Chapter 1: How does a
crush start? Is it the way the person smells, how they make you
feel? Are they attractive, funny, or even nice. What draws you in
to someone to have such an impact on your life to give you
butterflies in your stomach when you think of seeing them again?
What makes you blush when your friends talk of you and him? Why
does it matter if it just makes you happy?
These questions came to me when I fell head over heels in
love with my best friend. My best friend!!! I was not suppose to
be attracted to them, I was suppose to confide in them about the
person I liked. That's a little hard to do when they are that
person. Maybe it was my fault for having my best friend be a boy,
or maybe it was their's since they were so attractive. It didn't
matter the crush came and I didn't know what to do with it. At
first I thought it was just feelings;they would go away right?
Wrong!! Those feeling grew into the biggest crush I had had in
years. I don't know why they got so out of hand, they just did.
His name was Harrison Stelt. Harrison was a tall, dark curly
haired womanizer, he was only a sophomore when he had dated half
the freshman class, and a fourth of the seniors. There was no
doubt he couldn't get a date. His parents; Cindy Stelt and Robert
Stelt lived a wonderful life. They were millionaires since they
were 20, his mom was a famous singer at one time, and his father
was a successful entrepreneur. Their house was the biggest in the
neighborhood, which means it is pretty big when you live in
I have never scene the entirety of the house just his room, the
living room, and the backyard. They never let guests see the rest
of the house. No one knows not even Harrison knows why they won't
let guests visit the other rooms. He says that they look like any
normal dining room,kitchen, den would look.
Harrison and I have known each other since kinder garden, we
were each only other's friends. I was fat and ugly, my brown wavy
hair was so thin you could see straight through it. He wasn't
ugly it was just the way Harrison acted; he was very into
reptiles and would always pick up lizards from the school
playground and chase girls around. He tried scaring me once
before we knew each other but when he ran up to me with the
lizard in hand I just sat there with a blank expression on my
face. He thought I was the bravest girl ever and decided he liked
me but what he didn't know was that I had eaten a rotten apple
and my stomach was twisting and twirling.
That day of kindergarten was the best day I could ask for,
we never stopped talking. He needed me just like I needed him.
All throughout elementary school we took by each other's sides
and talked about random things like what happens when we die,
favorite colors, Santa.
By middle school my hair was thickening out and I was developing
like any normal girl would. But, Harrison hit puberty hard, by
the end of TH grade he was 5'9". Which was very tall for a 11
year old. He became very popular,but he never left me. Even when
he had a girlfriend he would always sit with me at lunch. She
would eventually get mad at him and claim that he was cheating on
her with me. He would always deny, because nothing was going on
with him and me. We were just really good friends.
In 8th grade Harrison always had a girlfriend, when he
dumped one he immediately got another. I think he may have had a
problem. He wasn't much on long term relationships. When he got
tired of one he took after another. Once he came over to my house
and invited one of his girlfriends over. I was furious, but I
didn't say anything because I just wanted company.
Harrison lost his virginity the summer before TH grade, he
hosted a party for the begriming of high school and invited
everyone he knew. I showed up halfway through the party, I wanted
to be fashionably late, but no one cared to notice. I tried to
find him throughout all of the party goers.
When I finally gave up I went to his room, I would just wait
there until the party was over to see him and tell him I came.
When I opened the door he was on the bed with some girl,
probably just a random chick he met at the party, his tounge was
down her throat and they were naked. I just stood there shocked
and embarrased. They must not have heard me come in because they
kept going and I just stared. I couldn't help it, I have hormones
I am a teenager, its only natural right.
I did leave before they noticed me, and I was forever
changed, because after that I became reckless with my own sexual
behavoirs. I lost my virginity later on that year and dated the
quarter back of the football team. Harrison and I never looked at
each other in a romantic way. But that view changed one day in
me, it was so random; I just became jealous when he got a new
girlfriend and I got upset when he said I was the best FRIEND he
has ever had. Why did it change I don't know, but what I do know
is I am going to find out, and possibly get a boyfriend in the