Samantha's mind : (fades into a girl with long brown hair, with her head leaning on the train's window standing)
What happend to what I said? I told him I loved him, than I go and do this...
I mean I told him I loved him, in the exact words "I love you".
I mean really who am I? Why would..... it's not my fault but still. I guess it is but at the same time it isn't.
I never ..... I don't know what to do. I think I don't know anymore.... I'm I just saying words , in which I don't undersatand? In what words am I so to speak truly? That will honestly make sense....
-But not sense
is sense
which makes the world truly happy?
Without the convinces we have now.... would people.....how could they do such a thing.... commiting this suicide... it's stupid..... but I should stop asking myself why if I already know the answer.....and yet I still do it.....why? What words which to say in meanings of peace? Am I so calm I can't settle my mind at pace? Or is it these thought in which they make me calm? That which makes no sense.... All heart is fore longing a compaion even though I love 'em... I don't know what to do.... It's so confusing or am I just confusing myself? They said the same thing to me.... but these contracts bind me to free...... why do I do such things....
Loving someone is meaning you'd do anything for them including sacrificing yourself.....so ......I may need to stop acting like this.... but I don't want to, it's fun in my opion but it would drive others insane.... sometimes it does the same to me.
Loving something so dear to you than having to lose it......
Narrator: She contines talking about things like this her whole train ride to school. She has continuer conflict which may cause companionship with herself but is that such a good thing? She's her friend but as well as her enemy. Her worst and her best. The confused school maiden still goes to school and has friends is crushed on by boys but she doesn't care because she lives to herself for some reason unkown. She continues to live with her life even though she loves it, as well as hates it, but convinces herself so much. For what will she do next? In this world of hers, thts not really hers, but the world's itself it belongs to noone but it self.
(The train comes to a stop with passengers going on and off.)
Samantha's friend : SAMMIE!!!! (running towards her)
Samantha : Oh hey, Alphfer, how are you? (mind still a little dazed)
Alpher : I'm well, how are you, are you feeling well, you don't look well?
Samantha : (taken off guard a little) Oh I'm fine, I'm just a little bit tired, I guess....(puases) I'm sorry did I worry you?
Samantha's mind : No I'm not fine, but It's okay. Even though I do know what I am saying and their meanings .....
Alphfer : Well that's good, I was afraid something was wrong with you.
Samantha's mind : Are you really that blind? Or am I just endangering myself?
Back to, Alphfer : Well it's not everyday we have a transfer student from America. Especially one who speaks Latin.
Samantha : True. Very true.
Alphfer : So what would you like to do?
Samantha : Go to school.
Alphfer : No I mean before than.
Samantha : School starts in less than 10 minutes and we still have to get there.
Alphfer : Hmmm.. okay let's go!
Narrator :They walked to school, with a settle quietness between them. Samantha's eyes wandered around the nature among them, it was so pretty to her, for her eyes have not gazed upon this beauty for ages.Finaly they have arrived at school, not a minute too soon. Now their adventure had begun once she was born, now she would remember.
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