(Written on January 12, 2011)
Its all a lie, its never real, and i've always spent it alone,
In my own world, deep thinking, and concentration,
Throughout my life, Presure is all around me..
Even though i cant do anything , it doesnt help,
I've tried to find who and what i am, but the start of it comes back,
I never want to see anyone hurt, or broken, because
They're pain hurts me too, its all unknown.
Death has always watched me,
In my dreams, my life events, everytime.
He makes everything feel like hell,
I'm his favorite play toy, no wonder i am hurt.
I just wish i could find someone to help me!
I can deal with this alone, Pain and suffering! It doesnt mix...
He onces told me," There is another,
she is also under my spell of torture, you two are cursed with fear
and endless suffering of pain and darkness." July 15 2010
Sence then... my life changed. There was another
that has the same feeling, but now i know why i feel this way
Death's games are never done, its endless like he said.
But i begin to wonder if this girl he was talking about,
Is the one that will make my life worth living,
I will never know by then time is right,
Until that happens i live in my own little world,
Everywhere, Anytime, Unknown Death controls me.