I need to tell you the truth, right from the beginning to have any kind of a shot at this so here goes nothing... The reason for this story is,�I suppose, the same reason as many�many other stories.�The reason for this, for all of this, is a girl. The girl who saved my life.
It has been said that, "In the story of your life�you can not tear out a single page, but you can throw the whole book in the fire.". For most, this may be true, but who's to say you can't white out a few of the details you are unhappy with and re-write a page or two? Let me explain. I, Johnathan Tully, am a liar. If I don't like the way something happens in my life, I just re-tell it a different way. It's easier than you think. All you have to do is lose yourself in the story so much that you cant remember which version is the correct version, then choose which one suits you and you're all set. You can do or be anything you want... Sounds great, I know, but there is just one small catch... If you believe your own lies for too long you start to forget which version of yourself is the real one. And that, as I have found can present serious and immediate problems. That is where I am right now. I have all but completely lost myself. I guess one could say now that the saying is enen more true than before. Maybe by figuring out a way to, in a sense, "tear out" a few pages of my life, I have inadvertantly "thrown the book in the fire.". I guess more like carelessly, accidentally dropped it in but who's keeping track. So here, for the first time, is the truth... I truthfully can not, for the life of me, remember much of the truth. I need to retrace my steps, right from the beginning, and meticulously go over the last 23 years. I see the everest before me and I know that failure is not an option. She deserves to know the truth, hell, I deserve to know the truth. Because if I can only remember the things that never actually existed, do I actually exist? Did I ever exist? So now I get to try to be the hero against the worst evil opponent of all, me. I need to try, for her, to save my own life... If I don't, I'll kill me.