It occurred to
Niki that her boyfriend was becoming an insatiable drunk. Every
day he stopped by the store to purchase beer and cigarettes, then
he would come home. Never mind that he had a DUI and had lost his
license, he had plenty of rides to and from work. He never missed
a day of work, but somehow he always had no money for groceries
and the bills. He always had fines to pay or other bills that
were of no concern to her.
was definitely becoming tiresome. She decided to have a little
discussion with him.
She knew he was
not prime beef when she began to date him. He was nine years
older than her, and he had two kids. Age and children made no
difference to her, but other people seemed to make much of it.
Then there was his wife. No, she had not ended a marriage or
interfered, but rather entered a sad situation. His wife had a
drug problem, and he lost their first child to child services,
who placed her with his father. The drug problem led to affairs
on her part, and then he and their second child left.
If that didn't
make it all look bad enough, the drinking destroyed it all. His
one redeeming feature hardly made him worthwhile. He was
excellent in the bed, but otherwise he was worthless.
He came home
that day and rambled about his day, but she hardly heard him. He
was an expectant little bastard, and he was hungry. He never
remembered that she was up at 4:30 AM to go to work and never got
home before 3:30 that afternoon. He wanted dinner ready. Like a
compliant idiot she always had it ready. She did his laundry, and
she kept their pitiful home neat. The best thing she could muster
was that he was compulsively neat. He never left laundry lying
around, and his beer cans were never in sight once empty. Since
his son lived with his mother she had no one else to pick up
after but the dog and cat.
Today was a bad
day though. They learned that their landlord would be returning
from jail, and they would have to be out by the end of the week.
Her boyfriend already made arrangements with family, but Niki had
nowhere to go. His family would not permit them to live together
unmarried, and Niki had very little family. He tried to find them
a new place, but he was so cheap and picky that they had no luck.
Niki had finally found a temporary home with a friend of the
family, but only for two weeks. The bad news didn't stop
Niki had never
had what one may have called a regular cycle. Her life had been
so scattered and traumatic that she would go three or four months
without a period. She had learned to ignore the gap because
pregnancy seemed impossible. She had been with the same boy for
two years, and he scoffed at protection. He even attempted to
impregnate her, but he had failed. She was not, however, stupid.
Protection was always around and used. She had no desire to be a
mother just now.
Then to her
horror, she realized that her breasts had hurt for three weeks.
She went to a local store and purchased the necessary test. One,
two, three, they all said the same thing. He was going to go to
pieces. Four, five, six the results were the same. He had
expressed no desire for more children, and she had been perfectly
ok with that. Now she had to tell him.
After dinner she
made it a point to let him watch TV. Now it must be said that
they had arguments before. His drinking was out of hand, and his
bossiness was infuriating. In the heat of an argument he had
pushed her to the floor and slapped her around. Niki was not a
frail creature or a pushover. Niki barely stood five foot two
inches, and weighed only 145 pounds, but she was tough. Her
German shepherd/ chow mix puppy was defensive of its owner, and
attempted to help its owner. The puppy was only two months old,
but its owner was its one possession. After one argument the dog
attempted to rip out his throat, and during another it bit him
several times. Niki did not need the dog's help though. A fit of
rage and fear fueled by adrenaline caused her to remove his front
teeth. She didn't pay for the dental work either.
After he seemed
calm she broke the news. He demanded to see all of the tests. She
showed him and his face blanched. He asked her how it happened,
but she curtly told him he was as much to blame as she was. He
surprisingly accepted that and went on with life.
After the move
they could only see each other on weekends, but every day they
talked. It was a painful ordeal for Niki. She loved the bastard,
but he was useless. The baby was due to arrive in early December
because she had conceived near the 28th of February.
Something went wrong, and just at the end of the third month she
miscarried. He was gentle and supportive, and kept telling her it
wasn't her fault. After it ended though, he was not the
supportive person he had been. Whenever she cried about it or
moped he berated her. He began to tell her to get over it, they
would have another one soon.
She would have
liked to, but she had miscarried on Mother's Day. Everyone
assured her it was ok, but no one prepared her for the worst.
That year two of her friends had babies. Pregnancies were
announced by them days after the event. Then he told her his wife
had just had a baby, despite her drug use, and he had to go to
court to protest paternity. Now, it must be said that the child
was mixed and he was, whatever his faults, absolutely devoted to
Niki. All who knew him said she was his whole world. But Niki was
He pushed her to
get over all the miscarriage, and she couldn't move on. His
drinking increased, and her pain did as well. Being from a world
where both parents had an alcohol problem, she was always afraid
of it. The girl didn't even drink. He called her silly and
childish sometimes, but then again she was only nineteen. The
knowledge that his parents secretly were happy that she
miscarried made it all harder. Her mother was the only one who
showed any sympathy. She tried to console her, but she was still
hurting too much.
Tired of it, she
ignored phone calls and "forgot" dates. As luck would have it,
she had her eye on a guy that came in where she worked. The rest
drink, and he drives for a living. He may be a mama's boy, but he
respects women. He doesn't hit at her, and he doesn't shout. He
felt such deep sympathy for her loss, that he was unable to even
consider sex at first. Niki found luck was on her side. She found
an apartment near work, and before she could blink he was there
all the time. Almost exactly two years after they began dating
she realized they had never spent a night apart. She also
realized she was pregnant. This time though, there weren't ex
wives or other children. There was only them.
That baby is two
now. Ironically, he was conceived on Mother's Day, and he was
born on February 29th of 2008. Did I mention that they
got married, and his eyes were so full of love it nearly made
their mothers puke? I forgot something else too. You know how all
girls are told that their prince will come riding in on a white
horse? Well, hers showed up in a white dodge pick-up truck. Even
more hilarious to her, the car one of her exes coveted was bought
for her. He's a keeper.
happened to her boyfriend? Well, I am glad you showed so much
interest. He continued to call and wheedle, and he even saw them
together. He wouldn't let go. A year later he called her at work
to talk. He was engaged to a woman ten years older than him with
three children. She was lazy, and it was his own confession that
he paid all of the bills. Interestingly enough, she had an
addiction to prescription pills. He had to quit drinking because
his welding job required sobriety tests randomly. He did sound
tipsy though. He unsuccessfully tried to make it seem like he
was not sorry for the split. He made fun of her and the like
asking if she was pregnant yet. At this point she wasn't, but she
Exactly a year
after that phone call two guys he had worked with came in for
lunch like they did every week. One told her that he never got
over her, and that bothered her. Today they came in not just to
eat lunch, but to tell her something. The day before
Thanksgiving he had been killed. His car flipped over when he
presumably swerved to miss something. For once, he was sober. His
neck was broken, and he died instantly. With him died much of
Niki, but that part had been a parasite. The new, unencumbered
Niki was sad, but free. Finally.