PART 24: GABRIEL ERNEST ~confession~
It's already morning. I look at Lucas who's sound asleep beside me. I feel at ease. He's not wearing anything. Last night could be my last night of ever touching him. I compelled last night to have sex with me again. I'm a jerk but I'm afraid he wasn't going to want to if I didn't. He hates me now, right?
Lucas started to move. I pretend to sleep. I close my eyes naturally and breathe heavily like I'm sleeping. Out of nowhere, I feel something wet my cheek. That made me open my eyes abruptly and look at Lucas who's looking at me now without a hint of surprise at my sudden wake at all. He kisses me, is it? He kisses my cheek? Why?
"Dasmond told me," he said.
This is worrying me. Did that bat vampire tells everything off to Lucas of my feelings for him? "Told you what?" I asked.
He only smiles, not answering my question. "The feeling's mutual, Gabriel," he then said calmly and got up slowly from the bed, getting dressed. To think back, it's been a very, very, very long time since he last talked to me like this. Usually, he would cursed, hissed, or yelled at me. But today, he's calm. Last night too. He did not even cursed at me. It almost felt like he was willingly having sex with me.
He is all dressed now. He looks at me and smiles. I'm still lying on the bed, unmoving from where I was. I only look down at the mattress, wondering what to do and what to say. As he about to leave the room, I feel like I have to say something to stop him from leaving. "You're not going, Lucas. I can't allow you to."
"Going where?" Lucas asked, stopping at the door.
"To kill Master," I said.
"Why?" He asked as he turns to look at me in anger.
"If Dasmond really told you of my feelings for you, you know why. I don't want anything bad happening to you. Besides, only the six of us are stronger. You're not. I can't risk that," I said, pouring my heart out. I feel relief at that. And I can feel now tears are building up inside of my eyelids.
"You're damn selfish, Gabriel," he said, looking hurt at my desire.
"I might not come back alive, you know," I said and at that he came to me and hugs me close to his chest. He's crying. I cry too. This is a new experience for us. We had never been this emotional towards each other before. Could it be because all this while, we've been hiding our feelings?
He breaks the hug and kisses my lips. Tears still exist in our eyes. This almost feel like confessions... Our confessions... Though this is beautiful, though this is everything I ever wanted, though I really feel happy right now, it has to end. "Lucas..." I called with a shaky voice. Then I slowly whisper into his ears, using my ability. "Please... Don't fight the devil with us." This will keep him safe. I want him to be safe. I love him. This is the only option I have.