Sin City was packed to
the rafters and a soapy mess. Lourdes had no intention of
stripping down to her undies and dancing cheek to cheek with
anybody. She saw the boys off and made her way back out of the
club to the cold night air. She walked around the side of the
club, to the alley way, pulling out a cigarette and lighting
She looked around
quickly, surveying her surroundings. Boys making out everywhere,
and well...doing more than making out. She went back to her
smoke. Albear's classic mustang was parked in the alley like
"What are you doing
out here all by your lonesome?"
Lourdes looked up.
Albear took the cigi out of her hand and had a drag. His brown
hair was tousled to the side and his lips and cheeks were pink
"Where'd you come
from?" She asked.
A guy walked by,
giving Albear and Lourdes the eye. Albear looked at her smiling
and zipped up his black jeans.
"Never mind." Lourdes
said shaking her head. "Nice leather jacket, Hugo
"Young Troy was
attending to my cock, when I saw you and the guys walk up," he
said ignoring her fashion comment, "so I shot my load and came
"Thanks for sharing."
Lourdes said taking back her cigi. "You know, Lita was pretty
freaked out by what she saw earlier today."
"I don't give a fuck
what the bitches you bring by my pad thinks." He said taking the
said, "just one bitch, and you could have warned
"Hey you came to
see me!" He said. "I
do whomever I want, whenever I want, and where ever I
"You don't have to
remind me." Lourdes said. "No guilt, no
He leaned in her face
and kissed her on the cheek. "It's the only way to
Lourdes rolled her
Lita chick," he paused for effect, "what's up
muttered. "I like her."
"Yeah, I can see
that." Albear said. "Haven't seen you for weeks, been spending
all your time with her-"
"It hasn't been weeks
and I never said that."
you've been devoting some of your time to the
new prime aged cock
"Hey no judgment." He
put both of his hands in the air. "The older ones don't cum as
subject!" Lourdes ran her hand through her
"Plus I like a dick
with experience as much as the next girl." He teased. "I always
say, and man who's been around the block, always knows how to use
"Oh, you have no
idea." Lourdes smiled.
"Really?" Albear asked
intrigued, nudging her with his shoulder.
"But that's another
story." She said changing the subject.
"Yeah I bet." Albear
said still looking intrigued. "Alright, so you're having fun with
your older gent, but Lita, she's pretty hot too." He was working
up to some point, Lourdes hoped he was off the subject. "Where
did you say you found her again?"
smirked. "She's in my top A, I bagged her
off of My Space."
"You're so fucking
full of shit!" He laughed. Lourdes laughed too. "You've never
been on My Space a day in your life. But that's why I love
Lourdes nodded her
"So did you fuck her
yet?" He asked seriously.
"What!?" She said
completely off guard. "What are you talking about!" Lourdes
Albear looked at her
all knowingly, but held back for a moment. "Is she who you've
been spending all your time with, now that you're on the
"I'm not on the
rebound! I have Gabriel."
"Yeah right!" Albear
"Weren't you going
inside the club?" Lourdes asked dismissing
"Okay, if you're this
bitchy then I'm going to guess that you haven't hooked up with
her. What happened, is she holding out on
not having sex and nothing like that's ever going to
Albear leaned close to
her face. "Bullshit." He said. "Why are you so upset? Why are you
overreacting? I saw the way she looked at you when I put my arm
around you earlier. All kind of thoughts were flying through that
pretty little head of hers."
leave it alone." Lourdes sighed "I have enough
"What happened? No
"Albear, I don't want
to talk about it!"
"Jeez what the fucks
your problem!" Albear asked. "If I didn't know any better, I'd
say your in desperate need of getting laid."
"Oh fuck off Albear."
Lourdes said beginning to walk away. "Is that your answer to
said grabbing her hand, and pulling her back to him, "oh fuck me,
that's it. You saw him!"
"I gotta go." Lourdes
said turning back, but Albear wouldn't let go of her
"Go where?" He said.
"Where the fuck you gonna go? It's too late for the train to get
you to the other side."
"I'll take a cab."
Lourdes said prying free and walking away.
"No way." He said
jogging up to her and pulling her back. "That's forty bucks that
you know you don't want to spend. I'll give you a ride. And I
want all the details!"
Albear's car door. She turned to him before she got out. "Tell me
this is crazy." She said.
"It's crazy." He
"So what the fuck am I
fuck are you doing?" He
shrugged his shoulders.
"I guess my stubborn
skin is wearing thin."
Albear leaned over and
kissed her softly, then he pulled back. "We don't need to go over
this again," he said, "you know how it is when you want cock, all
your rules and values go out the window."
"Right." Lourdes said
frowning up at Alby, but nodding her head. That wasn't the only
reason why she was here. But it was the only reason that mattered
"So shit or get off
the pot." He said.
"God I hate that
saying." Lourdes said rolling her eyes and getting out of the
car. Albear was still laughing as she slammed the door shut. She
turned and pressed in the security code at the gate. It
immediately began to open.
"Hey!" Albear called
out to her as he rolled down the car window.
"You'll be fine." He
said. "Just remember who you are."
"Who am I?" She
Albear smiled at
Lourdes sighed. "I
just feel so very...so completely...."
"Spit it out." Albear
Lourdes shook her
head. "I just don't remember...how I let myself become so
Albear nodded his
head, understanding what she meant
Lourdes shrugged her
shoulders. "Don't you want to judge me? Just a
Albear shook his head.
"Are you happy?" He asked.
a sick feeling of deja vu. She said
Albear blew her a
kiss, then rolled up the window and sped away from the
"Right." She muttered
to herself. "No guilt, no apologies." Lourdes turned and walked
up the driveway slowly as the gate re-closed behind her. She
reached the doors, still having no idea what she was going to
say. She lifted her hand and pressed the doorbell. "Breathe." She
said to herself. "Just breathe."
She stood outside for
what seemed like forever, when the door suddenly
Alexsander stood there
with nothing on, but a towel wrapped around his waist. His hair
was still perfectly in place. He hadn't made it to the shower
yet. Lourdes looked him up and down, this was going to be harder
than she thought. What was she thinking? She needed to focus. "I
came at a bad time." She said.
Alex shook his head
no. He grabbed her hand and pulled her
"I just thought maybe
we could talk." She said.
"At 1am?" He
Lourdes shrugged her
shoulders. "If I don't do this now...."
He nodded his head.
"Come in." He said, leading her past the second set of doors.
They went and sat in front of his fireplace. Lourdes was already
nervous enough, and with his towel being the only thing between
the two of them, she couldn't focus at all.
"So what are you doing
here?" He asked.
"I don't know."
Lourdes said shaking her head and looking down at her hands. "I
just thought....enough is enough. Maybe I could give talking to
you another try." She looked up at him. "Work it all out this
lifetime, you know?"
He put his
hand on hers. Lourdes couldn't look at him when she spoke. "I'm
dying inside, I can't stand this. This
that I feel for you, I can't take this
"That's why I couldn't
understand, how you could act like what we had wasn't anything at
all." He said.
She looked at
"It made me so mad,
cause I wanted it so bad for us. You said let go," he continued,
"but I kept on hanging on. Even though I knew you wanted it to be
"And you were gone."
He slid closer to her.
His towel was starting to come undone. Lourdes looked away trying
to control herself.
"But every moment I
was gone, it killed me, because I knew there was nothing that I
could do." He put the tip of his fingers on her chin and tilted
her face towards him. "But I still want to be with
Lourdes parted her
lips slightly, but remained silent.
"And I kept on telling
myself, that you'd come back around." He said taking his hand off
her face and turning away slightly. "But obviously your silence
was the biggest sound."
Lourdes continued to
say nothing, but he was piercing through her
"You see, I can't get
over you now, no matter what I do." He turned back to face her,
looking at her intensely with those eyes. "I still want to be
"Why can't I stay mad
at you?" She said more to herself, than him. "What is it about
you that makes me so unraveled?"
"It's only you," he
said, "that makes me, feel like getting, so completely...naked.
More out of control than ever-"
Lourdes leaned over
and kissed him. And just like that, it was on. Alex kissed her
back, pushing her down with his body on the sofa. The world was
falling away and she didn't care about consequences anymore. He
unbuttoned her coat and pulled it off of her, tossing it to the
floor. Lourdes hardly noticed as she pulled him back on top of
her and continued to kiss him. This was probably the worst
decision ever, but she could give a fuck. She wanted
"Let's go to my room."
Alex whispered in her ear.
"Just do me right
here." She kissed him.
Lourdes jerked up,
slightly pushing him up.
"Did you hear
something?" She asked.
"What?" He said
"I thought I heard
something." Lourdes pushed him off of her.
"Hello!" A woman's
voice was calling from far away.
"Oh shit." Alex said
sitting up and putting his head in his
"Who is that?!"
"Hello!" The voice was
"Oh fuck!" Alex
muttered to himself.
They both stood up.
Alex re-wrapped the towel around his waist.
"Oh there you are!"
Some black chick appeared at the top of his steps. "Are you
coming back?" She asked him. Then she noticed Lourdes. "Hi." She
Lourdes stood there
shocked for a moment. She looked back and forth between the two
of them. She started to feel sick to her stomach. There was
something strange about this girl...Same long black hair. Same
big brown eyes. Same complexion. Her dress was even, almost
identical to the one Lourdes was wearing.
Lourdes turned and
looked at Alex.
"Did you..." Her voice
broke. "Did you fuck her?" She whispered
"Lourdes-" He started
Lourdes grabbed her
coat off the floor. "I must have been out of my fucking mind!"
She screamed, running towards the door.
"No. Lourdes wait!"
Alex said coming after her.
Lourdes flung the
first door open, but he beat her to the second
"You can't leave like
this, we have to talk!" He said grabbing
"Fuck you Alex!"
Lourdes screamed at the top of her lungs, but he wouldn't let go
The other girl came
rushing down the stairs trying to make her way past them. "I'm
going to go." She said to Alex, but he was too busy struggling
"I think I should go."
She said again stepping outside.
"Then why are you
still here bitch?" Lourdes yelled. "Get the fuck out!" Lourdes
cocked her fist and lunged at her.
"Hey!" Alex said
yanking her back. "Stop!"
But Lourdes managed to
twist away from him. The girl turned to run, but it was too late.
Lourdes got a fist full of her hair and pulled as hard as she
could. The girl kept running as the hair came off in Lourdes'
Alex grabbed her.
"What the fuck are you doing! If you're going to be mad at
somebody be mad at me!" He slammed the front door and dragged her
into the house.
Lourdes threw the wig
down to the floor and tried to hit him with all her might. He
blocked her punch and grabbed her wrist and held them together
with both hands, refusing to let her go. Lourdes screamed and
struggled, until she was tired. Once she went limp, Alex loosened
his grip. "Can I let you go?" He asked. She nodded her head
without saying anything.
Alex unclenched her
wrists and took a step back. He watched Lourdes as she clutched
her arms to her chest and gently rubbed her
"Now," he said, "I'm
going to get dressed, and come back down, and we're going to
behave like two civilized adults."
Lourdes glared at him
as he turned and walked away...
She could only stand
still a total of two minutes before she was upstairs heading
towards his bedroom. Lourdes stood in the doorway of the master
bedroom looking around. The bed was still made, but that didn't
mean anything for sure.
Lourdes could see his
shadow moving around the bathroom inside the bedroom. She stepped
back into the hallway and leaned against the wall. Alex came
gliding out the room in jeans and a t-shirt and stopped in his
tracks when he saw her. Lourdes turned her head and looked at
"Come in." He said
reaching for her hand to pull her into the room. "Let's have a
Lourdes moved her hand
before he could grab it, but she followed him into the
Alex walked over to
the mini tray of alcohol, picked up the whiskey and started
pouring. "Ice?" He asked.
"I doubt I need it."
He handed her the
drink with the glass filled halfway up. Lourdes took it and drunk
it down and handed it back to him. He looked at her surprised. He
took a big gulp of his drink and set it down. "Want another?" He
She shook her head no.
It was burning all the way down, from her throat to her chest,
and down to her stomach.
"Alright." He said.
hesitate. "Did you fuck that girl?"
"But you were going
"Thanks," she said,
"that's all I needed to know." Lourdes turned and walked away.
Alex came after her. "Don't walk away from me." He said. "Stay
and finish this."
around. "Who was she?"
Alex shoved his hands
into his jean pockets. "Nobody." He said
"Where'd you meet
He looked down at the
"No." He said shaking
"So you picked her up
"Kind of." He
"Kind of?" She asked
shaking her head.
Alex stared back down
at the floor.
"Oh my..." Lourdes
trialed off. "Oh my god, is she a..."
Alex looked up at
Lourdes turned around
and stormed off, but he was at her heels. He grabbed her by her
shoulders and turned her to face him.
"Okay, I get it." He
"Lourdes, don't freak
"I know you." He
"And your eyes are
going wild as we speak."
"Lourdes stop it!" He
said shaking her.
Lourdes jerked away
from him. She leaned back against the wall. Alex turned around,
walking a few steps away from her, running his fingers through
his hair. He turned back to face her. "Just say something." He
"What would you have
"I don't know.
Lourdes shook her
"Don't do that!" He
said. "Yell at me, tell me to fuck off, but don't go silent on
Lourdes took a deep
breath, then finally spoke. "You would have fucked that whore all
night if I hadn't showed up."
Lourdes pushed herself
off the wall enraged. "Do you know how twisted and fucked up that
is!" She started walking away again.
"Why?" He said
following her. "What did I do that was so wrong! You weren't
Lourdes spun back
around at the top of the steps. "She looks just like me!" She
"I know that!" He
yelled back. "That's what I asked for!"
Lourdes stood back
stunned. She was so wrapped up in how she felt, she wasn't
looking at the other side of things. "And, why would you do
that?" She asked confused.
Alex scoffed tossing
his hands in the air. "You're smart. Figure it
"You saw...that things
weren't going to work out between us tonight....so you went and
ordered a prostitute, that looks just like me, off a menu, to
make yourself feel better?"
Alex stood there
rocking back and forth on his heels, saying
Lourdes went and sat
at the top of the steps. "I don't know if I should be flattered
Alex came and sat down
next to her. "Hopefully the latter." He
fuck is wrong with you?" She
"I had a rough couple
of days," he said, "I was nursing my
"And this was your
"Haven't you ever
slept with somebody else because you couldn't have the person you
were aching for?" He asked.
"Don't take your time
and think about it, or anything." He said
Lourdes stood up and
went down the stairs. "That's so fucking unacceptable." She
muttered to herself.
Alex stood up and
walked down after her. "Completely unacceptable." She was still
muttering to herself.
"I just wanted to be
with you." He said.
"Well it was the
closet that I was going to get."
"Do you hear the words
that are coming out of your mouth?" Lourdes asked in
"How can you treat me
so coldly, when Gabriel does the same thing and you let him get
away with murder?" He spat out.
"Oh what are you
talking about?!" Lourdes asked turning away from
"Him and Stacy." Alex
turned back to him, crossing her arms over her
"Don't tell me you
don't see it. Stacy's been working very hard to shine the light
in your eyes."
Lourdes said. "And I'm supposed to trust
"You can trust the
fact that I've seen it with my own eyes." He
"Your a liar. Your
just saying this to hurt me and to absolve
"No I'm not." He said
shaking his head. "I've kept this to myself for weeks. But you
might as well know the truth."
"It doesn't matter."
"How can you say
that?" He asked.
"Because Gabe never
promised me anything. He never had to. We have always known where
we stood with each other."
"And just like that,
you've forgiven him." Alex muttered in disbelief. "He's like
teflon with you, none of the bad shit he does ever
"No, I didn't say
that." Lourdes said.
"I still want to keep
the promises that I made to you." Alex said. "I want you to still
keep the promises that you made to me."
"I never promised you
anything." Lourdes said.
"Yes you did." Alex
said. "Each time we were in bed together, when you kissed me,
when you held me, those were promises."
"No." Lourdes said.
"That was just fucking."
"Your a liar." He
said. "It was so much more and you know it."
misunderstood me." She said coldly.
"I called you
constantly to say I'm sorry." He said.
"I never listened to
"When you finally did
answer, you were unreasonable."
"Yes, because it was
"Was over?" He
"Is over." She
"And tonight at the
bar, you made it very clear that you didn't want to be with
"Until I came here."
"Yes. Until you came
here. But Lourdes, look at it from my point of view. I did make
some mistakes, but this whole time you always had a man lined up
to replace me. And one little slight to
"And you get mad and
wanna go and erase me?"
unbelievable." Lourdes said.
"Hey, take a look in
the mirror!" He yelled.
"Right." She said.
"And on that note." She gathered up her
"Hey good morning!"
Corey leaned over the bed and yelled in Lourdes' ear. His short
black hair was gelled perfectly into place. He had on his
favorite Superman tee stretched tightly over his swimmers
"Hmmm," Lourdes turned
over trying to block out the sunlight, "is it morning
"Yes!" Corey said
Albear turned over
tossing a pillow at him. "Why the fuck are you here so
"I was hoping we could
go out to breakfast, then do the
"I have no idea what
you're talking about." Lourdes mumbled into the
"Oh come on!" Corey
said. "I've been talking about this for
"Yes, but I'm sure
there is something better that I can be doing with my time."
Albear said rubbing his face and sitting up in
"Hey!" Corey said
starting to get upset. "I always do everything that you guys want
to do, and I never ask you for anything!"
Lourdes sat up also,
resting her head on Alby's shoulder, but closing her eyes again.
"What happened, did Tyler and Lamont tell you to fuck
muttered. "They said that they wouldn't be caught dead around a
bunch of horny geeks and nerds."
"Corey," Albear said,
"that is so pathetic."
"I know, I know."
herself out of the bed. "I want first shower." She said. "And
then Corey, I'd be happy to accompany you to this
Corey's puppy dog eyes
lit up and he smiled brightly.
"And so would Alby."
She called over her shoulder as she headed to the
Corey jumped on the
bed, trying to tickle Albear in his happiness. Albear layed back
down tossing the covers over his head.
"Okay guys, I'm glad
that you two came with me," Corey said, "but do you have to stick
out like sore thumbs?"
"What?" Albear asked,
looking himself and Lourdes over.
"This is a convention
and you two are dressed like your going to a goddamn fashion
Lourdes laughed. "Hey
sorry pal, but I never made it home last night, so take me or
"What's your excuse?"
Corey asked Albear. "Plan on hitting the clubs right
Albear put his arm
around Corey's shoulders. "I just wanted everybody to know, that
I clearly don't belong here!"
Corey jerked away from
him laughing. "Okay, fine, I get it. Thank you for
"You're so very
welcome." Lourdes said.
"So where should we
start first?" Corey asked.
"I don't care."
Lourdes said. "Your choice."
"Okay well, there's
about a hundred comic book displays and..."
"Okay, I take it
back." Lourdes said. "I do care, why don't we split up and get
back to each other, that way we can cover more
"Sounds great." Corey
said. "Here's a pamphlet of everything that's going on
Lourdes looked over
the pamphlet quickly. She wasn't interested in comics or toys at
all, but... "Oh shit." She whispered.
"What?" Corey and
"It's nothing. I just
didn't know that there would be so many celebrities at this
Albear took the
pamphlet out of her hand, getting her meaning right
"Well, yeah." Corey
said. "Any and everybody will be here, promoting their shows,
signing autographs, there's even an interview panel of cast and
"And what do
you know," Alby added holding the pamphlet up, "a
certain somebody is listed
with his peers and cast mates to make an
"Maybe this wasn't a
good idea." Lourdes said.
"Oh no." Alby said.
"This is the best idea Corey has had all
Albear continued. "We
are going to have sooo much fun."
"I was afraid that
you'd say that." Lourdes said holding her hand to her head, as
Albear looped his arm around both of theirs and pulled them