too big just perfect for my hands. I moved my hands until they rested against her breasts and I began to massage them slowly rubbing her nipples I watched as she arched her back in pleasure.
I turned us around until she was the one on her back. I lowered my lips to her nipples and licked them slowly before taking each one into my mouth. I looked up at her and saw that her eyes were fluttering. I moved my hand downward and unbuttoned her pants before sliding them down her legs and feet. I went back to kissing her lips as I put my hand over her panties.
I kissed down to her neck and nibbled on it slowly as I ripped her panties off, I moved my hand over her and teased her. I bit down slowly on her neck as I put my fingers deep in her wetness and began to please her.
It wasn't until a few more hours that we were finished and Natalie was sleeping. I walked out the room and found Jennifer sitting on the couch. She looked up at me and began to interrogate me.
"You sure want to leave her?"
"No, I don't but I'm not going to do this, she's attracted to men and she knows it, arguments are just an excuse for her to be with one."
"Did she tell you this?"
"She didn't have to."
"Don't you think you're making a mistake?"
"No, Jennifer I need time to deal with this and she needs time to figure out where her feelings lie."
"But I thought it was love at first sight?"
"It was but…"
"Then why leave her?"
"She still lusts after men!"
"Don't leave her sis."
"I have to."
"No you don't, you're just afraid that she might love you fully."
"Maybe I am Jennifer."
"Enough Jennifer, get what ever you're going to get and come on." I said as I headed to the kitchen where a piece of paper and pen were. As Jennifer went to get my stuff I began to write.
I know that you will probably hate me, but I... we need space. I never lied about being in love with you, I am in love and always will be. Please don't hate me I wasn't using you. I guess I just wanted our last time to be together memorable. I'm leaving but I will wait for you to show me your commitment. I know that you desire men but I won't deal with that. When you find out whom it is you really and truly want ask Nicolai for a way to contact me. However, if you never want to see me again I will understand. Just know that I will always carry you in my heart. I love you Natalie.
Sincerely with love,
"You ready Max?" I heard my sister ask and as I gave one last look at the letter I nodded and walked towards her. I looked back at the bedroom door wanting to go back and lay with Natalie but I couldn't. I gave my sister a nod before walking out the door.