"carlos to the front office your going home" wasent like mom to take me out of school this erly. "come on" she tells me bluntly "whats going on?" i knew it already but neither of us wanted to say anything. she looked me in the eyes. "mom dont cry" she leans over to give me a hug "i cant do this" lets go get sam i say tears falling down my face. "mom be calm" she starts our suv and reverses it. we head down the block to my bothers school. i told her i would wait in the car. she walked away and i began to cry. this was it i was facing my worst fear in the world.
my brother gets in the car. i hide behind the shade of my jacket. he has no idea whats going on. mom pulled into the lot of the hospital as quick as she could. she dropped me of and took my brother by his hand. she signed us in. it took her a few mins. tears are in my eyes nurese pass me by while i make my way to my dads room. standing out side of his door. "no, no, no!" i say softly i refused to go in i didnt want my last memeries to be like this.
"come in" he knew i was there. i couldnt hold it in anymore i break out in tears "dont cry my big boy" he was trying to comfort me while he held my head up agianst his. "dad dont go" he looked at me and smiled "its okay son. look at me." my head pointed down not able to face him. i loved him he was my father and i was losing him. the doctors say it wont be long maybe a few hours if that. "son " i wipe the tears in my eyes and look up at him "your the man now. take care of your mom and sam. promise me you will." i hugged him and held him tight. "i promise. dont go dad please. i love you. god please dont take my dad." i pleaded. we herd my brother walking to his room. i dry me face and give my dad one last look. he kisses my forhead. i walk out the room into the hallway. my heart was hurting so much.
i can see my mom sent sam out. he was crying. the alarms went off for my dad room this was it.. sam looks back i grab him turn him embrace him tightly. "i promise ill never let anything happen to you or mom." my tears were too much to hold back. the nuerses are rushing in now. i hear them call it. it was to surreal.