PART 16: ALEXANDER ANGEL ~late bloomer~
What am I supposed to do? I lost it! I'm a monster. I'm evil. This is all my fault! I hurt Micheal.. I hurt him! Why did I even do that... I'm just deeply wrapped in wrath that he asked me to kill him. It really pains my heart to hear him say that. How could he asked such thing from me? I would never kill him. I love him. Wait! I will not kill him? Really? What the hell am I thinking? He's just a prey. I was supposed to feed on him. Do I even want to feed on him? If I do, he'll be gone. No more listening to his voice, no more looking into those beautiful blue eyes. I feel like my heart is being stabbed. Stabbed with an unknown emotion. What is this?
"You love him, idiot," Dasmond said, from behind. I turn to look at him. He kept telling me that. I don't believe it. But wait, really? I love Micheal? "Stop thinking of that anymore, Alexander Angel!" Dasmond yelled in anger at me. It's a surprise to me that he is mad and he even calls me by my full name. "Just be honest about your feelings. Don't wait anymore. You know, you had always been a late bloomer. Remember when father taught us how to ride horses. You took three years to finally mastered it. I took only 3 seconds. When we were cursed, you took almost half a decade to learn how to control your bloodlust while I took only a year. Now, I've learnt about love, more than a century ago. So, listen to whatever the hell I told you because I'm always, always a faster learner than you," he emphasized his last words. And that made me shiver.
I could not say anything. I'm perplexed by this sudden attitude from Dasmond. "Brother..." I called, still looking puzzle. I don't know what to do. Don't know what to say.
"Dear brother, do you really want to end-up like me?" He asked. And I thought of the moment Marcus died. How Marcus just turn to ashes. How would I feel if Marcus is Micheal at the time? I stood up immediately and I realize... No. Not him. I can't lose him. And I walk straight to the stairs, intending to go up to the room and be honest to Micheal.