What About Her?

      2008 We were starting a new chapter in our lives. This year was going to be quite a ride. We had our GPS and our car packed and we were ready. We were going to do the Lords work. We were going to be part of a big ministry who was taking care of the sick, feeding the homeless, and doing everything that we wanted to do in our own hometown. The day before moving day, we were saying bye to neighbors. We had no family to say bye to. “Puppy’s” were spread out in different states, and all mine were back in New York. So, March 3rd came and we were heading out on a brand new adventure. We spent 4 days driving there and we were excited! This was going to be fun!

      We had a great time for the first two months. Everything was running beautifully. We were spreading the gospel, we were feeding the homeless, we were clothing the naked, and we were doing the Lords work. “Puppy” at the time was still continuing to sing and make CD’s only this time it was for the ministry.

There was another person who ran this ministry as well. She was “GentleHeart” and she was so beautiful, both inside and out. She was an elderly woman from Australia and I loved her so much. I was with her in her own townhouse one day, and was telling her of the constant feet pain that I had. I was telling her how I never had any relief from the pain there. I had had planter fascia surgery on both feet while I was in New York, and neither worked, and I had daily bad pain in them every day. The night that I was sitting there telling her about it all, she asked me if she could pray over them. I told her sure. She got on her hands and knees, and picked up my feet and took my slippers off of them, and she started to cry and pray. I was so touched. And by the time she was finished praying, there was no pain in them any longer. I mean, NO pain. I was able to walk back to my townhouse in no pain. I rejoiced the whole way.

There was another time, not long after this happened, when I was talking to “Wolf” about the pain I had in my heart and giving him a small run down of the life that I had led. I told him how he looked just like “serpent” and how I couldn’t seem to get passed that, and how each time I looked at him, I’d get flashbacks. So, he came over to me, knelt down in front of me, I was on the couch, and he said, “HIT ME!!” I was floored! I said, “What?? Hit you? Why?” He said, “Come on, give it to me, as hard as you can. Tell me what you would tell him if you had a chance”. I was still shocked. I couldn’t do that! He said, “Come on, what would you say to him?” I said, “I’d ask him, why??” He said, “it’s because I was never loved when I was growing up.” Then I broke down and cried. I knew that “serpent” must not have been loved growing up, just by what his family was like. He said, “do you forgive me?” That took me a while. There was more conversation between us, and then finally my heart broke, and I forgave him, right there in that living room, I finally forgave “my Ex” for everything that he’d ever done to me.

I also received the baptism of the “Holy Spirit while I was there. I have always believed that it was demonic, until I got to California and talked to “Puppy” about it. He helped me to see the truth and helped me to understand it. So one night during this first two months “Puppy” and I were worshiping together and he was praying in tongues and I mentioned that I’d really like that. So he came over to me, knelt down beside me, put his hand on my chest, and said, “Father, she really wants your gift of your Spirit, will you please give it to her?” Then I felt something in my chest. It was like something in there tickling. It was joy. I started laughing and “Puppy” said, “let it out”. So I spoke the words that I was feeling in my chest. I spoke them out and giggled and I was so happy. We both began worshiping again this time I was praying in tongues too.

And then suddenly there was a huge split in the ministry. Hard feelings and bad things were floating around everywhere. “Puppy” and I kept our heads low and prayed hard, the whole time.

      Four more months later, after the big split, we started noticing that “Wolf” was teaching some real unbiblical things. Weird things were starting to happen there. A horrible darkness was coming over the place. A cold evil. “Wolf’ started writing up ‘teachings’ that included some really crazy off the wall unbiblical things. They stopped feeding the hungry and clothing the naked. Their ‘storehouses’ went dry. We started seeing A LOT of false teachings and we started getting really uncomfortable being there.

      After eight months of being there, seeing all we were seeing, we knew it was time to get out. We also knew it would be hard to get out of there. There was a lot of control going on. I was his ‘secretary’ and “Puppy” was his musician and he really wasn’t gonna let us go without a fight. We knew that we had to face “Wolf” and tell him that we were leaving. As soon as we did, he instantly told us we were NOT hearing God, and we were going to be out of His will; in fact he even told us that if we were to ever leave it would go "very badly" for us. He was manipulating us into staying. Well, later on there was a big blow up at our house about this whole issue. It was such a big argument and such a bad situation that we knew that we wouldn’t be able to get out of there without help. So the two of us secretly made a video and put it out on YouTube. We told about what was going on and how we needed to get out of there and within a week people had donated 700 dollars to us to get out.  

And one guy, “Rescuer”, even emailed us and told us that he had been there previously and knew what it was like, and would we like to go to his house and stay with them until we could get home. So, he came to get us, from about 500 miles away, and on his birthday! He got there late that night, snuck into the house and we waited. First thing in the morning, under a cloud of fog, we packed up the cars and took off. We were getting out of there and we were glad. We ended up staying with “Rescuer” and his wife and new baby for about four months until we were actually able to get back home where we belong.

       I do not regret going there to “Wolfs”. My feet were healed there. I was baptized by the Holy Spirit there. And I was finally able to forgive “serpent” while I was there. So if you were to ask me if I believed that it really was the Lords will for us to go there. I would say YES! It sure was.

      So we stayed with “Rescuer” and his little family for the next four months. We had family and friends who donated and supported us during that time, and sent us enough money to get back home.