He Loved Me First

My eyes open

To mornings first light,

Remember myself...

He loved me first

He sleeps beside me.

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Last night he had me beneath

Taken gently by

Him with the dark eyes, dark hair.

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Defying many

Running away from them even,

A hundred miles an hour he stole us away

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Gave him more than just

My body and soul,

A thief, a gangster, he took my heart;

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Young and foolish I

Gave him my body, how could a thug be so suave?

So determinedly, freely

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He had dimmed down the light, put the music on.

I had watched him from his bed,

covers to my chin, waiting.

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How he touched my heart

With his gentleness, when he’d asked me if

I was a virgin.

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Toying with me some

Soothing me mostly with whispers and

A rabbit foot, my lower belly

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He’ll be distant now,

I’m sure of it

As I stare at his back.

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His breath is the only sound,

He's fine for sure…my stomach flutters

Then his muscle twitches, hiselbow lifts from his side...

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His arm inviting my arm from behind,

But how did he know to assuage

my fears of having been used?

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Slip my arm through his

Pulling my body close, his arm hugs mine.

Close my eyes and breath

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Even as I know

He’ll not be my last,

It’s enough to know

He loved me first, as

He sleeps beside me.