It has to be memories right? It's been six years since it the crush was relevant so it has to be memories. Perhaps the time and place is what is causing all this. You see these memories have been going for seven years. At first they were adventures and hopeful. Now it's just bleak thoughts and understanding the truth. It was never real girls for me, real girls in a sense that I could actually see them. No, it has always been celebrities. Mostly stemming from the fact that I go to online school and don't interact with anyone one. Most of the people I talk to are online, and if they're not they old men that my dad knows and therefore I know when I go places with my father. Even at times I'm attempted something with online girls. One of my best friends who happens to be much older than me, I attempted to date her. It wasn't a real thought provoking thing. I met her through an online game ( I know real original). That idea was shot down as soon as it started. Hell I've even attempted to go after girls that are local to my best friend online (a bit crazy now ya think?) Since 2006 I've have at least one major celebrity crush. They've ranged from singers, actresses, even athletes. This year however has been different. You see at different times of the year I've thought of an old crushed, going along with the certain season the season that I originally had the crush on them. This one is a bit different I think. This one started in 2007 and has spawned at different times. Once again in 2008 and again in 2009, after 2009 I put JoAnna (JoAnna Garcia) behind me and thought I would just let it go. Interesting enough Jo Anna Garcia is married now and haw a baby. She's married to Nick Swisher, who plays for my favorite baseball team. Cool huh? It actually is cool. I remember saying once in 2007 that I hoped and prayed JoAnna would marry an Ohio kid. Well, she did, it just wasn't me. It's also cool because he's on my favorite team. Although it is also a bit awkward, I mean generally in the case of a man stealing your girl (well kind of) you'd be angry at the dude. I can't however because I end up cheering for him when my team is playing. He's a cool do as well, in fact probably the perfect person for her (excluding me). Oh well, that's all for now.