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My bestfriend who i had feelings for that i shouldnt.
It got too much for me and her we both agreed to let things go.

Submitted:Jul 24, 2011    Reads: 427    Comments: 12    Likes: 7   

I watched her for two years everyday
two whole years I adored her to bits
I came to her when the clouds turned grey
getting high and sharing hits'
we shared dark secrets too
we have spent many of nights talking
our special little bond just grew
now I find myself walking
she brought out the best in me
you know, I could really be myself and shine
It was also rare for us to disagree
I almost wanted to call her mine
she always said "maybe if it was a few year ago"
but claims now I am too young for more
what she never has and never will know
is everything about her I just adore
when we hold eachother I dont want to ever let go
she was everything I held dear
I had to walk because my feelings were starting to show
although losing her was my biggest fear
when she spoke about her and her girl some nights
I could feel a huge jealous rush
I know my wrongs and I know my rights
and her happiness I dont want to crush
I had to walk away its more safe to do so
none of this was by choice
not one part of me enjoyed letting go
I miss her beauty and I miss her voice
I am angry at the false hope she gave
she promised more than the garden of eden
I just cannot look back and must stay brave
I must blind the begging and ignore the pleading
I never did understand my feelings for her to be fair
even with things moving on
although the same feelings are no longer there
I still miss her now that she is gone
But I had to walk I had to accept what simply cannot be
the whole two years are one big blur
I had to walk and accept she wont feel the same for me
I must accept it is wrong to love her.


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