My eyes closed,
I could take it no more,
Why was he doing this?
What did he want ME for?
Tears welling in my tired eyes,
With him ignoring my muffled cries,
humiliated, helpless, broken, confused,
This was my life, hurt and abused.
Questions filled my aching head,
Did I love him, or want him dead?
So much worry for such a little person,
Fear in darkness to see him emerging.
It's near impossible to forget,
I don't know if I'll ever forgive,
I'm much more confused now,
Because he no longer lives.
Some days I love him,
Some days I don't,
Some days I forget him,
And some days I won't.
It's very hard to live with,
I think it's very sad,
No-one else I know,
Finds it hard to love their dad.