The disgust i felt inside myself made me sob and cry while Jessica hugged me,
Jessica drove me home that night, and Ben new right away i had been crying.
what happened Ben asked me? I looked at Ben and my heart ached and trembled
at the thought of another man touching me. Ben reached for me and i backed away, don't touch
me yet i whisperd not yet more tears fell and i rushed to our room and into the bathroom i locked the
door as i heard Ben outside. I striped my shirt off and felt myself fall ill i had brusises on my wirst
and a hicky on my chest, I felt dirty and gross. i slamed the cabnets open which made Ben start banging on the
door telling me to open the door right now, i found the sissors and sliced the blade over the hicky. I ran into the
shower as i heard kicking at the door i rushed the water on washing away the blood as i scrubed myself, a
loud bang came from behind as Ben saw what i had done. God Sam what are you doing? he opened the shower door
and wrapped me with a towel he lifted me up and placed me in the bed he sat their looking at me until i fell asleep.
I heard Ben's voice as the person on the phone told what happend sobing i whisperd sorry Ben i'm so sorry i felt
someone brush my hair and kissed softly on my cheek, a tear streamed down once more and i whispered ' I love you
forever and ever" i whispered. I awoke to find the room empty i walked down the stairs to see Ben siting next to the phone
he looked up and saw me, I'm so sorry Sam he said. why i asked? He pressed somthing cause i heard my voice screaming
Don't touch me, Ben i screamed, JESSICA i screamed even louder and the recording ended. My knee's buckled and i fell to my
knee's no i'm sorry Ben i said. I told you i wouldn't let him touch me i whisperd, as my heart ached even more. Ben got up and got
to his knees he cupped my face as i cried and he kissed me, his potient drug shivered my body he grabed my body and weakend at his
touch. "I Love you he said forever and always i whispered back. My fingers tangled into his hair as once again he penetrated me each time
going deep, "B..Ben i gasped " he hit my sweet spot over and over and he touched and kissed me so much my lips became swollen and numb.
we had sex the whole night until i fell asleep, i clung to Ben as i slept wishing i could stay like this forever .
I didn't go to school the next day and neither did Ben we layed their clinging to one another for along time, Ben never let me out his sight when we returned
to school and neither did Jessica.
It took some time but i felt safer after awhile and was invited to go with Ben to a beach house his parents owned that was only hours aways.