The Feeling

The feeling is back

The one I despise

I am not sure

How it got here once more

I sit here and bathe

In the soft opera music

I stroke the black cat

As tears roll from my eyes

Her voice drawing closer

It's making me cringe

The fake sugar coating

Cuts deep in my flesh

I cannot pretend

To be who I'm not

I will not give up

One more ounce of myself

All of my life

She's tried to control me

Failing to see

All I want issweet silence

How can I forgive her,

When the pain

Rests deep

At the bottom of my soul?

How can I heal,

When I am not ready

To take the first step

Andwork things out?

Today got me down,

I am fallen and broken

But tonight my head rises,

I have to believe that

Life will get better.