I still wake up every morning reaching for the top of your head.
& Remembering all over again that you're gone forever and dead.
& Knowing it wasn't your choice but the choice if someone else.
& There was really nothing I could do about it. 'Cuz if I could
rewind the sands of time I would've stayed up all night that night.
Just to make sure you didn't go out of the front door of that
house. Because even though you would've died anyway , maybe, it
might've bought me some more time just to sit you down and REALLY
EXPRESS to you how MUCH I loved you. Because even though I told you
it everyday, every second, I NEVER said it enough. & Losing
someone as precious as to were to me was really tough. & I had
a leak I the pipes of my eyes for years. Sitting around thinking
the repairman would never come to patch up MY tears. Checking at
your grave everyday hoping somehow we made a mistake and you were
still alive down there. Praying to god that this was just a
nightmare and you'd get to see me get to highschool. But you didn't
and this is reality. & In a way you were my first love and I
lost you before I had you. And now I'm a sophomore and I'm glad
you, Got to move on to the next stage of your existence, Even if
you, Didn't get to see me move on to mine.
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