Dreams, Friends, and a life. I have it all! I don't want
it to go away but now it's drifting slowly. I'm in the hospital
with my legs crossed and my hands against my ears. My mother put
her hand around my shoulder but I quickly slapped it away. "Dear
she looks a mess!" My mother shouted to my dad. "Don't worry
she'll get help soon," my father said while reading over the
papers. I looked around and it seemed like everyone was watching
me. I felt scared and dizzy. I saw a hand right in my face and I
screamed, "Stop! Get away, please make it go!" My mother held me
tight and said, "Honey there is nothing there! Calm down, I'm
right here." I cried and hugged my mom.
The nurse came out and said, "We're ready to see your daughter." My
mom lead me to the room and sat me on the bed. "So what is the
problem?" The nurse asked. My father looked at me and said, "My
daughter is special. She has been screaming at nights and she
doesn't eat or talk very much anymore! I just want to know what's
wrong!" The nurse seemed confused and said, "Um maybe she needs to
see a psychiatrist not a doctor." My mother shouted, "No! She isn't
crazy. Something is wrong with her and I want to know!" The nurse
sighed and said, "Um alright since it's dealing with something
crazy it might have a connection to her brain. Let's go get a CT
Scan done!" My mother nodded and thanked the nurse.
I walked into the room and my mother helped me lay down. It looked
dark in there and I said, "No! I can't go in there! Mom don't let
them get me!" I shouted. My mother kissed my forehead and she said,
"I'm going to get you help alright? Please just do this." I closed
my eyes and the machine started to move. The doctor looked at my
brain scans. Finally, it was over and I ran off of that bed. My
mother came and hugged me. We walked back to my room and the nurse
said, "Well I guess crazy isn't the word for her but she is
My mother and father gasped and looked at me. "What is that?" I
asked. The nurse read her papers and said, "Well it's when you have
hallucinations and lack or communication. Also, you lose interest
in daily stuff." I felt like some crazy person.
My mother started to tear up and asked, "Is there a cure?" The
nurse sighed and said, "Unfortunately no there is no cure but
there are ways to make her life happier. She can see counselors
and I can prescribe her to the right medications." My mother
nodded and thanked her again. After, we got everything and
started to drive home. "How the hell did she get this? I don't
have it and neither does anyone in my family!" My father shouted.
My mother focused on driving and
said, "Me neither maybe it started with her, which is
unfortunate." I looked out the window and a girl with long hair
in her face came out of nowhere and appeared on the window. I
screamed and shouted, "No stop it! Get away from me!" I opened
the door and rolled out.
The car pulled
over and hit into a tree. My mom got out and helped my father out
who got injured. She called an ambulance and they came
immediately since we weren't that far from the hospital. My mom
held me and said, "It's not your fault I know what you're going
through." The doctor came out and said, "Surgery was successful
his head and brain are fine, we will keep him overnight just to
see what happens, you can go see him now." My mother helped me up
and we went into the room. "Hey baby are you alright?" He smiled
and said, "Emily I love you alright? It's not your fault!" I
nodded and sat. "I'm taking her home and hopefully it's a safe
drive so I'll see you in the morning, alright?" My mother asked.
He nodded and waved goodbye to us.
Mother started to drive home again and we got there safe this time
thank goodness. She helped me out the car and we went inside. "Here
I made you macaroni. You have to eat something." I looked at the
food and saw snakes. I wiped my tears and ran up to my room. My
mother sighed and followed me. "Tomorrow I'm going to sign you up
to see a counselor alright?" She asked. I didn't respond and I kept
staring at the wall which seemed like it was moving. She rolled her
eyes and went back downstairs. I laid down and covered up with the
covers. I looked over and saw a dark presence coming from under my
covers. I threw it off and fell off the bed.
I got back up and started to breath heavily. I looked around and
people were crowding around me. I covered my ears and got down and
said, "Go away, go away, go away!" My mother ran upstairs and
helped me up. "Sweetie what happened?" I started to cry and said,
"I want it to stop!" My mother cried and said, "I'm so sorry!" She
wiped my tears away and said, "Come downstairs with me."
We went downstairs and she said, "There sit on the couch and wait
until I finish down here." I nodded and sat down. I heard something
but didn't know what it was. Finally, I heard it clearly and it
said, "Kill her!" I gasped and it said, "Kill her now!" I teared up
and got up. I walked over into the kitchen and picked up a knife.
"Stab her!" The voices said. I walked over to her and lift my
hands. I was about to stab her but she looked back and grabbed my
hand. "Stop it! What are you doing!?" She asked in fear. I dropped
the knife and she said, "No I can't wait until morning. Let's go
now!" She helped me into the car and drove to this office place.
She got me out of the car and walked me in. "Um excuse me I need a
counselor for my daughter," My mother said. "Sorry it's six and
we're closing." My mother got mad and said, "I stood there cooking
and to look back at my daughter about to kill me! Do you think I
want that? She needs help she is schizophrenic." The lady thought
and nodded. She signed my name and called for a counselor.
"Alright take her in that room." My mom nodded and held my hands.
She led me into the room and sat me down.
"Alright what is the problem here?" The counselor asked.
"My daughter is schizophrenic and she see's unusual things and she
tried to kill me twenty minutes ago!" My mother shouted.
"Alright well I'll have to ask you to leave the room alright?"
"Uh alright fine!" My mom said while walking out.
"Listen dear what is your name?"
"Name?" I asked.
"Yes your name!"
I didn't respond and I kept twirling my hair. The counselor said,
"My name is Tina and I'm here to help!" I looked at her and crossed
my hands in fear. She took out a paper and pen. "Alright so tell me
what do you see?" Tina asked. I looked around and the walls were
closing in. I got up and said, "No I'm going to die!" I picked up
the pen and before I stabbed myself Tina got up and slapped it out
of my hand. She held me and said, "Please calm down your okay." I
caught my breath and sat down. "So can we start with your name?" I
nodded and said, "My name is Emily." Tina nodded and wrote on her
paper. "So I want you to overcome your fears. Come back to reality!
You need to know the stuff you see isn't there. Ignore them! They
will not hurt you because they aren't real. The voice are just an
illusion, learn to be the boss of them!" I thought and nodded.
"Well I'll stop by your home tomorrow after school, sounds good?" I
nodded and she walked me out.
"So what happened?" My mother asked. "Um she will try a method
today. It's best to get rid of her hallucinations first." My mother
nodded and drove me home. "Are you alright sleeping in here alone?"
My mom asked. I nodded. I closed my eyes and felt something on my
leg. I opened my eyes and it was a scary looking creature. I
remembered what the girl said and I tried to make it go away. It
came closer and scratched my face. I screamed and slapped it but if
kept scratching me and my face started to bleed. "Stop it!" My mom
came to me and said, "Sh hush I'm here. You're not bleeding
alright? Here I'll sleep with you."
The next morning I woke up and my mom was still asleep. I finally
got a little rest. I got up and awoken my mom. "Huh oh it's
morning. I'll make you breakfast, go get ready for school alright?"
I nodded and went to get my clothes. I got them and I went to take
a shower. After, I went to the door and said, "Mom I'm leaving!" My
mother ran to me and said, "No, I'll drive you to school!" I nodded
and got in the car. We got there and she kissed my forehead. "Be
safe alright?" I nodded and got out the car. I looked around and I
felt someone touch my shoulder. I screamed and looked back. It was
Susie. "Sorry did I scare you?" I caught my breath. Susie giggled
and said, "Hey how come you didn't come to school for two months?"
I sighed and said, "I have something, I am schizophrenic." Susie
felt bad for me and said, "Oh my gosh. Don't worry I'll be with you
until your helped!" I smiled and walked with her.
We entered and everyone looked at me. They started to talk and it
got louder. I covered my ears and Susie said, "What's wrong?" I
ignored her and kept walking. Diamond came in front of me and said,
"Oh look ugly is back!" Everyone started to laugh. "Stop Diamond
she has a serious problem!" Diamond rolled her eyes and said, "Yeah
an ugly one!" Diamond shoved me and I got angry. I screamed in her
face and pushed her into a locker. I lift my hand and was about to
punch her. Drake grabbed my hand and said, "Stop!" I gasped and he
said, "Susie I got it." Diamond was officially scared of me. Drake
brought me to a room and said, "I thought you said you were better
than that! Why did you shove her?" Drake asked. "She pushed me
first and you don't know!" Drake sighed and said, "Don't sink to
her low!" I got angry and saw someone behind Drake. I gasped and
pushed Drake. I ran back and said, "Go away! Stop following med
dammit!" Drake looked back and saw nothing.
Susie ran in the room and hugged me. "Drake enough! She isn't the
same. She was diagnosed with schizophrenia." Drake gasped and
walked over to me. "I'm not crazy, I'm not crazy, I'm not crazy!"
Susie hugged me tighter and said, "I know you aren't alright? Don't
worry you'll get better, it's only the beginning." The bell rang
and we went to class. "Um Emily sit next to Susie alright?" I
nodded and moved next to her. "Not fair! We have assigned seats."
The teacher rolled her eyes and said, "Diamond it's personal so
shut up!" Diamond stayed quite and did her work. "If you need
anything tell me alright Emily?" I nodded and Susie helped me with
After, school finished and Susie said, "Um come stay over my house
until your mom gets off of work alright?" I got my book and said,
"Sure." We started to walk to her house and we arrived. "Mom Emily
is here!" Susie's mom Dion came down and said, "Oh hi sweetie, I'm
going out for a run so have anything in the fridge." I nodded and
she left. "So um what do you want to do?" Susie asked. I really
didn't know. I just wanted to sleep forever. Everyday is a
challenge for me and I hate it! Susie's phone started to ring and
she said, "Um wait there I'll be right back!" She went upstairs to
get her phone. I looked around and went to the upstairs bathroom.
I opened the cabinet and saw pills. I took it out and opened it.
All I heard was a voice that said, "Good, eat it!" I poured out the
whole bottle in my hand. I opened my mouth and ate it. I laid on
the floor and I felt dizzy. Soon I closed my eyes and I blacked
out. Susie started looking for me and she found me on the floor
then she saw the pills by me. "Oh no! Emily wake up!" She dialed
quickly and called the ambulance. Soon they came and I rushed to