There once was a young man named Eric who I met by chance.
We became good friend and knew each other very well,
So well he knew what I was thinking just by a glance.
Over time we became more alike, Brothers we would say.
Slowly over time he would be with me each and every day..
But as chance would have it Eric was more than just a Brother,
he was someone I confided in and loved like no other.
One day after school we met as usual and went to his room,
we watched TV and waited for his Mom who would be home soon.
To my surprise he reached over and touched me in a peculiar way,
I wasn't offended in any way and it affirmed the desire in my heart that day.
For I had secretly fallen in love with Eric long before and wanted more
that beautiful day when Eric would show his love behind closed doors.
It was his Mother who we both feared who would end our love,
for Eric was afraid of her knowing the truth and what would come.
Years went by and no one knew and our love for each grew.
Then reality set in and Eric grew afraid, afraid of who knew.
He was scared of the choices and love for me that he had made.
He joined the Army to prove to himself and other's he was a man
just as I had done years before thinking and having the exact same plan.
But I was fooling no one including myself those days
for everyone that I knew had already known that I was gay.
Eric grew more distant till we stopped talking altogether
In his mind it was his last hope of ridding me and his secret even better.
I have not spoken to him now for a decade or more
But I will never forget the love we had behind closed doors.
Eric will forever be my first true love and now that is done
but he is the one that for years made life so much fun
Each night I dream of the love we once had
And every day I awake to the reality and feel rather sad.
But all is not lost for I have hopes that one day
Eric and I will be friends again, so each day I pray.