I look upon her smiling face
how she makes my heart race.
I sit by her side as a "friend"
wishing her heart, she would lend.
I dreamed her touch, holding her tightly
This be in vain, for it's only my fantasy.
With eyes so blue, I wish she knew
Just how much I care, yet my words never dare.
Then comes along a boy, a dick of measure
She lightens up as if he's a goddamn treasure.
He buffs his chest, flexing arms thick and strong
if only I had a penis that big... that long.
Why do I torture myself with things that can never be?
She is so blind, she cannot see me.
Leave I should, but stay I must.
If only I could be the one to thrust.
Suddenly, he spots another boy
Is he competition or just her toy.
I love her, she loves him
Love's success grows dim.
To make things worse
Now comes our curse.
The other boy wants me more than like
Unfortunately, I'm a dyke.
You can laugh at our lover's SQUARE
sex it seems, does not share.
I love her, she loves him, him loves he, and he wants me.
We're all chasing the wrong person, can't you see?
And idea, a plan I must do
I'll confess my feelings so true.
She will understand, she will believe my heart.
Or else I'll retreat into the lonely dark.
She responds with a giggle and smile
I breathe relief for awhile.
Then she breaks my will
For her love, I failed to steal.
She says, "Thank you, but no."
My face turns white as snow.
Then she stops being my friend
Our relationship, doomed to end.
But pain of rejection was not mine alone
For her... he didn't want to bone.
Instead, he chased the other boy's ass
Only to find he was in the wrong class.
Cause the other boy was not gay
Just to be mean, I asked the other to play
He touched and groped me with sincere intention
While I mourned for her attention.
I took a blade and cut my skin
Laying there as he went in.
The release of pain and pleasure
Made me forget memories forever.
I am no longer gay or straight
There's only feelings of hate
To be unwelcome by those I trust
My blood quickly turned to dust.
Mom and Dad looked at my grave with concern
my sexuality, they'd never learn.
I saw the world with different eyes
Yet empty I am, like the skies.
All I wanted was to love
Something for nothing from above.
Instead, I recieved shame and scorn
They wished I had not been born.
Maybe they are right... I do not belong
For this is my story... my sad song.
Acceptance, we are needing
Thank you for reading.