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Rightfully Mine.

Novel By: kanne83
Historical fiction



Kathryn fell in love with John the moment she saw him, when she was eight years old. She was so sure they'd get married one day. He just has to wake up and notice her. But what if he wakes up and notices the wrong person? Kathryn was so sure she wanted things to move forward. Now she just wants to go back to when things were simple and John didn't love anybody. View table of contents...


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Submitted:Apr 27, 2013    Reads: 10    Comments: 0    Likes: 0   


CHAPTER 9
This moment, I thought, was what perfect happiness felt like. It was a warm, beautiful summer day and I lay on the blanket, still holding Kat in my arms. Everything felt right. Like this was exactly how things were supposed to be from the beginning. It was as if I captured that feeling of a good stretch in the morning, and held on to it for hours.
Kat's hair smelled of roses and sunshine and I never wanted to stop pressing kisses to her neck and lips and forehead, or caressing her creamy skin as I traced the clusters of freckles across her shoulders and down her back with my fingertips.
I thought about how fortunate it was that we had this place. It would be our escape. We could come here to be together. Maybe not every day, or even a few times a week, but definitely sometimes. Maybe on Saturdays.
My mind was occupied, coming up with scenarios and details of how it would work, and I was taken off guard when Kat sat up. She shrugged her clothes back on, and her hands trembled as she worked the buttons and brushed dirt and grass from her skirt.
Pushing myself up, I noticed the tears beginning to stream down her face. When I touched her shoulder, she began sobbing violently. I tried to pull her into my arms again, but she lurched away, covering her face with her hands, continuing to cry.
I sat for several minutes, unsure of what to do while she cried. When she spoke, her words made my stomach drop.
"This was a horrible mistake," she mumbled into her hands.
"Kat..." I tried. How could she even think that? It had been the best experience of my life, and I was sure it was the same for her.
She turned her reddened, tear stained face to me. "It should never have happened, John. You're my sister's husband."
"I love you, Kat. Tell me you regret that," I said. "That what we did wasn't-"
"It doesn't matter, John!" she insisted. "It was wrong!"
Wrong? My entire marriage was wrong. That's the thing that should have never happened. Even at the best of times with Jenny, it had never been like this.
"Tell me you don't love me," I demanded. Couldn't she see how wonderful this was? It was because we loved each other the way we did that made it so amazing. I understood that now.
"Alright." She raised her chin stubbornly. "If that's what you need to hear, I don't love you. I hate you."
"You were never a good liar, Kat," I said, flatly. I knew it wasn't the truth, but the words still felt like a knife.
She shook her head. "How we feel doesn't matter, John. This is the end of it. It shouldn't have happened."
Regret? What that all she was feeling now? I sighed, looking down at my hands. If only things had been different.
"If I could just go back all those years ago..."
"But we can't." She was crying again. "We've got to move forward and we've got to put this behind us."
Put it behind us. Never speak of it or repeat it. How was that even going to be possible? I wanted to argue, and I would just as soon as I could organize my thoughts.
She couldn't really mean it, could she?
"If you truly love me, you'll let me go," she whispered.
Let her go? Did she feel trapped and like she wouldn't have a choice if I didn't agree?
I searched her face as she stared back at me, pleading. I knew that she understood I'd never force her to do anything, but she was worried that she wouldn't be strong enough to resist if I tried to persuade her. If I fought her on this and won, she'd regret it, like she did now. Only it would be worse every single time. Eventually she'd hate herself and me for it.
I knew I could never do that to her.
"Alright," I said quietly. The word burned on the way out.
Seeming both relieved and wounded, she buried her face in her hands again, crying.
Watching her, I despised myself. As always, Kat was going to blame herself the most, and I knew that she would never forgive herself for this.




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