"So it's like that huh?" Lita asked when they were back
downstairs. Lourdes' phone vibrated. She had a new message. "Like
what?" Lourdes asked.
"You two are totally twisted together!"
you talking about?" Lourdes read her text. She inhaled
forget about tonight! I have your check, 9pm
"What was that back there!?" Lita asked.
"We, walked in on Albear, how was I supposed to
know what he was
"Well you didn't seem surprised!"
Lourdes reread her text. "Shit." She muttered to herself.
Emma was holding her paycheck hostage, until she came to opening
night at Stacy's, the bartenders, bar. Some live music band that
Lourdes had no interest in. They were more Ed Stanley mosh pit.
Lourdes was more Ludacris and Rick Ross. She was hoping to escape
the whole experience, but it was beginning to look
"Will you focus on the here and now!" Lita said putting her
hand over the cell phone.
Lourdes looked up. "No, I wasn't surprised to see Albear
going at it with some guy. Why should I be? He's gay by the way,
if you hadn't notice."
"I fucking noticed! Believe me." Lita
smiled, she thought Lita was over-reacting,
given her occupation. "Albear is a force of nature
and what he does in his personal life has nothing to do with me.
Here lets move out of the way." Lourdes pulled Lita to the side
as Alby's trick exited the building fully
They went back in the building. "It could have been anybody."
Lourdes continued pushing the elevator button. "Me, Corey, Tyler,
Lamont ." They stepped inside. "Hell, even Lisa or
"Who's Lisa and Melody?"
is, nobodies a stranger to Albear's bare ass." Lourdes went back
to responding to Emma's message. See u
"We saw a lot more than his bare ass." Lita said as they
stepped off the elevator. Albear's door was still
"Yeah, well, that too." Lourdes said as they walked
"Where'd you go?" Albear asked from the kitchen while making
a smoothie. He had managed to put on some jeans and a tank
"We thought we'd give you two a minute." Lourdes said tossing
her vintage purse on the counter. "Albear, you remember
Lita smiled and waved slowly.
"Hey." Alby said rubbing his stubble.
"Nice fuck pad." Lita said looking
"Yeah it does the trick."
"Oh that's cute," Lita said, "I see he's
"Have a seat." Albear said smiling, and nodding towards to
"No thanks, I'm good." Lita said.
Lourdes shook her head laughing. "Feel free to sit anywhere
that's not contaminated." She pointed to one of the stools at the
Albear came from around the counter and put his arm around
Lourdes. "Where the fuck you been?"
Lourdes shrugged his arm off her shoulder. "Nowhere. Just
"Bullshit." He said. "How are you?"
Lita watched the two of them silently.
"I'm good. I'm fine. How are you?"
Albear studied her for a moment. "Well you look
"Thank you." She said beaming. "I just had a facial. And, in
fact, I was hoping you might want to be my date for the
"Not a chance." Albear said walking away from
"I haven't even told you what it is." Lourdes
"Oh I can guess," he said, "just by your tone of voice, I see
many boring straight people in my future."
"He has something against straight people?" Lita
"He's a hetero-phobe." Lourdes turned and smiled at her. Lita
black eyebrows, raised in shock.
"It's true, he is." Lourdes said.
Lita looked at Albear as he lit up a cigarette. "It's true, I
am." He said.
Lita laughed. "Unbelievable."
"Besides," Albear went on, "why would I spend my Saturday
night doing you a favor when I could be out
"Because you love me, and you've missed me, and you want to
"You are right about all those things," he said smiling, "but
your needs still don't come above mines."
Lourdes poked out her lip.
"Sorry." He said, not falling for her sad
"Yeah, I bet you are." Lourdes muttered.
"So?" Albear asked. "How's Gabriel?"
That was enough to piss her off. Lourdes picked up her purse.
"Come on Lita." She said.
"Where the fuck are you going? I thought we were having
breakfast!" Albear said.
"Maybe you can catch up with your trick!" Lourdes said. "He
looks like he was still hungry."
"That was totally, fucking uncalled for!" Alby yelled after
them as Lourdes closed the door.
"Lourdes over here!"
"Fuck." Lourdes mumbled to herself, smiling and waving at
Emma. A crowd full of people and she was still noticed right
away. Not one chance to get a drink before being spotted. And
there was Stacy, right next to Emma and Thomas. Fabulous. Lourdes
could tell it was going to be one of those nights. She walked as
slow as she possibly could towards them.
"Hey Lourdes, buy you a drink?"
Lourdes turned quickly. "Corey!"
"Hey!" He said, giving her a kiss. His perfectly gelled,
black hair smelled like peaches. Lourdes hugged him
"Whoa!" Corey said, chipmunk cheeks turning rosy. "Nice to
see you too."
"I'm sorry!" Lourdes said letting him go and stepping back.
"I don't know what got in to me it's just...it's really good to
"Ha!" Corey said slapping the side of her
"What are you doing here?" Lourdes asked
"Talked to Albear earlier."
"He mentioned something about being a prick, and how you
"So we thought we'd drop by and say hi and have a drink."
Lamont came walking up with Tyler and handed them all Lourdes'
favorite, French Martini's. "Hey sweetie." He said kissing her on
the cheek and giving her a squeeze.
"Did I mention how much I love you guys!" Lourdes beamed.
"Hey Ty." She said giving him a quick kiss.
"Well we love you too." Tyler said nodding his head
seriously. "You're our favorite fag hag." He raised his glass up
in the air.
"Tied with Lisa and Melody, that is." Lamont
"And Christina." Corey added.
Lourdes smiled, she clinked glasses with them. "I should
probably go over and say hi to my other friends." She pointed
across the room. They were still standing there waving her
"Okay, but be quick." Lamont said. "We can't stay
Lourdes turned and looked at them.
"Bubble Boys night at Sin
and Corey said in unison, tilting their heads
Lourdes laughed. "Right, how could I forget." She turned to
walk away. "Be right back."
"There's some pretty hot guys here tonight." Stacy said while
they were all in the bathroom mirror, taking a girls
"You can say that again." Emma said handing Lourdes her tube
"Emma Marie Brown." Lourdes said refreshing her lips. "Now
what would Thomas say?"
Emma laughed, shaking her shoulders. "There is nothing wrong
"Or flirting." Stacy added, fluffing up her mousy brown hair
to add more bounce.
"You must be surrounded by eye candy all the time." Lourdes
said to Stacy in the mirror. "With the bartending and all." She
handed Emma back the lipstick.
"Not as much as you would think." Stacy said, smiling at her
in the mirror.
"So where's Gabe?" Emma asked.
"Working." Lourdes and Stacy both said at the same
Emma paused and looked at the both of them. She laughed
"Or so I heard." Stacy said.
Lourdes continued to stare at Stacy in the mirror as her
phone started ringing. "Oh that's my cell." She said throwing one
more glare her way, then picking it up as it vibrated on the
"Oh, I should take this." Lourdes said, grabbing her purse
and motioning to them that she would just be outside the bathroom
door. "Well if it isn't the biggest prick in the world." She said
answering the phone. There was a crowd of people in the hallway
outside the bathrooms. Lourdes tried to make her way to the
corner so she could talk.
"I do have the biggest prick in the world," Albear said, "I
guess good news travels fast."
"You're not even funny." Lourdes said finding a safe spot
against the wall to lean against.
Emma and Stacy came out the bathroom. They waved at her and
pointed to the bar. "We'll see you over there!" Emma said over
the crowd of people.
Lourdes gave her a thumb's up and waved them
"I was good enough to pass on the bar's address to the boys."
"Yeah nice save. Okay, I guess you're useful for some
"So I hear I'm not missing a damn thing." Alby said. "Cut the
boys loose so they can go and have some real
"The boys can leave whenever they want." Lourdes said. "I'm
not their keeper."
People were starting to clear out from the hallway, the music
"Oh excuse me." Lourdes said getting twirled around as people
rushed to the tiny stage. She pressed herself up against the
wall, staying still until it was safe to move
"What's that noise?"
"The musics starting, I should probably
"Call me later."
"I will!" Lourdes hung up the phone as the last person
cleared the hallway. She looked up to see Alexsander standing
there in a black, Dolce & Gabana skinny suit. He was leaning
against the opposite wall. She immediately got butterflies in her
This wasn't real. It couldn't be. She was seeing things. What
the hell was she going to do now? It was one thing to block his
emails or erase his messages, but what the fuck was she going to
do with him standing right in front of her? Why was he here? Was
he in town this morning when he called her? Did he know the whole
time that she would be here? And damn he looked good..."What are
you doing here?" Lourdes asked in shock. "I thought you were down
south on a movie."
"We're in post production." He said looking her up and down,
already undressing her with his eyes. "Not much work left to be
Lourdes was suddenly glad that she wore her sexy black dress
that hugged her curves in all the right places. And to just
think, she almost wore her ratty vintage jeans and t-shirt. Even
though it was over between them, she still wanted to look
Alex took a step towards her. "I was thinking, if you wanted
to talk, maybe we could leave here, no one would
Lourdes looked around and then she looked back at him.
"Wouldn't that be lovely to think so." She said
He took another step closer. Lourdes shook her head for him
not to. He stopped advancing and stood in
"I guess it's over now." He said. "There's no getting
She stared at him.
"Are you happy?" He asked her.
She let out a nervous laugh. "You can't asked me that."
Lourdes said shaking her head. "It's not
"You know," he said, "I'm not the sort of person, who falls,
in and quickly out of...."
Lourdes sucked in her breath. Oh he was good. She wondered if
he rehearsed this with his acting coach before
"What I mean is," he said, trying again, "you had my
affections, right from the start."
"Apparently it wasn't for you to give. Someone else owns the
rights to them."
"It's completely and totally over with Celia." He said matter
of factly. "I promise, you'll never hear her name again.
"Alex you didn't do that because of me right?" Lourdes asked.
"Please tell me you did this for yourself?"
"Of course I did it for me." He said.
Lourdes breathed a sigh of relief.
"But I also did it to show you how serious I
"I don't know how to respond to that, given the fact that you
and I aren't..." She stopped herself. "What about everything
else?" Lourdes asked.
"One step at a time." He said. "I know I should have ended
things with Celia sooner, but I was never so sure until I met
She wasn't ready to hear this. "Gabriel said that you two
were headed on your way to marriage. You don't just throw
something that important away."
"Gabriel doesn't know what the fuck he's talking about." Alex
said agitated. "We were never headed down that
"From your perspective or hers?"
"Lourdes, we were never even close." His blue eyes were wide
"I don't know." She said shaking her head. "I just don't
"I do." He said. "I'm not playing games, this doesn't have to
"Maybe you're right." Lourdes said. "But all I ever learned,
is how to shoot at somebody who outdrew me."
He nodded his head. "Not to be cocky-"
"Then don't be." She smirked at him.
"But I take great comfort in the fact that you rather get out
of this relationship before you get hurt."
"And why is that?"
"Because if I can hurt you, then that means I matter to
"No, that wasn't cocky at all." Lourdes said
"I never meant to cause problems." He said
"Alex, just stop-"
"I never wanted to cause you any pain." He took a step
"Alex don't." She said, standing up straight, ready to flee.
But there was no more distance between them. He was blocking her
Alexsander put his right hand on her hip and the left on her
shoulder and leaned in close. He smelled like Platinum One
"Alex I have to go." Lourdes whispered. "We're not good for
"I never wanted it to be like this." He said so close to her
lips, that they were practically touching.
"Alex." She whispered again, pushing against his chest.
"You're killing me."
"Why can't we still be friends?" He asked closing his eyes.
His hand was squeezing her shoulder so hard.
"We're past this." She said. "It was just a phase. We were
just a phase. You were just a phase."
Alex was stunned for a moment, but to Lourdes' surprise, he
smiled. "I don't think so," he said, "I'm a little bit more than
"Alex-" Lourdes started, letting out a nervous
"What?" He asked still smiling. "Sexy, those are your friends
talking through you."
"It's not-" She protested weakly.
"Yes it is." He smiled at her. "But you can tell them, when I
want something, I don't retract."
"Stop." Lourdes laughed.
"Come on, don't mess about," he said, "I'm young, hot, and
strong, doesn't every girl want that?"
"Oh yeah, I'm sure that'll win my friends over." Lourdes said
again with sarcasm.
"I think it will." He said smartly, still up in her in her
face. "But just to seal the deal, I'm sure you told them-" He
whispered in her ear.
"Don't-" Lourdes said, heart beating
"Come home with me." He begged.
"No." She smiled.
"Then run away with me for a couple of
"You really don't understand the concept of no do you?" She
said still smiling.
Alex spoke in her ear. Lourdes' eyes widened. She was always
shocked at how he could go from zero to vulgar in a matter of
seconds. He continued talking dirty. "Stop!" Lourdes said looking
Alex pulled back. "Oh there it is, how I missed that laugh."
He said smiling.
Lourdes tried to regain her composure. She was forgetting
"Let's try again." He said. "You and me. We can do it
different this time."
"I miss you." He said. "I miss you constantly, all the time,
everyday and it's driving me mad."
"And the award goes to..." Lourdes
"I miss everything about you..." He continued, not letting
her deflect his words with a joke.
Lourdes said nothing this time, she continued to listen,
looking in his eyes.
"Come here." He said so he could whisper in her ear. "I even
miss how you use to make me beg for it, each time until you gave
Ahh, she was starting to tingle. Lourdes wanted to be
serious, but she laughed. "Yeah, but afterwords, you'd say the
same thing, every single time."
He smiled. "Your the fuckin best."
"There he goes." She sang looking
"The fuckin best." He said again. "The best I ever
"I'm sure." Lourdes muttered.
"This is why we work." He said becoming serious again.
"Because you love to be around me and because you have no idea
how much I think you're worth. Anything you want, you don't even
have to ask twice-"
"Alex it's not about that." Lourdes shook her
"I know," he said, "But we have so much fun together. And I
always felt like you were so accustomed to the fast
"Your so cool and you never pay attention to the rumors or
what others assume..."
"I don't know about that." She smiled sheepishly. "I might be
a little guilty when it comes to that."
"I don't care." He said. "I feel like when I'm with you,
"What about everybody else?" Lourdes whispered, silently
referring to Gabriel.
"I don't care about them either." He said
"And I want you," he said cutting her off, he grabbed her and
pulled her close to him again, "I want you, I want you....like
never before." Lourdes said nothing. There were those butterflies
again. "Why can't we still be lovers?" He asked, his lips
slightly grazing hers. Lourdes sucked in her breath, she had made
it this far, it was no time to turn back. She let his lips touch
hers for a moment longer, then she pulled back, trying to come to
her senses. "You know why." She whispered.
"Are you sure?" He asked, moving his right hand along her
shoulder and grabbing the side of her neck. He was pressing his
body up against hers. Lourdes fluttered her eyes. She couldn't
breathe. Oh god, he was so hard. "Yes." She
He lifted his head off of hers, pulling her close by the back
of the neck, and he whispered in her ear. "It's such a shame our
friendship had to end." Lourdes gasp as he kissed her ear and bit
down softly with his teeth. Alex took a step back. He smiled at
her. Lourdes couldn't move. Her heart was beating out of her
chest and her knees were weak.
He turned and walked away.
When Lourdes returned to the bar, most people were
surrounding the stage, watching the show. But the boys were at
the front, grabbing their jackets, ready to
"Taking off?" She asked them as she walked
"Yeah, sorry honey." Lamont said looking around, not
impressed. "This place is interesting and all
"But Bubble Boys awaits!" Lourdes
"That's right!" Lamont sang.
Corey grabbed Lourdes' hand. "Hey why don't you come with
"I don't know." Lourdes paused.
"Why not?" Tyler asked grabbing her jacket from the coat
check room. "You put in your time here."
Lourdes looked around the room. She saw Alexsander drinking a
beer with Stacy, Emma and Thomas. The three had their backs
turned, but Alex was facing her direction and looking right at
her. There was no way she could go over to them and act normal
"You're right." She said, taking her coat from Tyler. "Let's
Sin City was packed to the rafters and a soapy