It felt like something big was going to come out of me when I woke up but soon I realized it was only water. It was already morning I realized as I looked around me. I was lying on my stomach and suddenly I felt the urge to vomit so I pulled up and got on my hands and knees as I let the water out. I was coughing by the time I was finished. I stood up and looked around me, it was morning a beautiful morning. I tried to remember what happened last night but all I remembered was being sleepy and darkness.
I realized that I was going to be late to school hell I was probably already late. I began to walk home thinking about what happened last night. I had a broken heart and it isn't the usual kind it really did hurt like severely. I finally saw Roberts house and walked to the door, but before I had a chance to open it Robert had me in his arms.
"I was so worried about you."
"Don't worry I understand."
"Yes, same thing happened to me except I didn't have a twin brother but I did have an older brother, I knew since I was a kid and always accepted it but he never did. He would beat me, torture me, make fun of me; you know all that good stuff. Ha-ha it sucked but I left when I turned fourteen and came here, I grew up here helping out and all that. I made myself work and now I am who I am. My brother is living in a trailer drunk as you can imagine. I know it sucks but it will get better."
"Thank you." I said.
"Don't worry you know you can talk to me at anytime, just don't go missing please."
"I won't." I said as I smiled at him.
"So what are you planning?"
"I plan on going to school."
"Okay, Jennifer got a ride by her friends."
"I figured." I said as I smiled at him and headed upstairs to take a shower. As I stood under the hot water I felt my tears run down as well. My sister didn't worry much anymore huh? I couldn't help but laugh I mean I've always been there for her but she no longer wants me in her life. Fine I wouldn't give her the time of day.
I got out the shower and chose a button up royal blue shirt with no sleeves and some black leather pants; next I chose my leather jacket and some black boots. Luckily yesterday I didn't have homework so I just got my backpack and headed downstairs.
"Hey damn Max you look good."
"Ha-ha thanks Robert." I said as I blushed.
"Here I wrote you a note saying that you were going to be late."
"Thanks. Hey Robert…"
"If I were to get a tattoo would you be upset?"
"No I wouldn't it's your body, I mean I would prefer if you didn't but I won't stop you."
"So can I get one today?"
"Sure, I guess."
"Okay well see you later, I think I'm going to be late."
"Just be careful and be home by dinner."
"Yes sir." I said as I saluted him and headed out. I really should have gone to school immediately but I really wanted the tattoo, I've always wanted one but I never got a chance to get one. Now I headed to the tattoo shop wanting to get a tattoo. I walked in and sat down waiting until they called my name.
"Okay what would you like today?"
"What words would you like?"
"I want Smile now, Cry later on my shoulder and then I want you to write Love on my left wrist and Strength on my right wrist. Finally I want you to tattoo barbwire on my right arm going all around."
"You know that's going to cost you a bit."
"Don't worry I got the money."
"Okay whatever you say."
He began working on my tattoos and I just shut out the pain. It wasn't until almost two hours later that he was finished; I have to say he was quick. After he had finished I paid and headed to school. I arrived right as my fourth period ended and lunch began.
"Miss Maxine nice of you to come to school."
"Sorry Ms. Martin."
"What are you sorry for?"
"It's okay, and nice tattoo."
"Thanks." I said as I smiled, she hadn't seen the ones on my wrist but the one on my shoulder was pretty obvious. I went to my locker and got my stuff that I was going to need before heading to the library knowing that Natalie was going to be there. As I went in I noticed the silence except o course for some humming which was coming from where Natalie usually is.
She must have been so caught up in her humming and searching for a new book because she didn't turn around until I had my arms around her waist.
"Ha-ha hey buster." Natalie said as she giggled and turned around.
"How are you?" I asked as I gave her a kiss on the cheek and pulled her down with me on the pillows. Both of us were sitting down against each other laughing at my crazy events.
"Good and hey!"
"You have a tattoo."
"Oh yea I got them this morning."
"Oh yea um I have two on my wrists and one on my shoulder and another one on my arm."
"Why did you get so many?"
"I don't know I just love tattoos."
"Don't they hurt?"
"Not really, I learned how to shut out the physical pain."
"Really, how did you learn, actually why did you have to learn?"
"I used to be a cutter."
"Why did you do it?"
"I was going through some stuff." I said as I leaned my head against her shoulder.
"Are you going to start again?"
"No I don't plan to, why would you think I do?"
"Because there is a look in your eyes that's just really sad, it hurts to see you that way." Natalie said as she put her hand on my cheek and leaned towards me, her forehead was on mine and she was looking deep in my eyes. I was so lost in her eyes that I didn't realize the way she was closing in until I felt her sweet lips on mine.