"Not everything is
about you." He said bitterly.
"Oh it's not?" She
asked smartly. "Then what the fuck am I doing
"What are you so
afraid of?" He asked. "Really, I mean, what's the worse that
could happen? Are you afraid that you might actually enjoy
yourself? God forbid that should ever
Lourdes scoffed in the
other direction. "I'm gonna get the fuck outta here." She said
walking past him as he grabbed her arm and swung her back around.
There was a loud knock on the door.
"You promised that
things would be different," he said, "you promised you would stop
running out on me."
"Alex, I can't trust
you!" She exclaimed. "What is the point of all the rules that we
have in place if all you do is break them?"
"The rules that we had
set into place, were made at the beginning," he said, "maybe they
need to be revised."
"Always to fit your
There was another loud
knock at the door. "Fuck off!" Alex yelled. "We'll be out in a
minute!" He turned back to Lourdes. "Not just my needs. Both of
our needs. Are you telling me you still feel exactly the same now
as you did in the beginning?"
"That's not the
point." She said.
"What is the point
then!?" He asked.
"The point is, you
don't say whatever comes into your head, to get me to do what you
want and then go back on your word the minute you have me where
you want me!"
"I'm not going to
argue with you about this anymore." He said. "It's different out
here, we don't have to sneak around and hide. We can go out and
do whatever we want. And I was crazy enough to think, that was
what you wanted."
"I do." She said
softly. "But with everything that has happened, it's just too
"No it's not." He
said. "You're just afraid."
"Yes!" She said. "And
you're pushing me!"
"If I don't who
will?!" He said. "My friends are trustworthy. There's nothing to
be afraid of. You are safe here."
Lourdes put her hands
on her hips and sighed.
"If you want to go,
I'll take you to the airport." His blue eyes looked sad. "Now if
you want to stay, I would like that very much. But if you do
stay, you better fucking act like you want to be here with me
every step of the way. You got it?" Alex didn't wait for her to
answer. He went out of the door and closed it behind
The phone rung three
times. One more ring and she would be sent to voicemail. "Please,
please pick up." She whispered to herself.
"You're talkin' to the
man, what up?" Albear's voice came through clear on the other end
of the line.
"I think I fucked up
already." She said quietly into the phone.
"What did you do?" He
asked. "Let me guess, he didn't like his Christmas
"He invited people
over, and I sort of freaked out."
"Do these people know
"No, I don't think
"So what's the
exactly what he wants to
"Why did you go out
"What do you mean, why
did I come out here? To visit my friend. To be with
with him! Put yourself out of your head for
once and be the fabulous girl that I know you can be. Only don't
be too fabulous, we want you to come back
"L.A. can big a small
town sometimes Alby, it only takes one person to see
"Would that be the
worst thing in the world?"
There was silence on
the other end of the line.
There was still
"Okay, fine I get it,"
she said, "but I'm not like you, I can't do whatever pleases me
on a whim just to have my needs met!"
"Who the fuck are you
kidding?" Albear said throwing her words back at her. This was
the second time today. Lourdes began to open her mouth but the
line went dead. He hung up on her. Guess she had her
Lourdes put the cell
phone away as there was a soft knock on the door. She looked up
as it opened. Alex came in and walked right up to
"I'm sorry-" She
started to say, but he pulled her close and kissed her. His lips
were soft and wet, which made her tingle in all the right places.
She wondered what he was thinking. He pulled away slightly,
resting his forehead on hers, while he kept his eyes
"We'll do whatever you
want." She said. "Let's go and paint the town
"Where are we going?"
Lourdes leaned over and whispered to Alex. He only smiled at her
but said nothing.
"We have no plans!"
Sophie said from the drivers seat. "The night is ours. What would
you like to do?"
Lourdes looked at
Alex. He nodded his head, encouraging her to come up with
"This isn't my town."
Lourdes said. "I'm just along for the ride."
Alex smiled, shaking
his head at her. Wrong move, she guessed.
"Oh come on!" Isaac
called out. "That's too easy, there must be something you like to
do, haven't you been here before?"
"Yes, I've been here
before." She said. "And I was always at the mercy of someone
Alex looked at her
surprised. She should have kept her mouth shut, she would
probably have to give out a list of who she's hung out with
before, here in L.A. Lourdes continued talking. "What would you
guys be doing if I wasn't here? That's what we should be
"Yes, but we can do
that any time." Sophie smiled at her in the rear view mirror.
"Come on, toss something out there. What would you be doing if
you were at home?"
Alex looked at
Lourdes, grinning. She probably shouldn't say the first thing
that comes to mind. "I would be at a dinner party." She said
"No it's true."
Lourdes said. "Help me out here." She nudged Alex in the
"She is right," he
said, "it is very likely that she would be at a dinner
"I seem to
remember you guys dodging my question earlier." Lourdes spoke up.
"If I wasn't here, what would you be
"Well first, Isaac
would hit the bar." Sophie said.
"And then Sophie would
hit a club." Isaac said next.
"And then we would all
end up back at another bar or drinking somewhere else." Alex
said. What else was new? She didn't believe a word of
"Now you," Sophie
said, "what would you be doing if we weren't
"I generally like to
read a lot." Lourdes said. Alexsander doubled over in his seat
laughing, but she continued. "You know, a good book. Maybe a
"What's the deal?"
Sophie asked, looking at Alex in the rear-view mirror. "Is she
putting us on or what?"
"She is definitely on
her best behavior!" Alex said as Lourdes pinched his leg. He
grabbed her hand and continued laughing.
"From first glance, I
would say that she is a bit reserved." Sophie
"Is that so?" Alex
asked, while Lourdes rolled her eyes.
"But you do get points
for that cute little red school girl outfit, that you had on
earlier." Isaac offered. Sophie laughed nodding her
"Hey retract those
eyeballs!" Alex said.
"What can I say, I
try." Lourdes mumbled. Alex wrapped his arm around her shoulders
and kissed her on the cheek. Lourdes wasn't very comfortable with
that, but she didn't want to react
"However, what you
have on now is more bad ass." Isaac said.
Lourdes looked down at
her outfit. Black was the universal color, not very LA anymore,
but she didn't give a shit.
"And more appropriate
for this crowd, might I add." Sophie said.
"Is it going to be
like this all night?" Lourdes asked Alex.
"Oh honey, we're just
getting started." Sophie laughed. "And if you're not going to
help us out with who you really are, then we will just have to
come up with it all on our on. So now at second
"Okay, give it to me."
"I would have to say,
even the most reserved girl, has to have somewhat of a wild side
in order to capture baby boy Alex's
"Baby boy." Lourdes
repeated raising her eyebrows at him.
"So don't hold back on
our account." Isaac said.
"You got me." Lourdes
said. "In addition to a good book or a movie, I sometimes
volunteer and read to the elderly."
"That's it!" Sophie
said. "I'm stopping the car!"
"Take that back!" Alex
"No seriously, take it
back!" Isaac said. "She will pull over and kick you out of the
"Fine I take it back!"
"I think we might have
to resort to other tactics to get this girl to open up." Isaac
said. "Sophie won't ride around with a nun."
"No really, it's
actually okay for you guys to ignore me," Lourdes said, "in fact,
I prefer it."
"She doesn't like to
be the center of attention, well that says something." Sophie
"What's that? A
disparaging remark?" Isaac asked.
"Hey!" Lourdes said.
"I'm barely hanging on with these two as it
"Okay, that's it,"
Sophie said, "the first bar we see, we're pulling over, I think
we all need a shot of happiness!"
"Yes!" Sophie and
Isaac said. "So pick one."
pointed at the first bar she saw. A place called The
"Oh yes, I like her!"
"No, we are not going
there." Alex said.
"Too late, we're
pulling over." Sophie said.
"Good move." Alex said
"This is your fault."
Alexsander said to Lourdes as they stood outside of the lesbian
"Hey, how was I
suppose to know?" She asked.
going in there," he said, "there are enough rumors
flying around about me."
"What, you're a gay
woman too?" She asked sarcastically. "Because I thought the
latest rumor was that you liked to fuck all your female
"Watch it!" He
Lourdes tilted her
shoulder at him and smiled. She started to walk
"Where are you going?"
"I need to use the
ladies room. I'll be back." She called over her
"Don't stop for a
drink and bring Sophie back with you!" He
Lourdes nodded her
head, but kept going.
"Get in here." Sophie
said pulling Lourdes in the ladies, bathroom stall. "I just want
to let you know that this sweet innocent girl bullshit doesn't
square with me."
"So you're saying that
you want to be friends?" Lourdes asked
"Why do you think that
Alex introduced us to each other?" She
"I have no idea."
Lourdes said. "I'm just trying to keep up."
"He introduced us
because he thinks we have a lot in common."
"So you expect me to
tell you all my secrets?" Lourdes asked.
"I expect you to give
us a chance." Sophie said.
"You got it." Lourdes
"So a good book and a
movie huh?" Sophie asked. She pulled a compact mirror out of her
purse. She opened it very carefully. "How about some nose
"Just say no." Lourdes
"Come on don't be
"No, really, you
shouldn't have." She said firmly.
Sophie pulled a mini
plastic bag out of her pocket filled with other party
"Oh yes, you should
have." Lourdes smiled.
"I knew it." Sophie
said. "A pharmaceuticals girl."
"Or what have
"Well this should
break the ice." Sophie handed her a yellow
"Or put us under it."
Lourdes said, dry dropping. Sophie did the
"Is it too early to
ask you what are your intentions? Towards
"Just a smidge."
Lourdes held up two bent fingers. "Maybe by a year and a
Sophie laughed. "So
you're not looking for him to make an honest woman out of
Now it was Lourdes'
turn to laugh. "I'm a free bitch baby."
"A girl after my own
heart." Sophie smiled.
"We should probably
go." Lourdes said. "Alex refuses to come inside." Sophie took
Lourdes' hand and pulled her out of the stall. "First," she said,
"we have to pry Isaac off of the dance floor. He loves nothing
more than being surrounded by women."
"Could you have taken
any longer?" Alex said to all of them. "I thought you were going
to leave me out there forever."
"Sorry." Sophie said.
This time she was in the passengers seat and Isaac was driving.
It was just as well. And probably best that she wasn't operating
repeated also, though she was very far away. "Long line in the
"How is that funny?"
Lourdes looked outside
the window at the nightlife.
"So a girl who enjoys
a good book and reads to the elderly, must lead quite an exciting
life," Isaac said, "what is it that you do in the
"Mooch off actors and
rich old men." Lourdes said flatly.
Sophie started choking
on the water she was drinking. Lourdes put her hand to her face
and tried not to laugh. Alex did not look pleased with her
"That must take a lot
of skill." Isaac said sarcastically. "Did you have to go to
school for that?"
"Alright, let's stop
this line of questioning." Alex said.
"It was more like a
trade school," Lourdes offered, "a program called Whore's and
"I heard of that!"
Sophie said. "It's a really hard program to get through
"Oh you have no idea
how hard." Lourdes chimed in. "You can't imagine the amount of
work and research that you have to put in. Or
"Okay, what were you
drinking back there?" Alex asked.
"So when you
graduate," Isaac asked, "do you immediately go into an
entry-level position or do you have to start out working the
streets like everyone else?"
"I interned on the
streets, while I was in school," Lourdes offered, "but I
graduated to the big time when I scored
"I don't know what you
done to this girl," Alex said to Sophie, "but I want the old one
back, by the time we hit our next location."
Lourdes laughed and
looked back out the window.
"Do we know these
people?" Lourdes asked Alexsander as they made their way through
"Sort of." He said.
"These are more Sophie's friends than mines.
"Hey Alex!" A group of
people were waving him over.
"Right." Lourdes said.
Alex smiled and waved at them. "Come on," he said, "let's go over
and say hi."
"No," Lourdes said,
"that looks like your thing, I'd rather wonder
"You're in a house
full of people," he said, "you can't be
"I'm not." Lourdes
said. "Go ahead, do your thing, I'll be
He looked at her
disappointed, but went over to his friends.
Sophie came up to
Lourdes and grabbed her from behind. "Excuse me, do we know each
other?" Lourdes asked surprised.
Sophie laughed, her
brown eyes flickering. "Isaac ditched me to go play a round of
"Boys and their toys."
Lourdes smiled. "I'm a Bond girl myself."
just kidding, so you are a video game freak
"I wear it
proudly." Lourdes grinned.
"I have a
feeling this is a losing battle." She sighed. "Next subject. You
"As luck would have
it, I have two left feet." Lourdes shrugged.
"It's just that,"
Sophie smirked, "I seem to remember Alex telling me about a night
he chased you all around a club."
"Is that right?"
"A dance club. A gay
dance club, if I my memory serves me correctly. He said you
danced half the night away, completely torturing him in the
process, before he could get to you."
"He told you that?"
Lourdes asked surprised.
"So two left feet
Lourdes put her hand
on her hip and laughed. "I'm gonna need a minute." She
"No time like the
present." Sophie pulled her outside, to where people were
dancing. The music was decent, people seemed to be having a good
time, so Lourdes played along. She wasn't feeling too bad either.
They danced for two songs.
"Nice rhythm two left
feet." Sophie called out to her. Lourdes took her hand and
twirled her around as they continued to dance. She was actually
having fun, though she was completely surrounded by strangers. A
guy made his way over to them, trying to dance in a group with
"Are you looking for a
plus one?" Sophie asked Lourdes.
Lourdes shook her head
no, while still dancing.
"Great, come with me."
Sophie stopped dancing and pulled her though the house, to a
corner that wasn't occupied by people. "A man sees two women
dancing and automatically thinks that he's needed." Sophie
"It must be in their
DNA." Lourdes said.
"More like in their
D.I.C.K." She spelled out. "But no worries, Sophie has the cure
for all ails." She said lighting up a joint. "We need some girl
time to talk."
"Uh-oh, what have I
gotten myself into?" Lourdes asked, taking the
"Hi Sophie!" A girl
ran up and gave her and quick hug, then continued moving to the
next room. Sophie turned her attention back to Lourdes. "You ever
play truth or dare?" She asked.
"You've got to be
kidding?" Lourdes said.
"No, no, it'll be fun.
Look at it as a way to break the ice."
"Not really," Lourdes
said, "but shoot."
"Truth or Dare?"
"You don't like us
very much do you?"
"What?" Lourdes asked.
"I don't even know you! Give it some time."
"Fair enough." Sophie
Another girl walked by
greeting Sophie. She had a tray of shooters. Lourdes and Sophie
grabbed two each.
"Now you." Lourdes
said after the first shooter.
Lourdes looked up
surprised. "Really?" She said. Sophie nodded her head, waiting
for a challenge.
"Okay...I dare you
to," she dipped into her purse and pulled out a tube of red
lipstick, "apply this all around the outside of your mouth and
teeth, and carry on like this for the next fifteen minutes with
everybody that you come in contact with."
"You sure you wouldn't
rather I streak through the house naked?" She
"Now what would be the
fun in that?"
snatched the tube out of her hand and applied the lipstick as
messily as possible.
"Time starts now."
Lourdes said looking at her cell phone.
Sophie smiled, as two
people walked by looking at her crazy. She looked at Lourdes.
"Hey you started
this." Lourdes said.
"Truth." Lourdes said
"You're no fun at all
"Sometimes the truth
is more fun, than silly actions."
"Okay, okay." Sophie
said. "Truth. Are you the reason my good friend Celia is no
longer in the picture?"
Lourdes felt like she
was punched in the stomach. She drunk down the second
"Remember you have to
said, "I didn't know Celia ever existed, until she did, and then
"That doesn't answer
"I think it does."
Lourdes said. "Alex waited to the very last possible moment to
bring her up. In fact, I had to find out about her from someone
"And who was
"One question at a
time." Lourdes said. "Those are the rules."
"Dare." Sophie said
"I think somebody else
may be playing the avoiding game." Lourdes
"I'm sticking to my
"I dare you to go and
plant a big fat kiss on somebody in this room that you don't
"Fine, let me go and
wash my face first."
"Oh no no," Lourdes
said, "you have to do this as is."
"You know if you
actually pick dare, I'm not going to let you off
"You can always choose
truth." Lourdes held up her hands.
Sophie drunk her other
shooter, handed it to Lourdes and stormed off. She walked up to
the drunkest girl in the room and kissed her cheek, smearing as
much lipstick at possible all over her face. The girl let out a
shriek as Sophie quickly made her way back to
"Oh Sophie, what have
you done to yourself?" Isaac walked by with a couple of guys
laughing. Sophie promptly gave them all the