Gripped in fear of the love that you gave,
Gripped in fear of the death of my child,
Two different fears fought in my head
One be a beating the other you dying,
Many years I struggled with these thoughts in my mind,
Don’t say a word or argue with you,
Kept me safe in my own little world,
Free from the beatings but not from the booze
I still felt you evil in words that you spoke,
It would have been better to have a beating
For your words went straight to my heart
Breaking, turning it over the years,
Till I decided no more fear to be heard
Or Fear to be felt.
The fear in my heart knowing someday you would depart
Crushed my heart each moment we were apart
I watched you fight I watched you struggle,
To have your precious life,
So many Dr’s and so much pain
Yet I carried the fear as you carried your pain,
Then peace came to you
Heart break for me
Facing the fear of loosing someone so very dear,
FEAR IS A FACTOR OF LIFE
But I faced it with grace and strength that I learnt
I prayed to the Lord up above oh! So much,
Now fear does not haunt me
And memories are good of the Little Angel God leant me,
She taught me patience and love
I thank the Lord up above.
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