"What were you thinking?" Natalie asked me as we walked out the hospital; Jennifer had gone and gotten the car. Yes, I could walk but I felt sort of weak so I was using a cane to help.
"I didn't want to live without you." I whispered back.
"So the most simple thing was taking your life?"
"Look Natalie I wouldn't expect you to understand."
"What do you mean I can't understand?"
"Look clearly I almost died because I was foolish enough to think that I couldn't go on without you."
"Oh so now it's my fault?"
"How the hell is it my fault?" Natalie asked incredulously.
"You could have come and told me you loved me, you could have tried harder."
"So could you."
"I about took… no wait I took my life for a few minutes for you how can that not be trying hard enough."
"And what do you think I did while we were apart?"
"Clearly you were planning a wedding."
"What the hell would make you say that?"
"Nicolai showed me a video of you in a bar."
"Nicolai… wow you mean the guy who separated us?"
"He was looking after me."
"Look Max I'm glad you're fine and all but I'm not going to take the blame for everything. I know you are hurt but that doesn't mean I have to put up with your accusations. By the way you aren't the only with scars." Natalie said as she walked away and got in a taxi as soon as someone was dropped off.
I watched as the taxi took her away before getting in Jennifer's car. I shut the door and sat there quietly before realizing that Jennifer was waiting for Natalie.
"She's not coming Jennifer." I said at last.
"She was being childish and well she couldn't accept the facts."
"Dammit Max what did you say?"
"That she was to blame, I just…"
"How could you be so stupid as to do that?"
"What, you're on her…"
"Max she left her wedding, she left the groom just to come to you. Do you honestly have no idea what that means?"
"She loves you Max, as soon as she found out you were getting married she came to you. You want to blame someone, blame yourself."
"How is it…"
"Max, can you really be that blind, she came for you. She didn't give up as soon as she found out about the wedding she came, and trust me there was nothing that could have stopped that woman."
"No Max, there are no buts. She came for you when you could have done the same but your ego was to big to go searching for her."
"Yes it is and you know it. You need to go and apologize to her."
"I don't want…"
"Do you love her?"
"Do you see yourself with her?"
"Would you want her to go back to the man she left?"
"Then what the hell are you waiting for?"
"No Max I am not listening to anything…"
"Jennifer! Just please shut up and stop interrupting me. I need you to take me to this place and then to Natalie." I said as I looked at my sister and smiled giving her the address of the place I wanted her to go to.
How could she blame me for what she did? I just couldn't believe her, after all the trouble I went through and all the pain she still blames me. What did I do wrong, I called didn't I, so why did she act like if I had abandoned her.
I went to my hotel room and went straight for the bathroom starting a bath and setting candles. I was not going to dwell on it if she wanted to blame me then she could just go on ahead. She didn't know what I went through and I wasn't about to tell her either. If she wanted to blame me she could just do it alone because I wasn't about to go to her.
I began to take my clothes off and I looked at my body in the mirror. I wasn't the same, I was still too skinny and I had scars on my stomach. I never told anyone how I cut there so that no one would ask. I looked at my scars and began to cry at the fact that she believed I had given up and that I hadn't tried that hard, she didn't know though.
I looked at myself one last time before getting in into the bath. Just One Last Dance by Sarah Connor was playing on my laptop as I slid into the water and bubbles, yes I was that upset. I needed my bubbles so that I could relax. It wasn't until almost fifteen minutes later that I heard knocking on the door but I chose to ignore it, at this point I didn't care who came looking for me. I was just closing my eyes when I felt a presence behind me and I heard her voice.
"You know you should really make sure your door is closed." I said as Natalie basically jumped in the air.
"Oh my God, what are you doing here?" Natalie asked clearly confused and angry.
"I wanted to apologize for being an ass to you. I knew it wasn't your fault I guess I just didn't want to admit that I had done something really wrong."
"Your welcome." I said as I took my jacket off and laid it on top of a counter.
"Look Natalie, I know that I had no right to be mean and I should have tried harder to be with you. I shouldn't have given up, instead I should have gone and ran after you but I didn't… I was just too weak."
"I just needed you to be with me, I hurt so much when you never replied."
"I know so did I when I heard nothing form you."
"Can you forgive me Natalie?"
"You know I can't say no."
"Thanks." I said as I began to kneel but Natalie grabbed my shirt and pulled me in the tub with her splashing water everywhere. Luckily my hands landed on her waist but it did burn as I felt the soap on the cuts. I pulled up my hair wet and soapy and looked at Natalie as she laughed at me.
If you were to picture us, you could see that I was on my knees and my hands were on her waist, well you couldn't really see that, but I would basically be on my hands and knees and she would be under me with her head thrown back laughing and my hair all over my face.
Anyway that's what we looked like at that moment. I pulled back and Natalie sat up so that she was on her knees like me. I know I sound totally lustful but I couldn't stop my gaze as the soap slowly slid down her neck and her breasts. I was staring like a dork with my tongue hanging out I know I was by the look on her face.
Natalie came closer to me and ran her hand over my cheek as I held her against me with my hands on her back feeling the water and smoothness of her drove me insane. However even though I knew all I wanted to do was love her and please her I drove that out. I wanted her, I wanted to hold her against me and know that she was real that she was here with me. There was no denying that I had chosen wrong in leaving her the first and second time. This was the third time but this time I wasn't going to leave her.
Natalie held my head against her shoulder and I just held onto her savoring this moment with her. I wish we could have stayed like that for a while but Natalie ended up ruining it.
'"You know my knees are hurting."' Natalie whispered in my air, which made me laugh out loud. I moved back and laid down in the tub pulling Natalie on top of me and ended up curling on top of me and hugging me as f I were her teddy bear. We sat there for a short time in my opinion and when the water began turning cold we let it go and put warm water on. Somehow my clothes ended up being removed and we continued to lie down.
I must not have noticed her scars but I began to move my hand down to her stomach, I made little circles all around and at last I felt a bump. I pulled my eyes up to her face but noticed that she was looking away. I pulled up and pulled her along with me so that her stomach was visible.
"I was hurting Max."
"Why did you do this though?"
"Everywhere else was too visible…too obvious."
"I wanted the pain to be mine not anyone's else so I did this to myself to know that I was suffering alone, just like I felt at that time."
"I should never have left you."
"It's okay…you're here now."
"Forgive me again Natalie for having been a jerk and leaving you when in truth I loved you just like I love you now but I love you even more."
"I love you Maxine, I love and I forgive you."
"You're welcome, just promise me something Max."
"Promise me you will never leave my side again."
"Would you like to be by my side forever?" I asked as I moved my hand and got her gift out that I had in my jacket.
"I wouldn't want anything else."
"I'm glad you said that."
"Why?" Natalie said as I took her hand in mine and held it against my heart as I looked into her eyes.
"You know, I'm going to feel bad for taking God's angel from him but I can't let you go…Natalie?"
"Yes?" Natalie whispered slowly as she looked into my eyes.
"You know when I first met you, you landed on top of me. I don't think that was a mistake, and even though you gave me a headache, I love you. I hope that you can continue giving me headache's Natalie as we go in life together; I want you to be mine."
"Natalie will you be the one for me, my angel, my love? I know I hurt you really bad and made you suffer but if you take this ring I want you to take my heart as well and know that both will be just for you. There will never be another girl out there that can have my heart much less a ring, both belong to the angel who feel for me. In other words will you be my angel and wife forever?" I finally asked as I held her hand spread over my heart and the ring over it showing her that my heart and ring were hers if she too them.
"I will Max I will be yours forever baby." Natalie finally said crying as I put the ring on and held our hands over my heart and her heart resting over our hands. We were finally united and there wasn't anyone who would change that.
I knew that life wouldn't be all easy for us both but I planned on making it work.
Again here I am waiting to get married. I looked in the mirror and smiled, I had my figure back and my lover. I was going to be hers officially to everyone out there. I smiled at my reflection and looked over at my father. It was time to get married.
It was time, here I was again, in the town that started a lot of trouble and pain for me but helped me find love and become closer to those in my life. I looked over at Robert, Nicolai, and Jennifer; they were all smiling at me. Robert was happy to see us again; he was very supportive about the choices we made. Everything returned back to normal with Nicolai, he even turned around and asked everyone for forgiveness and even paid for everything. Jennifer, well believe it or not Jennifer gave up dating, she's studying to be a teacher.
I was happy to be honest I was going crazy; I stood there looking at everyone and smiled. I was waiting for her. As soon as the song came on everyone stood up and I looked over at Natalie coming in.
I walked in and looked into the crowd, everyone was there even the policeman who helped us out and he seemed to be having a nice conversation with Robert. I smiled to everyone and at last looked over at my love. She stood there in a white suit smiling at me. We had no bridesmaids or the groomsmen, no we wanted it to just be us two up there in the altar.
My father kissed me on the cheek before letting me go to Max. I smiled at her as I looked into her eyes noticing the love in them as well as the happiness.
"Hey." I said slowly.
"Hi." Max said as she held my hand up to her lips and kissed it.
"You look sexy."
"And you look beautiful." Maxine said as she held my hand and turned to look at the priest. I don't think I paid attention to anything until I saw Max look at me and say the words I've been waiting for.
"I do." I said as I gave Natalie a smile knowing that she hadn't been paying attention.
"And do you Natalie Parks, accept Maxine Thompson as your wife?"
"I do." Natalie said as I looked in her deep green eyes. I really didn't know if the priest said I could kiss her yet but I kissed her. I pulled her body against me and touched her sweet lips with mine. We kissed slowly and lovingly and at that same moment it seemed that the sunlight was shining only on us… on our love.
Needless to say we broke the kiss at last and heard as people applauded and whistled. We went down the aisle and well once we got out the church everyone was congratulating us and hugging. It was all beautiful, but nothing was more beautiful then the look in Natalie's green eyes as I looked over at her ignoring all the people around us.
"I love you." I said hoping that she could read my lips and hear me.
"I love you too." Natalie said to me as she smiled at me.
It's an amazing day; I was finally married to the one I love. My sister and friend's are all here and everyone is happy. I couldn't have wished for anything else, my life was finally complete. I looked up into the sky and thanked God for His angel, and wished for my parent's blessing. I looked back at Natalie and noticed she was coming my way.
"Hey there." Natalie said as she kissed me and hugged me. I held her back and cherished this moment knowing that this was a day to remember. I was finally free to love her and be at peace with my sister and myself. I looked down at Natalie again and held her hand; no one would ever come between us again, ever.