"You read my mind." Lourdes said, motioning for Dalia to lead
After a few drinks. Lourdes found herself back outside,
sitting down. Lita had avoided her for the last hour, and she was
about ready to give up and go home.
"Hey Lourdes, come in a play a game with us." Dalia said
"Yeah, in a minute." Lourdes looked up smiling. "I just want
to finish my drink."
"Well you can finish inside." Dalia smiled holding her hands
out to pull Lourdes up.
"I mean, I want to finish my cigi." Lourdes
"Those things are bad for you." Dalia
"I know, I know."
"Five minutes," Dalia said, "or else I'm coming back out here
to get you."
"Five minutes." Lourdes repeated. "I
"Oh great, the next person I wanted to see." Dalia said as
Lita walked up. "Try and get this girl to come in under ten
"I'll try my very hardest." Lita smiled.
Lourdes choked on her drink and started coughing, as Lita
stood off to the side giggling. Dalia went inside and Lita sat
down next to Lourdes. She leaned against her and rested her head
on her shoulder. Lourdes kissed the side of her head and let Lita
hold her hand in her lap. "Sorry." Lita mumbled. "It wasn't my
intention to start the year off by fucking up your
"You haven't." Lourdes spoke quietly. "It's all very
flattering. Trust me...and maybe a little fucked
Lita laughed. "Yeah," she said, "us girls really do know how
to create the drama."
"That we do." Lourdes smiled. "But...here's my
"I'm listening." Lita said.
"Everyday is a fight for me too. It's a struggle. To maintain
order and happiness, combined with sense and sensibility...it can
sometimes be a nightmare for me. And it sometimes leads me down a
very dark path. A path that most people are afraid to delve deep
into. Do you know what I mean?"
"I think so." Lita said still resting her head on her
"To be refined like gold," Lourdes said, "to continue to
reach for the stars, everybody has something in them that wants
"Yeah, but not everybody lives their life according to that
plan." Lita said. "But it's not just about the fact that you
haven't stopped dreaming, it's so much more than
"Yeah," Lourdes said, "it's lust."
Lita lifted her head off her shoulder and started laughing.
"Okay, you don't have to reduce it down to it's most basic form
Lourdes laughed also. "See," she said still laughing, "I like
this, why should we ruin it?"
"Because," Lita said, "we can't keep going down this path
that we're on. So I'm being a big girl. And I'm making my
intentions known. I'm falling for you, and you don't even know. I
hate that I'm an afterthought, when you walk through the door.
It's taken me all this time to build up the courage just to let
you know...I just," she paused and smiled, "I think you're
Lourdes sucked in her breath slowly. She didn't want to be a
bitch but...she wanted to test her a little. "So now I know." She
said. "What am I suppose to do with that?"
"Whatever you want." Lita said. "Nothing, something, but it
had to be said."
"Why? What does it change?"
"Because, now you'll notice me when I walk through the door.
And everyday I promised myself, that I would figure out some way
just to let you know, 'cause until the day I do, I'm just
"If you could hear instead, the things I've left
"But why now?" Lourdes asked.
"I feel this pressure. Like my window of opportunity is
closing with you and it's causing me to take this leap. I think
there's something real here. And it doesn't have to look like
love and it doesn't have to call itself that. And with you, I
don't have to say and do what we're all programmed to say and do.
Not having to be that person is just so liberating and
exhilarating. I don't want to loose it. I just think...I just
think that you're the best."
Lourdes was very overwhelmed by Lita and very caught up in
the moment. She kissed her. Lita let out a slight moan in protest
and pulled back slowly. "Don't do that." She
"What?" Lourdes whispered back.
"Don't do that if you don't mean it."
"I mean it." Lourdes said.
"You mean it right now, but will you mean it
"No." Lourdes said.
Lita leaned back, slightly confused, and a little in
"And I mean that. See, that's the problem with me." Lourdes
said. "You say this doesn't have to be defined and that we can
take it from moment to moment, but I think you want more than
that. And I'm not capable of having the same type of feelings for
a girl that I do for a guy. And I'm starting to get the feeling
that you're going to want those type of emotions from me. So what
happens when I can't give you that?"
"I don't think that is something that you should worry about
right now." Lita smiled.
"Oh really, and why is that?" Lourdes
"Because I think you're more capable than you're letting on.
And if you're not, then it'll just come
Lourdes scoffed in the other direction. She obviously didn't
know her at all.
"What is that?" Lita asked. "Why do you do that? Is it the
attraction thing? Are you afraid of being labeled a
"I was never one for labels." Lourdes
"Says the girl in Christian Lubitan
"Whatever." Lourdes laughed.
"You still never said how you feel about me." Lita said
"I think you're great." Lourdes said. "You're hot, you're
beautiful. Whether I'm attracted to you or not isn't the
"Great, then that mean's that we get along on all levels,"
Lita said, "so let's take it to the next
Lourdes sighed. "You're not listening to what I'm saying to
"Are you afraid to let me see that side of you?" Lita
"Yes." Lourdes admitted. "But not in the way that you
"Well enlighten me." Lita said.
"Lita, I can be the best friend in the world to you, or I
could be the girl your hooking up with, but I can't be both. It
doesn't work that way for me."
"Or do you just not want to be with me
in that way?"
Lourdes stifled back a laugh. "You're still not listening to
me. Lita, I could fuck you where you stand, I think you're so
"Stop right there." Lita said. "I'm not going to let you run
that sentence into the ground, because you have no idea how long
I've been waiting for you to admit that."
Lourdes looked down and smiled.
"Oh I love it when you go silent on me," Lita cheesed, "it
lets me know that dirty mind of yours is working. Am I
Lourdes smirked and looked in the other
"You wanna come home with me?" Lita snuggled up against her.
"Jasper's gone, Pullo's gone. We're all alone. And my place is
very, very close."
"Yeah, I wanna come home with you." Lourdes said putting her
hand on Lita's bare knee and giving it a squeeze. "But first tell
me, can you keep a secret?"
Lita exhaled slowly as Lourdes' moved her hand from her knee
and caressed under her thigh. "If I say yes, will you keep
going?" She asked leaning in to kiss her.
"Only if u want me to." Lourdes said grazing her lips slowly
Lita took her hand slid it in between her legs. "I want you
to. Keep going." She whispered. She kissed Lourdes slowly,
wrapping one hand around her neck. She opened her legs wider,
giving Lourdes more access.
Lourdes let out a pleased sigh and slowly ran her fingers up
her thighs. She kissed Lita's neck until her fingers reached
their desired location. Lourdes paused, teasing
Lita opened her eyes, flushed with impatience. She kissed
Lourdes again, tilting her pelvis as far as she possibly could.
No underwear. Lourdes was surprised. "Planning on getting lucky
tonight?" She smiled.
Lita smiled, kissing Lourdes' cheek repeatedly. "The thought
had crossed my mind." She grabbed Lourdes' hand and pushed it
further up her dress.
"Wait." Lourdes said.
"Are you trying to drive me crazy?" Lita breathed. "Don't
make me beg."
"I don't want to do it like this. Some random hook up at a
Lita grabbed the back of Lourdes head and tongue kissed her.
She pulled away slowly. "Who gives a shit about the location.
"Yes ma'am." Lourdes tilted her shoulder at
Lita layed back on the hard, cement ground, pulling Lourdes
down with her. They kissed for what seemed like forever, when
Lourdes finally pulled away. "Let's get outta here." She
"There's nothing that you can do to me in private, that you
can't do out here, right now, while we're alone." Lita said,
still laying there smiling.
"I beg to differ." Lourdes smirked.
"Just touch me. For a moment." Lita said reaching up to draw
her in closer.
Lourdes looked around quickly. They seemed to have all the
privacy in the world. She scooted away from Lita and knelt down
in front of her bent legs. She kissed the top of each knee
slowly. Wet kisses. Lita smiled up at Lourdes, excited as she
rested her chin on her knees. "Oh don't stop now pretty lady."
She gushed. "Kiss me like that one more time, before we
Lourdes grinned. "I thought I already accepted your
Lita parted her knees, her dress falling all the way up to
her waist, revealing nothing but bare flesh. "Make me believe
you." She said.
Lourdes bit down on her bottom lip and let out another
pleased sigh as she admired her body. "You're so fuckin' sexy."
She said. "But then, of course, you already know that." Lita
closed her eyes and tilted her head back, waiting for Lourdes to
back up her words. She let out a soft moan as she felt the first
touch of Lourdes' wet kisses in between her thighs. She let out a
gasp and started giggling. "Wow!" She said. "Oh I do believe, she
knows what she's doing. Okay! Lourdes, okay I believe
Lourdes lifted her head up, pushing Lita's dress up even
further, kissing her stomach. "What's the point in stopping?" She
asked. "We've already started."
"Now look who doesn't want to wait." Lita said, pulling
Lourdes up on top of her. She wrapped her legs around her waist,
put her hands around her neck and kissed her. Lourdes continued
to kiss her as she grabbed the back of Lita's thigh and let her
fingernails drag along her skin. Lita clenched her legs tighter
excitedly, but Lourdes pulled them apart as she kissed her chin
and down her neck. She kept one leg pinned down as the other
dangled at her side and she moved her hand freely in between
Lita's legs again.
"Ah..." Lita squealed. "Lourdes-"
"Hmm?" Lourdes sighed softly as she worked down, to the top
of Lita's cleavage, kissing her breast.
Lita grabbed her wrist fast trying to push her fingers away.
"Stop!" She laughed. "Get up." She said. "I hear something!" They
jumped up fast, trying to pull themselves together, as Dalia
swung open the door and stepped out. "I thought you were coming
in under ten minutes?" She asked, looking at them
Lita looked at Lourdes, then Dalia, then back at Lourdes. "I
was just about to." She gushed.