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Because of you... I'm gone.

Poetry By: theimmortalkiss
Memoir



My parents had a fight the day I wrote this. I actually didn't even realise I had written it until I saw it written down... It's a little depressing, I shocked myself when I realised what I'd written...


Submitted:Nov 27, 2010    Reads: 50    Comments: 1    Likes: 0   


I am the world's best actress
I do not say this out of arrogance or deceit
I say this because...
Day-to-day I pretend I am fine
But I am not.
I am sinking
lower,
down,
deeper...
Into a pit of darkness
Where I am cold, alone and insecure.
I am vulnerable,
There is nothing that is left to hang onto,
I am afraid.
Your shouts echo off the walls of my mind
Repeating over and over again what a child should never hear
I am a child and I am alone.
There is no-one I can talk to
No-one I can trust
The tears stream from my cheeks
One by one
they fall down
down
down
But no-one knows
That I am empty inside
That I am dying
slowly
You don't realise what you are doing to me,
by doing this to her.
But why don't you know?
Because I am the world's best actress.
My mask covers up what I am,
how I feel.
I bite my lip and resist the urge to speak up.
It's not like you'll listen anyway,
I'm alone,
distant,
far away
But you wouldn't know,
You'll never know what you did to me,
Are doing to me, to her.
I am dying,
but my mask will never tell.
No-one will know
how far deep I am
down
in my pit of despair
If someone would just take enough time to stop and look,
they'd see my mask is made of sellophane,
and that they'd know all along.
Ignorance may be bliss,
but I am losing me,
because of you. I am fading away.
And so is she.
But you'll never know,
never know,
never know.
That I am hollow
bare
obselete.
I'll keep sinking,
insignificant me.
Alone.
Because of you.





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