Tears of Grief in sleepless nights,
Tucked away are darker frights.
When I first saw their evil face,
Paralyzed i lay in place.
As I bled from face and eyes,
knowing no one heard my cries.
Facing them with fear and ire,
Fighting off their icy desire.
With all my strength in my weakened state,
I struggled to regain my faith.
I stood for a moment to dress myself,
Only to fall against the shelf .
Blackness was all that i could see
Knowing they were on top of me .
I could not scream I only wheezed,
Smelling their sweat when i could breathe.
I heard their laughter and awful grunts,
but all i felt were their painful thrusts.
Deeper than i ever knew
I felt the pain of something new.
It was sharp and hard as steel
I could not believe that this was real.
When next i woke in unbearable pain,
Sick with seeing my own bloodstain.
My body maimed and sick with grief,
I came into a new belief.
Hide this from your family
Or they may breach this boundary
This new high wall that you have built
Around your heart filled up with guilt.
For the last of these long sacred years
have been full of mistakes and tears.
And with tears of grief and sleepless nights.
Still tucked away are darker frights.